170. Love is not simple
Like someone, really loving someone doesn't seem to be as simple as Wang Dagang imagined. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info Chu Li's words hit him completely. It wasn't because Chu Li was disdainful of his confession and show of love, but because Chu Li hit a question he hadn't thought about. Why does he like Chu Li? What do you like about Chu Li? All he knew about Chu Li was that he knew that Chu Li had made a movie and usually broadcast games live on the Internet. There are also some rumors circulating on campus, some of which he even finds ridiculous. For example, Chu Li snatched the first school grass Cheng Yufeng from the first school flower Liu Mengdong, forcing Liu Mengdong to jump off the building and commit suicide, and ruthlessly threw off Cheng Yufeng after snatching the throne of the first school flower.
Then the reason why he likes Chu Li is obvious, but he doesn't want to admit it. That's right, he is not different from others, what he likes is nothing more than Chu Li's outstanding appearance. Since he is no different from other good + lustful people who pursue Chu Li, how can he, who is poor and not handsome, move Chu Li's heart?
So he was disappointed and ashamed.
"That's right, when am I qualified to say that I like Chu Li?" Wang Dagang asked himself. He felt that he was too selfish, why did he want Chu Li to suffer and be poor with him? I even had to pay on credit for bringing Chu Li to a dirty small restaurant like this one for a meal, why did he say that he could give Chu Li a happy life in the future?
He didn't dare to look directly at Chu Li's gaze anymore, and lowered his head in shame. Maybe I really shouldn't want Chu Li to confess now, I am not as noble as I imagined, and I have nothing special about myself like others. The only way to prove yourself is to make yourself better and more capable than others. has enough ability to bring a better life to Chu Li, and enough ability to give Chu Li happiness and joy. Only in this way can he be qualified to stand in front of Chu Li with a clear conscience and say those three words to her again. If he can't do it, then it is better to sincerely and silently bless him, and a boy like Cheng Yufeng or Xiang Yang can give Chu Li a superior life, which is the minimum requirement for happiness.
"I'm sorry...... I see, I'm not qualified to say those words to you right now. I'll take back what I just said, and please forget about it, okay? Wang Dagang tried to keep his emotions calm and spit out these words.
The boy has tears and does not flick, and today is the biggest frustration he has felt in the twenty years of his life. But reason and self-esteem told him that he couldn't shed tears so coveted in front of the girl he loved. But the trembling voice and the shaking hands hidden behind his back still betrayed the frustration and sadness in his heart at this time.
Life is like this, when you are confident that you have prepared for the worst to meet the coming storm, reality often immediately tells you that your so-called worst expectations are just a drizzle, and what you really have to face is a huge wave, a tsunami.
It was not terrible to be rejected by Chu Li, Wang Dagang had already been mentally prepared. It should be said that he didn't expect to be able to confess successfully. But Chu Li did not reject him, but shook his confidence and shook his three views. This was a devastating blow to Wang Dagang, and his original world collapsed because of Chu Li's words.
Aren't you going too far? Chu Li regretted that he had hit Wang Dagang hard. Judging from the bottle of paper stars that Wang Dagang gave her yesterday, this is a very gentle, delicate and patient boy, not like the rough and wooden feeling he gives people in appearance. She seemed to be even more excessive than what Chen Yan did when she rejected her, but she didn't even have the slightest pleasure of revenge. Yes, it was Chen Yan who rejected him back then, what happened to Wang Dagang? Why let him experience the same injuries he suffered back then?
Chu Li now finds that it is not easy to reject a person, especially someone like her who cares about the feelings of others. At this moment, she seems to be able to empathize, Wang Dagang's heart is definitely more uncomfortable than he was back then. Chen Yan just politely refused back then, which did not make her disheartened, but felt that this was just a test of Chen Yan's treatment of her, a test of the degree of her feelings. And today, she really fundamentally hit Wang Dagang's three views, "You don't have the qualifications to love me" Chu Li's subtext line, how hurtful self-esteem is.
Of course, Chu Li didn't mean it, and this was not what she wanted to express.
"I ...... I didn't mean that, I mean you don't know anything about me. You say you like me, but you just like my appearance, so if one day I get old and ugly, fat, or become a man, will you say that you like me the same? Chu Li hurriedly explained, you must know that destroying people's three views will make people will ** from now on, and they will be disheartened. If it is important, he immediately went to the rooftop to see the Buddha in the west sky.
"Huh?" Wang Dagang was a little stunned, especially Chu Li's last few sentences, what is "becoming a man"? What does this mean? Could it be that Chu Li still wants to have sex reassignment surgery and become a man? No, no, no, that's a bit ridiculous.
"I mean, it's wrong for you to say you like me, because it's not me you like. I can't answer whether you like you or don't like you. Because I don't even know you, do you understand? Chu Li said a lot in a mess, not to mention Wang Dagang heard it in a fog, and even Chu Li herself didn't know what she was going to say.
"That'...... So can I be friends with you and get to know you slowly? Wang Dagang couldn't believe it, did he misunderstand Chu Li's words, Chu Li didn't reject himself? He asked with pretending to be bold and trembling with excitement.
"Hmm...... What's this...... I guess it's okay. Chu Li didn't know how to answer Wang Dagang just now, if he refused, would he once again brutally hit the poor classmate Wang Dagang. But his unclear attitude will make him misunderstand and delay others.
"Huh? What are you two doing standing in this stairwell? Are you whispering? It's not that the old man wants to wreak havoc, I've already prepared this dish for you, so you better go upstairs to eat now. The boss with a whole tray of dishes loaded Chu Li and Wang Dagang at the top of the staircase. I thought the two of them were hiding here and whispering, but I felt a little embarrassed for a while, thinking that I had once again disturbed the atmosphere of the little couple.
"That's right, Sister Xiaoya should be hungry, let's go upstairs. Would the boss like we would like us to help? Chu Li hurriedly opened the topic, temporarily putting aside the embarrassing and suffocating depressing atmosphere just now.
"Oh, no, don't break my dishes in a while, this heavy little girl." The boss hurriedly refused with a smile. Although this little girl is beautiful, she is not as delicate as those girls now, and Dagang is really discerning.