After returning from Hikaraka High School, Asami fell ill completely. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

Every day, in addition to taking medicine and eating, she can only lie in bed, and she can hardly get out of bed. I took care of her daily life. Her appetite also deteriorated, and for a few days, I tried to push her out for a walk, but I couldn't stand it anymore and came back. She gradually weakened, and my own life became more and more irregular.

The day of parting was a day in early summer in May, and I remember more clearly than ever that the weather was very dreary, and there were few cherry blossoms. In those days, Asami Moriyama finished her life with me, and it was like a flash in the pan, leaving nothing but a huge inheritance of 200 million yen. But what is the use of asking for this money, what is the use of asking for this money......

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"If one day, I'm gone, I'll definitely become an angel and return to Liqiu-kun's side." A long time ago, she said.

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It was the same day as usual, Asami was lying on a small tatami mat, and for more than a month, she gradually went from eating to drinking porridge, and finally she could only be fed liquid food with a tube. I didn't dare to take her out again, but that night she got up suddenly and told me with difficulty that she wanted something to eat. So I told her to lie down.

"It's definitely too late to cook at this time, should I go buy a bento?" I asked her. Because she said she wanted to eat, I thought it might be a good sign, so I was a little happy.

"......" Asami's mouth closed one by one, indicating agreement.

"Nearby supermarket with beef rice, eel rice and salmon rice. If you're not in good health, let's eat something lighter first, you see, how about salmon rice? ”＇

The word "good" ...... "good" was the last thing she said to me.

I went out in high spirits, and half an hour later I rushed back with my shopping bag. I opened the door and shouted, "Asami!" No one answered, probably asleep, I comforted myself. So I went upstairs and knocked on the door and called "Asami!" And still no one answered. A sense of foreboding hung over me, and I quickly pushed open the door and walked into the bedroom.

When I put my trembling hands on the already cold wings of her nose, time seemed to stand still. I'm afraid to grab her cold hands, and I want to try to breathe and warm his hands. I cried like a child, calling her name over and over again, shaking her shoulders, which had stiffened slightly. But I knew it was all over the place.

On the tip of the small, already cold nose, there was no more air pulsation.

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After Asami's death, I began a rambling trip. When I arrived at a place, wherever I went, I always set up a tent wherever I wanted to sleep, and well-meaning people would think that I was some kind of vagabond, and give me a little food, and I would take it as a supply; As for the less friendly cities, they have to be chased away by the police. The platform of the station, the grass of the park, I slept in all these places. The company in Yokohama couldn't stand my long-term leave without reason and fired me. However, day by day, I can only live like this. To my spirit, my heart has long since been exiled—I am no different from a vagabond.

I wandered aimlessly for three months, and finally came to a place that was somewhat familiar but not very impressive. In the meantime, Shi Lei and Shi Rui called, saying that they were coming to Japan to play again, I knew they weren't here to play, the news of Asami's death had already been transmitted back to China, and even my family knew about it, not to mention the two brothers and sisters who were related to Asami? I didn't pay much attention to this call, just prevaricated a few words, and hung up casually.

Hungry, but I don't want to eat.

Sleepy, but I don't want to sleep.

Bitter, but I can't cry.

I just want to finish the life of this body one day earlier, and then reunite my soul with Asami, who is in another world. I want to die, but I don't want to die without pain. I'm going to let this body suffer and then slowly perish. It was also a kind of atonement for my own sins. There are no miracles, so let's abandon the useless prayer and walk towards the end of the world together. I always say this to good people when I meet good people who still have a glimmer of hope in life.

"Exactly!" Kaede's voice jumped out coldly.

I remembered the environmental question.

"What if a person knows how long he can live?"

"Atonement." I'm going to answer it now, maybe I've found the answer.

I came to a somewhat familiar building, which looked like a dormitory at some university. My strength was exhausted, and it was dusk, so I slept on a bench in front of the building, quietly waiting for death to come.

In a trance, I saw the dark corridor, but unlike before, I felt a touch of solemnity and solemnity. Along the road, I found the door from memory, which was like a solemn cathedral, with images of Our Lady of Joy, Our Lady of Mercy, Our Lady of Sorrow, and Our Lady of Remorse in the east, west, north and south corners, and a fresco of the crucifixion of Jesus on the glass in the middle, and Christian images on all four walls. I have never seen a church like this.

When I was surprised, someone tapped me on the shoulder, and I fixed my eyes to see that it was environmentally friendly. I was speechless. The grief of losing Asami's friends suddenly filled my heart, and I threw myself into his arms and cried.

"Young people, don't be sad, you have an old Chinese saying: 'Affectionate parting since ancient times'! Isn't it? He stroked my head with his thick hands.

