Chapter 308: Flower of Dust

When she saw him, she became very low, low to the dust, but her heart rejoiced, and flowers bloomed out of the dust. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

Zhang Ailing said that the humble and happy one-way relationship of many crushes was exhausted.

Yin Rongyu didn't understand Yu Youjia's strange and unusual meaning in Gu Lian's heart, in fact, even Gu Lian himself sometimes couldn't fully explain it.

But at this moment, Gu Lian was not afraid to be honest with Yin Rongyu about his thoughts.

Gu Lian didn't look at Yin Rongyu again, his eyes were ethereal, but his words were firmer and clearer.

"I don't want to make myself feel inferior. Do you think I didn't know that working next to him would see him every day, that I would have the opportunity to share his worries and solve his problems, and that I would be closer to him than before? However, if you look at the women around him who secretly admire him but can only bear it silently, I don't want me to become one of them, and there is no other work partner except for his capable female assistant. There are too many people who can help him, I won't be the best one or the one who impresses him the most, I don't have the ability to turn the whole situation around for him, and I don't have the backstage to solve all his troubles for him. So, in fact, I am very satisfied with my current position in his mind, a somewhat special ordinary friend, a friend who can be comforted by knowing each other, this status is far better than a capable employee around him. ”

Gu Lian laughed self-deprecatingly, "I'm not a saint, my feelings have never been reciprocated by him, and I still can't have a trace of resentment towards him because I know that I haven't done anything for him." Once I can get along with him day and night, working for him day and night, I'm afraid I'll start to resent him, resentful that I have done so much for him and not get a different look from him outside of work. The human heart is always more despicable and selfish than noble and selfless, and I myself should be no exception. I don't have the confidence to have no regrets about him after working hard for him for a long time. Therefore, Yin Rongyu, I cannot accept your suggestion. Do you understand? ”

"Or do you really want me to be a woman like Angle Chen who ends up being psychologically distorted for a spoiled relationship?"

Yin Rongyu frowned, and wanted to say something, but was interrupted by Gu Lian's opening again.

"Don't overestimate me, I can't promise myself that I won't become like that. I believe that Angle Chen never thought of sending his lover to prison with his own hands in the first place, but a woman's love is not eternal, let alone pure. Don't try to use me to change Yu Youjia's mind, he won't be happy for you to do so. Me and him are just good friends. ”

"So you don't even dare to work for him?" Yin Rongyu didn't agree with Gu Lian's statement very much, but she was also moved by her rare seriousness, "If you like it, work hard to do it." Why is it that when it comes to emotional issues, you, a woman who is not a woman, think about things so complicated? ”

"I also think that you, a playboy, have not touched a leaf in the flowers, where does this naïve idea come from, thinking that relying on a woman can make people empathize and not fall in love? If you really have a woman like Yu Youjia who can't forget even a few years, you can understand. ”

"You call me naïve?" Yin Rongyu glared at her. Some people even say that she, a playboy, is naïve in the relationship between men and women?

"Are you not convinced, why don't you go to Yu Youjia to comment on the theory?" Gu Lian kindly suggested.

"Uh......" Yin Rongyu wants to come to Japan for a long time, and then see the timing. Gu Lian likes Yu Youjia and can't run away, she just knows this little bit of caution, so don't let Yu Youjia know

Thinking of this, Yin Rongyu immediately changed the topic, "Okay, put aside the emotional matter, let's talk about more realistic things." Regarding Huansheng's new play "Six Doors", I got an update information.

Gu Lian's gaze was aimed at him.

A moment later, Chenxing, who was in the study, suddenly shook his whole body, and his back was cold.

"Martian, you go and die!" Having just learned the latest news about Huansheng told by Yin Rongyu, Gu Lian opened the door and shouted angrily upstairs.

Pei Yueyue, who was managing Chenxing Tieba online in the next room, couldn't help but be startled.

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In the middle of the night, the moonlight was bright, casting a bright moonlight on the ground. In the soft moonlight, everything in the room is silent into shadows of different sizes.

Gu Lian couldn't fall asleep while lying in bed, not because of the surprisingly good moonlight.

She tossed and turned, and the back of her hand inadvertently touched a hard object next to the pillow, the surface of which was smooth. She knew that this was the "Silver Weekly" that Yin Rongyu had left behind, and the grievances and hatreds between Angle Chen and Zhang Qiao were the cover report of this issue of the magazine.

In the addition of Silver Weekly's narrative, the whole story is full of images of how a woman is mad with love and jealousy, and she plots revenge and finally gets what she wants.

"From now on, he has nothing else to think about but me." Even the only words that Angle Chen uttered in front of the reporter's camera were interpreted by the author of the weekly magazine as a great emptiness after her successful revenge. It is a reproduction of the classic image of a vicious resentful woman who is scheming and vicious in martial arts novels, and has a grudge entangled in love and hatred for negative men.

At first, following the exaggerated technique of this report, Gu Lian didn't feel anything when she read this article, until she saw Angle Chen's smiling photo, and with what she said, Gu Lian felt an inexplicable chill welling up in her heart.

In front of Yin Rongyu, Gu Lian was unmoved and didn't let him see anything.

At this time, in the dead of night, Gu Lian imagined the story of another woman in a magazine and the sad smile, but the slight fear in her heart became clearer with the clarity of the moonlight.

The writer of the report did not understand Angle Chen's smile and sentence, and neither did Yin Rongyu. They only saw the fact that Angle Chen personally sent his former lover to prison, but misinterpreted her motives. The magazine believed that she hated because of love, and Yin Rongyu thought that she was due to exclusivity.

And Gu Lian, what he saw from that smile was despair.

