Although there are some things that cannot be properly resolved now, over time, there will be answers. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

I went out early and went to the Internet café, which was different from the previous purpose, which was only used for games and entertainment, but now it has become the place where my dreams started. I started drawing manga to be serialized on the Internet, but it was something I was forced to do without preparation. I'm pretty much a Jedi with no reinforcements behind me.

I think I just drew the beginning, and the plot is terrible enough. Because my mind couldn't concentrate on my creation, the troubles of survival and my mother's words were always spinning around in my head. I had to bite the bullet and keep drawing, and even though I knew I couldn't draw anything good in this state, it seemed to be my only hope. I'm so paranoid that I won't let go when I hold on to it.

In the afternoon, Tai called me and asked me where I was, and I said I was at the Internet café.

"Wait for me" said Tai and hung up the phone. When he arrived, he asked me to play a game, and I said that I had something to do if I didn't play.

He wondered if what I was going to do was the one I was talking about at the dinner table. I said yes, I'm going to draw now, I'm going to draw some manuscripts now, and I'll post more on the website, and I want to make a living from this.

Tai didn't say anything more, only to support me, and he didn't look me in the eye when he said this.

Is it because I'm thinking too much, or because I don't trust anymore after being hit, I become so suspicious that I actually feel the subtext of "let him fail" in Tai.

I draw mine, he plays his. From time to time, he turned his head to see what I was drawing, which embarrassed me. I'm a sensitive person, and he looks at me like there's a person standing behind me when peeing, and I can't pee.

Sometimes I'm watching TV, and there are kids on TV who are so young that they get a lot of attention, some of whom are my same age, some of whom are a few years younger than me. You can already see the aura from their conversation, they are already recognized in the field, and they are already well-known existences.

I'm not sure if they've been in the same situation as me, how they have stood out from the crowd, and if there are people who have always supported them in pursuing their dreams. I've probably come to know that dreams aren't something that can be achieved with perseverance and hard work.

I spent days in chaos like this.

One day Duan asked me to go drinking. "I don't have any money, and I can't eat." I tried to refuse.

He's a calculating guy who doesn't mean to be generous, and I thought he'd give up. "I'll borrow you first, and I'll pay me back when I have it, let's go." The way he came up with was impossible to refuse, because it was a distant debt, and I didn't shirk it anymore.

It's been a long time since I've drunk alcohol, and the previous ones have had a clear purpose. Now I just want to drink it.

The big reason for the relationship between women is not good, and the big reason is because there is no occasion to make friends, and secondly, because of the old age. He is extremely stingy with his friends, and he can talk for a few months if he asks you for a drink, but he is extremely generous to women, and he is not verbose about spending a few thousand on the women he has asked out himself. I don't know how he developed this character, but in the years he has been dating me, all I know is that he had a girlfriend and eventually went home to get married. He is not thin on her, so they still keep in touch from time to time, and when he talks about her, Duan is full of remorse. Probably for this reason, the desire to make amends for a lost love in a woman who may have a story.

I'm not going to continue to figure it out, I'm better than him when it comes to stupidity.

We went to a bar called "Cruise". I thought he had made a date, but it turned out to be Fen, and Fen brought her friend, and I didn't know him. Another friend is Zhang, and we are all friends who play in one place to a big day. Zhang is simple-minded, likes games, and has no ideas for the future.

"Why don't you call Shangtai?" I asked the paragraph.

"He's here, and I've seen that some girls are starting to brag endlessly again." Duan said.

I thought to myself, his words are probably three points true, and Tay will indeed brag without playing. But the main reason is certainly not this. Tai is very active in front of women, Duan is very passive, if Tai comes, this night Fen and her friends are probably "occupied" by him from the beginning to the end. Tay is the kind of person who likes to show himself in front of women.

Now that I have guessed his thoughts, I will not say any more.

In a noisy environment, I shook the dice, and the loud music covered my thoughts, and I had long forgotten what bullshit existed for. I can't wait to find a woman to shoot it, and just die.

I was already drunk, I don't know if it was beer or dazzling lights.

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