There will always be some people complaining about the injustice, just like me now, if there are really gods, then what are they based on what to distribute the length of our lives, is it the reincarnation of fate that the Buddha said, or the Lord said that there should be light, so I yearn for the light, all kinds of retribution in the past life, there may really be a past life, but what does that have to do with me, I have neither the memory of the previous life to make me sad and happy, nor the Nirvana-style rebirth inheritance of life, I am a new self, from my first voice, to the soundness of my personality, I came out on my own step by step, it was the environment around me that shaped me, I know that human nature is warm and cold, I can surf the Internet, I can drive, I can write an article with affection in Chinese, all my kindness comes from my parents and uncles, I will not do evil. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

So how did the gods adjust the clock of my life, is it because I was born to look at me uncomfortable, so they only gave me such a short time, when the time comes, it will let me go to reincarnation or let me dissipate, say goodbye to a world forever, forever silent in the cold space, but also look at the life of the gods with cold eyes, and also with the world everyone tastes all kinds of things in the world, there will always be something more interesting than illness, at that time I am not in one place, but I am everywhere.

But if there really are no gods, I have to blame anyone for these injustices against me, only myself, I don't want to accept this fact, but it is true that I am different from others, I am already broken, I am like an orange that has begun to deteriorate from the inside, I am glamorous on the outside, and everyone admires my beauty, but I dare not dance on the trees, otherwise I will spill water and scatter it to the ground, and be trampled by the little beasts, and return to my hometown.

All creatures habitually expel aliens, and those who are mavericks, I am already an alien now, I am already a bad person, so they want to send me to the hospital, so that they can live comfortably, isn't it selfish that I don't go to the hospital, what do you say! "Kid!"

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Then you say, "Why is it that I am sick and not someone else, I am still very young, I haven't finished college yet!" ”

"Nian'er, it's not fair, but it's also fair."

"Kid, I miss Ah Si, it's been a long time, I feel like it's been a long time, but really, he hasn't been away for long."

"I saw him last time I went to leave the company, he was tidying up, and he didn't smile when he saw me."

"He won't hate me for being curious, after all, I shouldn't have asked such a thing, but I still don't know how to ask."

"In his eyes, he will definitely think of me as those eight women in the company, who only know how to talk about other people."

"But I don't, I really care about him, I want to understand him, I really don't mean anything else."

"I don't know how he's doing now."

"Do you have a new job, do you have a place to live, and you won't live in a bridge hole?"

"Oh, don't think about it, everyone is better off than you now."

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In the afternoon, Minghui came and helped me pick up the letter from Shuzhong.

Nian'er; "Read it to me, and see what the letter says."

Ming Hui; "I don't think it's okay, this is a letter from Shu Zhong to you."

Nian'er; "It's okay, it's okay, it's not that you don't know him, hurry up and read it, and see what he nagged about."

Ming Hui; "Then I'll really read it."

Nian'er; "Oops! You're really annoying, hurry up and read it!! ”

Ming Hui; "Okay, just read it."

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