The days are chaotic and aimless. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

I was lying alone in an empty rental house, shivering with cold, but my forehead was hot.

I managed to get a fever, and I curled up in the covers, not moving, not wanting to go anywhere.

It wasn't until my mother called that I realized it was the next afternoon.

She urged me to go home for dinner, and I struggled for a long time to get out of bed, and when I got back, I lost my strength and lay in the house until she came back from work in the evening.

When she saw me, she insisted on dragging me to the clinic.

I couldn't help it, so I had to follow.

When I arrived at the clinic, the doctor took a look and said that it was just a fever, and it would be good to hang the bottle for two days.

When the medicine was prescribed, the doctor asked how old he was.

"Nineteen," I said

"Twenty," my mom said.

We both spoke almost at the same time, and the doctor looked at us in amazement.

"I'm twenty years old now." Mother spoke.

I thought to myself, indeed, tomorrow is my birthday. I finally became a twenty-year-old.

As I usually look forward to when I was a teenager, I often fantasize about what an outstanding young talent I will be when I am twenty years old.

Now that I've been reluctantly pushed to this point in time, I'm not as glamorous as I imagined, and I'm even an old waste.

At this moment, I can't accept that I am already at the age of the first two words.

At this moment, I suddenly understood the situation of those 30-year-old women, and understood why they were always reluctant to face 30.

I finally figured out that twenty-nine is also in my twenties, and thirty is thirty.

Now I'm the same, a year old, as if I've jumped over a canyon.

Move back home, don't live outside. Mother said

My savings had also been spent, and I had no money to cover the rent, so I nodded my head in acceptance.

Seeing that Christmas was coming, Wu Liang called me and said that he was coming back.

I'm very happy that when he comes back, everyone can come together and have the same fun as they did when they were younger.

It's only a short time, but I'm still looking forward to it.

It reminds me of what we met......

At that time, we were all children who had crossed the ocean, and we met on this somewhat strange island.

At the beginning, everyone just got along with each other, greetings, and making appointments to play, but they were always jerky and afraid of refusal.

From the time that slowly faded, friendship sprouted silently. The white-tiled roller skating rink when we were young and innocent stores our cheerful and carefree years. Gathering a few miles away under the scorching sun, at the entrance of the KTV in the busy streets and alleys, there are young people holding waiting plates, all of which are happy days in the past. At that time, everyone was poor in their pockets, and the drinks and snacks were all smuggled in by the little brother behind the door...... How cute, how unforgettable......

A few years later, we have grown from half-grown children to young people, standing up with the excited sunrise body, saving money all night long, blowing about the that we are not familiar with.

On a hot summer night, I always go to the appointment with slippers, and look for a sweet and cool stall on the streets. When there is an important event, I can't forget to run to the beach where life is boiling, and save up for months to exchange the money for a lot of chicken wings, sausages, corn, drinks and everyone's laughter on the stone grill net.

At that time, I always liked to wear the ten-dollar low-quality swim trunks that my aunt bought in my aunt's hand to run in the muddy waves...... When I think about it, even the salty and bitter sea water that I swallowed by mistake becomes sweet.

At that time, everyone knew each other like compatriots, and there was no estimation between words, and there was never a barrier in the heart, and the days when we spoke freely were really nostalgic.

Finally, we are all adults, and we are all gone, returning to our own mediocrity and loneliness.

I don't want to hide it, I often wonder if I'm the only one who is alone, I don't know, I don't want to know.

I wanted to curse life, but I felt that it was cowardly and incompetent, so I closed my mouth weakly. I watched the people around me fade away, looking at their backs, always thinking back to the past, sighing, but stubborn like a hedgehog that refuses to cut off sharp thorns.

I tried to deal with people the way I did back then, but it didn't work, and unvarnished words became unacceptable.

Everyone is accustomed to hearing the lies of shouting and asking for warmth, and suddenly hearing my stunned and brainless truth, I always feel harsh and unbearable.

So I became a kid who stuck to myself and didn't want to grow up.

We have all grown up, trembling and cautiously greeting.

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