"Liqiu, you didn't disappoint me." Kaede jumped down from the altar and walked towards me with brisk steps.

"The world has been built, it is born of your heart. It seems that your heart is noble and pure. ”

"No, it can't be," I recounted, incredulously, "that I slept with so many girls, killed both of you, and lost Asami." ”

"You didn't lose her, you made this girl." Following the direction of the environmental finger, I looked towards the center of the altar, and there was a giant statue of an angel surrounded by four small statues of the Virgin (she was sitting on an intricately carved stone chair), and the angel's face was very similar to that of Asami Moriyama.

"Why ......? Is my heart really so pure? "I still can't believe it.

"That's your original intention! It's what you've wanted to see since you were born. Silly boy! Kaede said.

It's mine...... The original intention? I was speechless.

"Exactly." Kaede said.

"Let's go back! Live like Joan of Arc Darkel and face the rest of your life! "It's like a priest.

"May Jesus bless you, Akiu!" Kaede handed me a glass of wine and a piece of cheese rice cracker.

After Mass with them, I was escorted to the door of the church. The world outside the door is no longer dark, and the dark corridor has long been nowhere to be found. Will it really be smooth sailing in the future? I sighed to myself, I had done anything to achieve my goals, and now what I had received might be my retribution.

A highly developed social [harmonious] society!

In any case, I have decided that a person cannot just live in a virtual world built by himself, they need to go out and see the outside world. This is already the case with our predecessors, how much more so are we who come after us?

I strode out the door, and the dazzling white light made me faint for a while, what would happen? Will it be incest again like the Greek gods? Do you have to go through all the pain again? What exactly am I looking for?

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When I opened my eyes, everything was so clear, the white walls of the hospital, the sheets, and the IV tubes that ran up my arm. Look out the window, it's daylight.

"Wake up, wake up! Doctor! Doctor! A familiar voice came into my ears.

A group of doctors and nurses rushed in, not knowing what to do, and then after ten minutes or so, they withdrew, and I felt as if I could move. I turned my head and saw Shi Lei.

"Shi Lei......? How did you...... Where am I? Perhaps still a little tired, I slowly lifted myself up from the bed.

"Ask him." Shi Lei looked at the person next to him. The man looked a little old, and his face was long enough to be taken off to the ground. I searched hard through the memories in my brain, and finally remembered that this old man who was over the age of sixteen was my biochemistry instructor at Waseda University, Mr. Daigami. Well, this must be a hospital, a hospital in Shinjuku.

"Dashang-sensei, it's been a long time." I say.

"You, fortunately you passed out at the door of our men's dormitory, and fortunately I recognized that skinny face as you, otherwise you would have died!" The old man's voice came to his ears, as blunt as he did back then.

"Thank you."

"In the past few days, you have been worried, Xiaorui is waiting for you, cleaning up your urine, and every time you come out, you will mutter: 'Brother is only half of Brother Qiu's. I don't know what she's talking about, but I always feel angry for some reason. ”

I smiled bitterly, litmus, this little girl, really want to say something. Then, as if I had discovered something, I asked, "Wait, you said 'how many days'?" What does that mean? ”

"yes, you don't know that you've been in a coma for a day, it's five days!" Dashang said in surprise again.

It turned out that I had slept for so long, and I tried to find the memories of environmental protection and maple in my mind, but there was no trace of them, only the church and the mass.

"We're changing shifts right now, but I've already informed Xiaorui and Uncle Takami that they'll be here in a moment." Shi Lei said.

I looked out the window and lost to my thoughts. What about going back to the original world? If Kaede hadn't been injured in the first place, and I hadn't met Asami, who was still working as a little nurse, nothing would have happened, and maybe I wouldn't have met the Indicator siblings and the people of the Takami family. Of course, there would be no such tragedy as it is now. Maybe I shouldn't have come to Japan in the first place, if I hadn't come, nothing would have happened, and even Kaede wouldn't have met me.

The human spirit is dead, but the life still has to be lived, forget it, in this life, let me live forever. If my spirit is extinguished, and I can exchange it for environmental protection, maple and asami, I will be content. Because this is the land of the earth.

At that moment, I suddenly remembered the dream I had before, and maybe this was the meaning of it. Those two girls are like Ninjiro Takami and environmental protection, and the boy is the representative of Kaede. Ninjiro was like the first girl who took away my Asami; Environmental protection is like a second girl, separating me from it, creating another world for me, and giving me great mental torture with Kaede, and fate is nothing more than that, I really despair.

Life and I played a huge joke and it sneered at me and said, "What do you think you're getting?" You don't have anything! ”

My spirit is at the end of eternity.

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Just as I was thinking, Litmus and Mr. Takami walked in with fruit baskets, and before I had time to think about it, I had to say hello to them.

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