Chapter 184: There is no trace of attachment
It was the first time he had been so close to her, and he could smell the faint fragrance of her body when he was close, and his body was close to her weak and boneless body, feeling the heat from her.
"Hmm, hmm."
No matter how much she struggled, he didn't want to let go of her anymore.
The arm around her waist became tighter and tighter, and he wrapped her body tightly around her and pulled her into his arms, one hand tightly behind her back to prevent her from falling backwards unsteadily, and the other hand tightly around her waist and brought it into his arms.
There was a buzzing buzz in Baili Dieyi's head, and his hands were raised against his chest, trying to push him away, but he couldn't use any strength in his hands. She only felt that her breath was difficult, a little difficult to breathe, and it was only when his lips and teeth wandered to her neck that she was able to break and open her mouth and gasp for a few breaths.
"Be serious."
His low voice sounded in her ears, with a hint of nasality, but it was inexplicably good, and she felt a little itchy in her heart for a while.
Conscientious? She felt that this was the time she should not be serious. Turning his head away from his hot kiss, letting his lips with bursts of hot breath burn on her cheeks, Baili Dieyi said to him in a cold voice: "Hua Qinghan, do you know, what are you doing now?" ”
Feeling his body tremble slightly, Baili Dieyi's palm was on his chest, slowly pushing him away from him, avoiding his surprised eyes, she lowered her head and sneered, "I just want you to take me out for a walk, do you think there will be other meanings in my words, so that you misunderstood, and did this kind of thing to me here?" ”
After that, she raised her arm and rubbed her brocade sleeve on her lips a few times, until her lips turned white because of the excessive force under her fingers, and until the eyes of the person in front of her were full of grief, she slowly stopped stroking her lips.
Hua Qinghan looked at her face tightly, and said in a trembling voice: "What do you mean by thinking I will do this to you?" ”
He stretched out his hand to cover his left chest, and whispered with a sad face: "I am not a mortal, and I don't understand what the seven emotions and six desires are in your mouth. However, I also have a heart. What happened to you in the past few days, and why has it only been a few days, that our relationship has become the way it is now? ”
Baili Dieyi replied: "In the past ten years, we have been getting along very well, and we have gotten along very well with the relationship between brother and sister. However, in a month's time, I'm going to get married, and I think it's time for us to keep some distance from now on. I don't care about what happened just now, let's just act as if nothing happened! ”
"Don't care?" Hua Qinghan smiled bitterly on her face and asked her again, "You don't care?" You really don't care at all? ”
"Yes." Baili Dieyi smiled and nodded at him, as if she really didn't pay attention to what happened just now.
"That ......"
Reaching forward and taking her into his arms again, he lowered his head and bit her pale lips, this time, his kiss was aggressive, and the frenzy of his breath rushed straight at her, making her feel a little scared.
"Hua Qinghan, what are you doing here?"
Baili Dieyi was a little desperate in her heart, she didn't expect him to treat her like this, her body struggled desperately, and her hands pushed him forward to push him away from her. The hand around her waist slowly struck downward, and she couldn't stop it, and in a moment, the belt around her waist was loosened, and she felt his hand swimming towards her.
"The flowers are cold."
The person in front of him seems to have really gone crazy.
"Smack."
A cool breeze blew and a crisp slap sounded in the night.
Her face was full of disbelief, she lowered her head to look at the palm that was still aching, raised her head and looked at his eyes full of grief, and wanted to open her mouth to tell him that she didn't mean to, that she didn't mean to break his heart, that she didn't mean to say these sad words, but her lips squirmed for a long time, and she couldn't make a sound in her throat.
"Huh...... Hehe......"
