CHAPTER XIX

"The eternity of consciousness?" Gu Chenyi was a little confused, "Why do you want to pursue that kind of thing!" Isn't life always about feeling pain? Why do you want to endure suffering? Why don't you all fade away! It's all gone! “

Gu Chenyi remembered that in the previous life, the sky there was ruled by haze, and the stars in the dark night there no longer shined. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info there, his mother, was carefully disguised for murder, leaving only the so-called "car accident scene". There, his father was critically ill, but because he had no money, he could not afford targeted therapy, and only had the last few months to live.

There, in that life, his mother went out smiling and never came back.

"Wait for mom to come back and make you your favorite sweet and sour pork ribs, and study at home obediently!" The door was closed, and the long hair, fluttering, was swept up by the wind.

In the evening, waiting for the return, it was a bloody corpse, holding his favorite ribs in his hand, the wind was very angry, at dusk, the small leaf banyan on the corner of the street fell with yellowed leaves, swaying and falling to Gu Chenyi's mother's side, the blood stains were stained with yellow leaves, a little scarlet, like the sunset in the sky, golden with red.

The onlookers on both sides watched, pointed, laughed, and sympathized. Only he and his dad watched, crying. On the road, the lights are dim, the people gradually disperse, and they can only turn into a fire and walk around in the ground.

Gu Chenyi held his mother's ashes in his hand, and his mother said, "What I would like most is to be buried in Tibet. Unfortunately, probably, my destination is a handful of ashes, son, if one day my mother dies, scatter my ashes to the sea or take them to the sky. Remember, this is Mom's wish! Now he was on the dilapidated ship, the dim lights dangling from the canopy. He was holding a box in his hand, wearing a robe, where it was raining, he was wearing a hat, he slowly opened his mother's urn and threw it into the air, "The soul is back!" The soul is back! The ashes were blown away by the wind and sprinkled on the sea, Gu Chenyi silently picked up the pulp and sang, "The public did not cross the river, the public actually crossed the river, crossed the river and died, what can he do!" "The voice is sad, like a filament going up to the sky, and it suddenly breaks off.

Roaring, along with the sea breeze and heavy rain, just like that, drowning, or disappearing into the sea.

How did he get back? He didn't know, he couldn't remember, he forgot. He reappeared, in his father's hospital bed, and the doctor said, "Mourning, old Gu. Your loved ones are gone, so why do you have to break yourself down again? ”

"Don't talk about it, if I don't do targeting, how long can I live?" Gu's father's voice was low but relieved.

"Why don't you do targeting, don't do targeting, you only have a few months to live!" The doctor seemed anxious.

"I don't have any money, and that money is the money to deal with the aftermath of our family! I can't move! Lao Li, we are also old friends, please help me take care of the aftermath. Father Gu dragged Dr. Li with his hand, tears pierced, flashing in the air, dazzling light.

Gu Chenyi didn't say a word, standing in the ward of the hospital, the smell of disinfectant was wafting, ticking and ticking, his father was lying on the hospital bed, his sideburns were white.

The electrocardiogram is drawing irregular curves, twisting and turning.

Gu Chenyi turned around, and in an instant, he arrived at the foot of Qingcheng Mountain, and he came here to burn incense for his father.

The mountain was high, the clouds were white, and the smoke was entrenched on the mountainside, and he walked forward step by step, one step at a time, grinding up.

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Gu Chenyi thought, and suddenly, he looked at the person who was dizzy in front of him.

On the blue water, there was a small boat, and there was a man on the boat, and the man said softly, "I am you, but you are not me." You are from ego, but all like me. I am your past, your past life. ”

"Past life?"

"Now, it's time for you to tell the difference between me and you. You and I are no longer together, but my memories are with you, please give them back to me. ”

"Still, how can you pay it back?"

"Give me back what you shouldn't have to bear, the feelings of the previous life." The man slowly stood up and stretched out his hand to Gu Chenyi.

Gu Chenyi looked at him and thought of his parents in his previous life, "I'm sorry, I can't give you the memories of my previous life, the emotions of my previous life." ”

"It's not something you should have." The man looked at Gu Chenyi, "You shouldn't bear the pain of the previous life, what you have to do is to live well, with your relatives and friends." ”

"Of course I will live well, this world has my parents, me, my master, my junior brother, and Aunt Baihe." Gu Chenyi smiled, "But that's not the reason why I forgot my past. ”

The man was silent, looking at Gu Chenyi, his eyes curled slightly, "Then you follow me on the boat." ”

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