Act I

In remote villages, simple houses and furniture are all crammed together. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

Two sixteen or seventeen-year-old men were watching television in the middle of the hall, and a thirteen or fourteen-year-old girl was studying at a desk on one side of the hall.

"Xiaofang, I didn't do well in this exam! You're so stupid, you don't have to do so much useless work, it's better to drop out of school early and go to work. ”

Xiao Fang didn't answer and continued to do her homework with her head down. The man who spoke was her own brother, who had dropped out of school for two years and was working in a factory in the town.

"Hey, if you don't speak, what are you pretending? If I had been serious about my achievements back then, I would have been able to throw you a few streets. The family is so poor, and it is a waste of money to support you, a loss-making student. The man looked displeased.

"Xiaofang, although your brother doesn't speak well, he has some truth. If you are as long-looking and unsightly as you are, the more you read, the easier it is to become an older leftover girl who will not be able to get married. It's also good to come out to work early, find a husband, get married, and have children. ”

The man who spoke was a friend of Xiaofang's brother, who was idle at home and had nothing to do all day.

Xiao Fang picked up the book and went back to her room, which was very small, with no table and only a bed. Xiao Fang picked up a low stool and sat on the edge of the bed, put her homework on the bed and continued to do her homework.

Xiaofang knew that she could only escape from here and escape from this home full of prejudice against her if she studied very hard.

Act II

Tier 1 cities, cramped rental houses.

The phone rang, it was her mother calling, and Xiaofang pressed the answer.

"Xiao Fang. How was the company interviewed today, and was the treatment good? Are you confident of passing? ”

Listening to the concerned greetings on the phone, Xiao Fang felt very uncomfortable. When she was in college, she never called to care about her life, and never asked herself if she was tired of working to earn living expenses. Now she is very concerned about her job search, as if she is afraid that she will not find a job and will not have money to send home.

"I was okay today. The company is very good, the treatment is very good, after tax xxxx, but I don't know if I can enter. ”

Although Xiao Fang has the chance to win, she doesn't want to talk too much. Although Xiaofang's undergraduate university is relatively average, she almost worked hard, and finally successfully secured graduate school and had excellent grades during her graduate studies, because Xiaofang's work-study work experience is also sufficient, and there should be no problem if there is no accident.

"Such a high salary, if you can't do it, don't force it. I've heard that graduates come out with very low salaries! You know, ...... at home."

Xiaofang listened to her mother blablabla a lot, which was nothing more than to show that the family was poor and not enough money, so she asked her not to be ambitious, and to find a simple job in a down-to-earth manner, so that she could send money home as soon as possible.

Xiao Fang was inexplicably a little irritable in her heart, and interrupted her mother and said, "You don't need to say it anymore, I can start work next week, and from next month onwards, I will send xxxx to my home every month." ”

Mother's words aroused the stubbornness in Xiaofang's heart. No one in this family has ever cared about her hard work, and no one has cared about her grades. Even if she did a good job, no one was going to know about it.

Act III

Xiao Fang was lying on the bed scrolling her phone, her eyes were red, as if she had cried.

Watching the classmates who interviewed with her post a successful job in the circle of friends, with the picture as an offer, Xiaofang felt a tingling in her heart.

Obviously, this classmate is inferior to herself in everything, why was she selected and she didn't even receive a reply? I clearly expressed my willingness to give myself a reply, whether it is passed or not.

Xiaofang has been preparing for this interview for more than a month, and after the interview, she did not continue to interview with any other companies, just to wait for the notice. But as of today, the time for a reply has passed, and there is still no news.

Why don't you give yourself a result? Did you do something wrong? Did you commit any taboos? Is it because of the looks? Or did I inadvertently offend someone?

Xiao Fang assumed countless possibilities in her heart, but she still couldn't find out the reason.

The phone rang again, and it was still my mother calling. Xiao Fang didn't dare to answer the call, her crying voice now would expose her weakness. Xiao Fang remembered her brother's contemptuous and mocking face when she failed before, her mother's indifferent face that knew so much, and the arrogant face of her relatives who pointed at her. Xiao Fang didn't dare to face all this!

Xiaofang hung up the phone and chose to text to cover up.

Act IV

Xiaofang finally came to the company for the interview single-handedly.

After expressing her intention to a certain HR, HR politely responded and asked Xiaofang to sit in the conference room and wait for a while, she went to check what the reason was not to give Xiaofang a reply.

Half an hour later, HR walked back and said to Xiaofang with an apologetic face: "Miss, I'm sorry, it's our negligence." The supervisor in charge of your file happened to get married last week and took a week of marriage leave, and your information was omitted during the file handover, so your information has been on the supervisor's side, and he has now returned to work. The general manager also cares about this matter after hearing about it, and now it is handed over to the general manager to deal with, he said that you have a good resume, and I will come to talk to you in person. You can rest assured that there will be a good result. ”

It turned out that all this was just their negligence, and after Xiaofang heard the news, the suppressed emotions in her heart began to flood, and she complained hypocritically: "I have been preparing for this interview for more than a month. Heaven has caused me to encounter this accident, which has caused me to wait for a notice every day recently, and I am about to have a nervous breakdown. After learning that my classmate had received an offer, I secretly cried under the covers for a long time. I didn't even dare tell my family about it! Xiao Fang remembered her recent experience, and her eyes couldn't help but moisten, why did God play such a big joke on her!

After speaking, the general manager walked in and said to Xiaofang: "I happened to hear your words at the door just now. I'm sorry, I don't think you're the right fit for us. Our company doesn't need people who are too emotional. ”

"You know, our company is very stressful, and we need people who have a normal heart. Everything else is excellent, and I think you'll find a job that's right for you. ”

Xiaofang walked out of the company in despair, and her mother's phone rang again, how should she face all this?

I would like to reflect on my current troubles through the little story above.

I've been a person who lacks a sense of identity since I was a child, so I care a lot about what others say about me, and I'm very emotional.

Recently, I have been working alone, with no readers, no evaluation, and no feedback. There was no response to the application, so I was facing serious psychological problems.

I'm afraid that the end of the story I found on Zhihu was to try a negative attitude towards life (accept my own shortcomings/reject too good ideals). ）

I plan not to renew it until I receive the contract, otherwise I may not be able to accept it in case the contract cannot be passed.

I don't know how to reach you, so I've written these down in the hope of getting a reply from you.

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