No matter what kind of situation Angle Chen and Zhang Qiao are today, they have been able to support each other for so many years, and there should have been a time when the two sides were relatively pure. However, time has changed, and what is the purpose of a fairytale beginning story that has developed into such a poignant ending? Is it the ambition of men, or the connivance of women?

Angle Chen did not shy away from the fact that he testified in court and reported the facts, and even intended to make the matter known to the world. She could have asked the police to keep it strictly confidential and secretly operate the matter, but why did she choose to make it public? Is it because I'm afraid that others won't know, or I'm afraid that Zhang Qiao in prison won't know?

In the report, it was also specifically mentioned that before the report, Angle Chen had already clarified her relationship with Zhang Qiao financially, and she had nothing to do with Zhang Qiao on the books, and it was rumored that many of Zhang Qiao's assets entrusted to her to manage had also become property in her name. Because of the meritorious report and the fact that Angle Chen had never actually participated in Zhang Qiao's fraud cases except for accompanying Zhang Qiao, she claimed in front of the police that she had inadvertently discovered Zhang Qiao's fraud before she chose to collect evidence to report it. The Commercial Crime Bureau not only failed to prove that she was Cheung's accomplice, but may also reward her for her meritorious reporting.

Since then, Zhang Qiao will never be able to forget his biggest failure in his life, let alone because of a woman he trusts the most.

Angle Chen is not afraid at all, this man will come out one day and will be the first to seek revenge on her?

Or is that what she's for?

Gu Lian thought back to Angle Chen's mysterious and calm smile, and the more he thought about it, the more cold he felt, as if he saw a bottomless abyss from that smile.

What kind of pain and disappointment did a small flower that originally bloomed out of the dust go through to become a poisonous flower that devoured people's hearts and destroyed hope?

Gu Lian thought wildly, and immediately denied his association, it must be all his own blind thoughts. I've never seen this woman before, so why do you think your guess is correct?

In any case, the biggest reason why Gu Lian thought about Angle Chen so repeatedly was just to remind herself that she should never become a woman like her. If a woman is so desperate, I am afraid that there is no one or nothing in the world that can save her heart.

As a woman, there are already too many lessons and lessons to be learned from falling in love with someone you shouldn't love.

Gu Lian can't guarantee that she will always have a sound heart and personality to maintain that hopeless love. For Youjia, she has done her best to restrain herself, sometimes she wants to get closer, sometimes she wants to stay away, until recently, she has calmed down a little. After Yu Youjia's critical illness that night, she realized that what she wanted most was Yu Youjia's health and safety, and everything else was no longer important.

However, when human desires settle down, they always raise their heads again. Gu Lian has never been afraid of the most malicious suspicion of human nature, especially her own.

If he really entered Huayue desperately for Yu Youjia, being his right and left hand, accompanying him day and night, and giving all his efforts for him without restraint, how could Gu Lian guarantee that he would have no extravagant expectations for him at all?

If you find that all your efforts are in vain, will this hatred, which has accumulated over time and inadvertently from constant frustration, turn you into another person? Just like the Flower of Dust has been watered with poisonous juice for a long time, will it eventually grow into a poisonous flower that it cannot control? Like that Angle Chen?

Gu Lian was terrified, and understood why he was so scared when he saw Angle Chen. Because she originally began to hesitate for Yu Youjia's implicit invitation, she couldn't help but move that idea and wanted to work next to Yu Youjia. The trepidation in her heart that followed this thought could not be eliminated, and after seeing Angle Chen's photo, she seemed to see for a moment that she might mutate at some point in the future of Yu Youjia, who had chosen to follow Yu Youjia desperately.

People with strong minds may never have such worries.

But Gu Lian knew that he was far from that kind of person.

But at the very least, she had enough self-knowledge to keep herself from going down the path that ended in the worst way.

In any case, Gu Lian told herself that she must not be a woman like Angle Chen, and would rather her feelings never blossom and bear fruit than end up so decisively and tragically.

If Yin Rongyu knew that the magazine she gave to Gu Lian with the intention of persuading her to be brave on the emotional road turned out to be a slap in the face that Gu Lian reminded herself, she would definitely be annoyed.

You can only rely on yourself for your own career. There are still many things I want to do, if I rely on Yu Youjia's relationship to enter Huayue like this, I can't maintain the current reciprocal relationship with him. Even if Yu Youjia didn't care about such a situation, Gu Lian couldn't help but mind. Tying her career and feelings to Yu Youjia alone is unfair to Youjia, and it is even more dangerous for herself. To follow Yu Youjia desperately, not only does it mean that Gu Lian has to give up most of her plans for her future career, but it also means that she has to lower some of her self-esteem. Even if she is willing to give up these plans at this moment, and is willing to lower her self-esteem, it does not mean that she will always be at ease with such a renunciation.

When the selfish and ugly side of human nature one day affects her, all these willing sacrifices will become the source of another resentment born of love—the origin of the poisonous flower that grows in the dust.

This kind of Gu Lian can't be the same as the other female subordinates around Yu Youjia who were just colleagues at the beginning, and they can easily maintain a clear attitude of distinguishing between public and private.

Gu Lian closed his eyes and felt the cool moonlight slowly crawling across his eyelids.

In public or private, for herself and others, she can't respond to Yu Youjia's invitation.

It really should be like this.

Gu Lian wiped away a drop of liquid that flowed out of the corner of his eye, which was cooler than moonlight.

That's just the extent of it. She told herself that she could afford it completely.

The best outcome of the flower that slowly blooms in the dust can only be to disappear in the dust and fade gently.

(This chapter is a bit tough and a little awkward, eh...... So it's late, and I'll go back and change it in the future, maybe...... (To be continued.) If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point (qidian.com) to vote for recommendation, monthly pass, your support, is my biggest motivation. )