Reaching out to stroke the still painful left side of her face, Hua Qinghan looked at her stunned face with sad eyes, and laughed at herself: "Ten years ago, we met once in Lonely Village, at that time, the ghost queen wanted to hurt you, and I saved you. Half a year later, in the peach blossom forest on the moat outside the city gate, we met again, but you had forgotten me. At that time, you were only up to my waist, with a sweet smile on your face, wrinkling your nose and tiptoeing under the tree to pick peach blossom branches. I watched from afar, and it would have been nice to watch, but in the end, I couldn't hold back, and rushed forward to catch you when you were about to fall to the ground. ”
Baili Dieyi kept her head down and didn't say anything, Hua Qinghan said again: "Later, when you were fifteen years old, I handed you the hairpin, but you smiled at me politely, and didn't call me 'beautiful sister' again, at that time, I was a little lost in my heart, and then later, you were seventeen years old, and you grew taller and more beautiful, from the little little girl when you first saw you to a slim girl." Seeing you alone in the house with a sad face, I feel distressed, and I want to take you out for a walk, but I feel a little abrupt. In the end, I hesitated for a long time, but I couldn't help but say it to you. While waiting for your answer, you don't know how nervous I am, it's only a moment, but I feel like I've been waiting for a long, long time, and my heart is very tormented. ”
Not daring to look at his eyes full of pain, not daring to look at his face pretending to be smiling, Baili Dieyi buried her head deeply and bit her lips tightly, until a trace of blood appeared in her mouth, and she didn't feel a trace of pain.
"It's just your feelings, not for me."
After a long time, she heard her own voice speak to him indifferently.
"You...... You've never liked me, not at all? ”
"No, not at all, Qinghan you think too much, I ...... I've always just treated you like an older brother. ”
The voice of the answer was very soft, light as a floating cloud, as if there was no trace of strength, but when it was heard in his ears, it seemed to be carrying a thousand needles, facing the fierce cold wind to invade his bones.
His steps were weak, his legs were unstable and he took a step back, Hua Qinghan smiled miserably: "It turns out that I am still worried that I am a demon, and I am worried that if you fall in love with me one day, then how can I repay you." At that time, I thought about it for a long time, and sometimes, I even thought about how good it would be if I had been a human being from the beginning. However, I didn't expect that now, things are like this, I have fallen, but you have withdrawn so quickly, and there is no room for me to turn around. ”
Baili Dieyi denied softly: "I have never had half of the fall, how can I get out of the word." You and I have always had only brother and sister affection, and nothing else. Moreover, you also know in your heart that you are a demon, I am a mortal, and mortals and demons cannot be together at all, and they should not be together at all. ”
After a slight pause, she said: "Besides, I am a mortal, my life is only a hundred years at most, what about you, you are a demon, your life is endless." Now, I still have my appearance, I don't have frost on my sideburns, and I don't have layers of uncomfortable wrinkles at the corners of my eyes, so that you will be dizzy and say these irrational words to me. However, ten years later, twenty years later, when my face is old and the green silk turns into snow, you can still guarantee that on that day, you will still be as irrational as today, and say these irrational words to me. ”
"You...... Mind if I'm a demon? ”
He asked her with a trembling voice, and after asking this sentence, his face suddenly became a little pale, and he laughed at himself in a trembling voice: "I know that I am a demon, and I am transformed by resentful spirits, and I have no feelings." ”
Stretching out his hand to cover his chest that was about to suffocate, he laughed sadly: "I don't have any attachment in my life, I have always been concerned about the things in my heart, and most of the jokes that I am not afraid of you are about you." I know that I am a demon and I am not worthy of you, but I don't want much, I just want to stay with you and watch the peach blossoms, just watch you smile happily, I don't dare to hope for anything else, even if, in the end, you marry someone else as a wife, I just want to stay by your side forever, and it is enough to watch you all right. ”
His eyes lit up with silver stars, and his voice sounded like he was begging.
Baili Dieyi turned around and looked up at the sky, she felt that her face was a little wet, as if it was raining on her eyelashes, and the rain kept flowing down her cheeks. She tried hard to stop, but she couldn't, her face was very wet and cold, and her eyes were covered with a patch, so that she couldn't open her eyes.
After a while, she replied softly, "Okay, I promise you." ”