Chapter Eighty-Five: Guilt I
Although Julia did know what was going on in her heart, she still showed up to her every day as usual. Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 info
Although the number and content of the dialogue have indeed decreased a lot compared with some time ago, Julia is still willing to appear in front of her, which has made Liu Lihuan feel very gratified.
spent two days without incident, and Liu Lihuan felt that this Julia was very strange. In the past, Julia was quite concerned about Sonia, but now, Sonia has not been to school for three days, however, Julia still follows her daily rhythm of life and does not show nervousness, which makes Liu Lihuan feel very strange, out of concern, Liu Lihuan finally asked Julia.
"Sonia, is she alright? She hasn't been to school for the past few days, is she seriously ill? Cautiously probing, Liu Lihuan originally wanted to ask Julia if Sonia was really sick, but after thinking about it, she felt that if it was really as she thought, such a question might arouse Julia's sadness, so she changed the question.
"Sonia is going to play with everyone, and she won't be coming to school for a while." Julia smiled and said, Liu Lihuan has been paying attention to Julia's micro-expressions, however, Julia's smile is no different from the past, it is still the kind of smile that makes her sister feel happy, without the slightest artificiality, and she laughs completely sincerely, which makes Liu Lihuan feel a little relieved.
"Well, who are you referring to?" Knowing that Sonia was fine, Liu Lihuan began to care about some of the things she cared about.
But seeing Julia's expression froze instantly, she smiled and said, "Family." The simple three words, even with that stiff smile, still can't hide the cold tone, Liu Lihuan can feel that Julia is extremely dissatisfied in her heart.
Originally, Liu Lihuan wanted to ask something more, but Julia had already shown dissatisfaction, and if she asked again, I was afraid that it would only make the relationship more stiff, so she didn't continue to ask.
Liu Lihuan smiled and said, "Since it's okay, then I'll go back first." Liu Lihuan laughed to play a round to relieve the embarrassment. With that, he wanted to leave.
Just a few steps later, Julia's voice came from behind: "Do you really care about Sonia that much?" The voice was cold, but there was a sense of concern.
Hearing such a question, Liu Lihuan was stunned, turned around and said: "Yes......" However, Liu Lihuan immediately regretted the word "yes", she felt that she should not answer like this in the current situation, and hurriedly put on a serious face, and said solemnly: "You are all my friends, of course I care about friends." ”
The implication seems to include all the followers around her, and this remark also makes her followers feel that their status has improved a lot, but smart people understand that Liu Lihuan really cares about her friends, but who does the word "friend" refer to? This is intriguing.
Of course, Liu Lihuan's statement can't be hidden from the real eye-eyed person, let alone Julia, but Liu Lihuan can't find a better explanation for a while. The film between the two is still there, and she feels that as long as there is a set of statements that can barely explain the past, the other party will continue to pretend to be confused like herself.
However, Julia's eyes showed that she didn't want to continue to play confused, and she answered, "Impossible." Outsiders may not understand, but Liu Lihuan, who is the party concerned, does not want to understand.
Of course, she knew what Julia's simple "impossible" meant, referring to Liu Lihuan's feelings as an 'impossible' relationship.
"Hehe, I know too." In order not to be too embarrassed in front of many followers, Liu Lihuan hurriedly smiled: "Just kidding, are you so serious?" "Put on a look like a child on weekdays. At this time, she would rather others think too much and think wildly, rather than not think about others.
The more people think about it, the more contradictory they feel, and the more they think about it, the more they feel that the facts they see are not credible.
Julia also saw the dead ashes in Liu Lihuan's eyes at this time, a kind of disillusioned dead ash at that time, but Julia was not a cruel person, she was also quite cooperative with Liu Lihuan, and just smiled: "I know." ”
I have to say that Julia did solve this emotional dispute, however, she is getting farther and farther away from her goal.
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Liu Lihuan still returned to the lesson tree that she was most accustomed to, and while everyone was in the canteen or dormitory, the teaching building area was very quiet. Liu Lihuan raised her head and looked at the sunset, feeling lonely and lonely in her heart.
She felt like the sunset, infinitely beautiful, but very short. Like her fantasies, they are infinitely beautiful, but they are as fleeting as the sunset.
She didn't blame Julia in her heart, she felt that it was human nature for Julia to do this, and even that she should do it. Long-term pain is better than short-term pain, and it may be better to explicitly refuse it earlier before you are deeply trapped in the depths of self-extrication. What's more, this is also a matter of Julia's own position and opinion, and there is nothing to blame.
Liu Lihuan kept making excuses for Julia in her heart, after all, people are emotional creatures, and no one can leave calmly and calmly after paying their true feelings.
Even now, Liu Lihuan really wants to see Julia again, and she doesn't know why, anyway, she has such an impulse. It's a pity that reason suppressed the impulse, Liu Lihuan was not controlled by the impulse, what she knew, not seeing, might be better than seeing.
"The sunset is really beautiful!" Suddenly, a sound came from the tree.
Liu Lihuan subconsciously raised her head, and what caught her eyes was a pair of white socks above the leather shoes, a school skirt and white safety pants, and the delicate calves gently swaying back and forth rhythmically and at will.
Liu Lihuan recognized this little girl who liked white, and couldn't help but exclaim: "Julia? She was stunned to know why Julia had come here, and was able to climb the tree in a way she hadn't noticed, until she made a noise to let her know.
"It's me." Julia was in a high position, looking down at Liu Lihuan with a charming smile. Liu Lihuan felt that Julia at this time seemed to be completely different from usual. It's still that familiar face, but whether it's that smile, or that kind of aura and speaking attitude, Liu Lihuan has never seen it.
Although the contact has only been for a short week, Liu Lihuan can also feel that although Julia has something to hide, it is still her nature when she comes into contact with her. Julia at this time made Liu Lihuan feel a very subtle feeling.
I don't know what it feels like, Liu Lihuan feels subtle, because the feeling in her heart at this time can't be described in words. There seems to be an affinity, a feeling that makes people feel very warm invisibly.
"You should know that I approached you with a purpose, right?" Julia still smiled, even if the words were cold, but the tone was very gentle.
Liu Lihuan just looked at Julia on the tree, stunned. She felt that Julia at this time was a goddess looking down on mortals.
Suddenly, Julia jumped down from the tree with her hands propped up, and strangely enough, Julia seemed to have no weight, and the branch did not even shake a little, as if Julia had never sat on the branch.
"I want to know about you, everything." Julia faced Liu Lihuan head-on, restrained her smile, a serious expression, and her eyes were firm.
Liu Lihuan's heart is very complicated, she doesn't know whether to say it, or whether she can say it. I don't know why I have such a contradiction, but Liu Lihuan didn't realize why she was like this.
Maybe the person asking the question is Julia, or maybe it's because Julia exudes a trusting warmth at this time.
Liu Lihuan was silent for a long time, until dusk faded and the moon was rising, and Liu Lihuan told her story in the night......