Back in my own nest, I sat on the sofa in the living room. Pen fun and pavilion www.biquge.info

It's still a little difficult to accept the truth that Gu Liang gave me, what kind of existence Lu is, I don't have any impression, I only see his face in Liang's memory.

It's a very smiling and fairy god, and I don't know how long he has lived, and it seems to be rare to see through everything in the world and keep a face that isn't paralyzed.

Am I really him?

He is so strong, wielding a long sword among thousands of people, light as a swallow, and extremely good-looking, I can't find a shadow of a shadow on me.

Gu Hao seemed to see my distress, sat beside me and held my face and let me look into his eyes.

His gaze told me the answers to my doubts, but I couldn't read them.

"Liang· Do you love me or him? ”

I think this sentence is the question that makes me the most entangled, whether it is the so-called reincarnation or not, or the new book that has been rewritten, because I am him, Gu Liang loves me, right? So what if I'm not?

This assumption makes me feel cold, I guess if I don't have a half-dime relationship with Lu, Gu Liang won't even look at me.

Gu Liang tried to open his mouth and wanted to speak, but there was no sound in his throat, and he frowned in pain, looking very anxious.

"I'm sorry, this question is so stupid, don't worry." Now what qualifications do I have to question such a thing, Gu Liang has become like this for me, no matter who lives in his heart, since I love him, I should make up for all the injuries that he shouldn't bear.

Holding his body, feeling the warmth in his arms, how can I let go of me if I rely so much?

"I love you, promise me not to leave me, no matter what happens in the future." I muttered something in my heart, and Gu Liang stroked my long hair, as if agreeing to this request.

Although Liang couldn't speak, we were still very happy to live together, he didn't have to go to the bookstore anymore, and I quit my job.

My parents called twice to ask about the current situation of me and Gu Liang, and of course they picked good things to say.

The fifth brother said that Luo Shengtian was still looking for me all over the world, but he could only pretend to be stupid and pretend that he didn't know where I went.

Time seems to pass slowly in the ordinary, but I will wake up from time to time in my sleep to see if the good around me is still there, for fear that one day I will suddenly wake up and everything will no longer exist.

Zhuo Qing's last words to me are still deeply remembered in my mind, she said that she just needs to wait for time, she said that she will come back to me, she wants to fight against Lu's power, and keeping me is just waiting for her to be strong enough to defeat Lu.

How long can I be better with Liang...

Is simple, peaceful life so hard for me? I just wanted to find someone, guarded and cared for, but it became the most unattainable thing.

Looking at Gu Liang, who was sleeping beside him, his eyes were closed, his eyelashes moved slightly, as if he also had a nightmare that was bothering him.

I've been taken care of by him all the time, and I'm definitely tired, maybe it's time for me to repay him.

What happens if I die? Lu Hui is back, if he recovers his identity as a god, he will definitely be able to defeat Zhuo Qing, then Gu Liang will be free, and he will not have to be tortured anymore, the person he loves is still there, but I don't know where I will go.

Will I still be me by then? Will I ever remember what I went through with him?

No one can help me answer these questions, because I will only know the results if I verify it myself.

I got up and got dressed secretly, and left the nest where I lived with Liang before dawn. The weather was a little cold, so I wrapped my coat around me, and I knew it would be so cold, so I would wear more.

I've been thinking about where to find a decent way to die, don't be too ugly, after all, this face has been with me for twenty-five years, although it's not beautiful, but I'm used to it. It's better if no one can find the body, so that my parents won't know that I'm dead, and when I recover my identity, I'm writing a daughter for their second elder.

As soon as I think of my half-blank "Weiwei Blossom", I am depressed, either I will finish it, or I will not write it, what is it if I only write half of it?

Walking and walking, we came to the South Canal, the wide river has long been civilized, and the turbulent water is the passage to death. I slowly came to the embankment, crouched down and touched the river.

Hmmm·· It's so cold to the bones, it is estimated that my body will not rot in the past ten days and half a month, if the current is strong enough, maybe it can send me to the sea, and the sea burial is not bad.

I'm just dead? Looking at the river in front of me, I couldn't believe that I had made such a determination.

Lu Wei, Lu Wei, what does the past 25 years mean to you?

I took off my shoes and reached out with one foot into the icy water, and suddenly I felt a pinprick pain in my calf. The further I walked down the river, the lower my body temperature became.

Some of the sand, mud and stones under my feet scratched the soles of my feet, and the water level, which was originally waist-high, suddenly became empty due to the change in terrain.

Before I could hide back, I fell into the river, a depth that had already submerged my height.

"Woo..." Instinctively, I tried hard to go up a few times, and when I thought that I was looking for death, I stopped struggling.

In the icy water, I spread my arms and quieted myself, waiting for life to pass by.

There seemed to be many images flashing in front of my eyes, all of which were my experiences in this life, and I was very nostalgic and moved. Finally I saw the huge door, unopened, still bound by countless chains.

"Ahem..." I coughed up a few mouthfuls of water, choking on my nose and mouth.

When I opened my eyes, I saw a red flame dancing around me in the dark night, and I didn't feel very cold.

I don't seem to be dead yet, did someone save me?

Suddenly a woman's voice came from above her head: "It's not so easy for you to die. ”

I followed the sound and looked up, it turned out to be the crazy woman Zhuo Qing.

After a few more mouthfuls of water, I sat up weakly from the ground and looked at her helplessly: "How do you know that I killed myself?" ”

"Do you think I'm stupid enough to let you run away from my sight?"

"You... You've been spying on us? I glared at Zhuo Qing in horror, but she didn't care, and a smile appeared on her purple and blackened lips: "Of course, I can even see when he sleeps next to you." ”

"Perverted! You're still going to be shameless!! ”

Zhuo Qing grabbed my wet hair and pulled me up from the ground.

There was no mercy in her fierce gaze, I wanted to resist but I couldn't even touch her, my scalp hurt so badly that tears were about to fall.

"You let go of me!! Zhuo Qing, you bastard! What I regret the most is that I didn't solve you when I had the ability to kill you, and you have the ability to kill me now!! ”

"It seems that you already know who you are, but what does it matter, you can't change back when you die."

Her words stunned me, why? Why can't I go back when I'm dead, and what else do I don't know?