Walking deeper, a vague middle-aged woman in a white coat slowly appeared in front of her. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

The woman felt very kind.

She smiled at herself and said, "Are you awake?" ”

And he said, "You had a nightmare just now, and you didn't wake up after I called you a few times." ”

Nightmare......

Tao Xinlai involuntarily quickened her pace and began to run in the galaxy, a few faint stars floated in the deeper and farther places, she reached out to grab them, but they flew away from her hands. She chased after her, sweating profusely, until she held them all in her hands, and then the scenes were unfolded in front of her, and they were her nightmares—her doctored memories—the demons of the Maltese worn.

All memories are like streamers, and Tao Xin has burst into tears unconsciously.

She thought she had forgotten, but it wasn't, she was locked up.

At the age of twenty, she was still hurting herself in her heart, dissatisfied with her mother's strict requirements for her and her intolerant attitude towards her father, but it was her mother, in the face of a catastrophe, who firmly protected her with her not broad shoulders, just to give her a chance to live.

Life and death are a chasm that can never be crossed again, and the son wants to raise but does not wait, and by the time she suddenly wakes up, it is already too late.

Fear, turmoil, hunger, death, darkness, blood, mutilation......

She couldn't forget, and she couldn't continue to live. She indulged in these negative emotions and couldn't sleep all night, her tears dried and her throat hoarse. She indulged herself like this, but that was not what her mother wanted.

It was too sad, too hard to forget, so when the psychiatrist finally chose to block her memory, she cowardly complied with this escape.

Where there is a cause, there is an effect. If she hadn't come to this world, if she hadn't cultivated immortals, if she hadn't been looking for the horsehorn grass, this kind of escape would not have been remembered by her for the rest of her life, and today, they have become her inner demons.

Therefore, in the illusion of the Malta grass, she will fight hard and turn the thousands of regrets in her heart into action. wants to save her mother, no matter what she does, she wants to save her, but the pain is too painful, the memory is too terrible, even in the illusion, in the end, her lack of confidence still makes her see the same ending.

After trying hard, she still couldn't avoid that kind of ending, which undoubtedly hit her deeper, and she was distracted, so she couldn't help but obey the escape at that time, so what she saw later was those scenes that had been beautified and changed. For such a long time, she had obviously discovered those strange places, and she could have discovered the truth with a little thought, but she didn't dare. It was the only thing she had to bury, and she indulged her cowardly emotions and became the catastrophe of the day.

If it weren't for Gu Yu's action, she would probably have died peacefully in that illusion. And it was precisely because Gu Yu forcibly intervened that her inner demons sprouted like spring seeds and grew up step by step.

Cultivation is like sailing against the current, people are like the body of a boat, the demons in the heart are waves, and if you can't get over, you can only be slapped and sunk into the water, and then you don't talk about moving forward. Fortunately, it's not too late for her to find out, but how to break the demons in her heart is a difficult problem.

Tao Xinlai let himself stand quietly in the barren space, and his heart began to ache for a while. However, when I look at that fragmented memory and feel the pain of the shattering of heaven and earth, it is no longer the same when I look at that fragmented memory.

His eyes were full of blood-red eyes, and the color was deeply embedded in every tiny speck of dust in the air, and his brain began to swell. Only then did she understand why she was so uncomfortable at the last moment of the battle, and it was completely different from the feeling of the battle she had encountered when she entered the secret realm to do tasks in Miaozhenmen. It was precisely because of the illusion of the Malta grass that cracks appeared in the blockade, and the memories she had buried so deeply could no longer be hidden.

Assault has become inevitable, she can't never go through a battle, so subject to the demons, she will inevitably be timid, if she retreats this time, she is only afraid that the demons will become more and more rampant in the future, and it will be difficult to get rid of them.

Thinking of this, Tao Xinlai cheered up a little. She walked through a blood-colored void, and though she felt like her heart was crushed by a large stone, her breathing became slow and difficult, and fear and uneasiness began to set her head, she could not stop. She thought that no matter where she was, there should always be an exit, and no matter what kind of predicament she was, there should always be a way to solve it.

Mom...... Think about my mother, she is the last person who wants to see herself trapped by her demons. Tao Xinlai's heart ached, she walked slowly, but as long as she insisted on moving forward, the road became more and more open. She felt that if she continued like this, she should be able to see the person she wanted to see—even if it existed as an illusion. But no, in the barren void, there was nothing but blood.

After another period of time, Tao Xinlai suddenly thought of a question. Breaking the demons is essentially nothing more than the word "overcoming difficulties", and she tries to recall the fragments of the immortal cultivators who have broken the demons in various novels, most of which are to re-experience the original scene, or to re-experience the original scene that has been changed. According to this logic, she should not have wandered alone in this place, she should most likely be at the scene of the disaster that day.

So, what caused her to be in this situation?

Tao Xin turned around and looked over, but he was startled at this look.

In front of him is a long bloody color with no future, but behind is a mutilated white bone all the way, it turns out that the scene of the disaster is not in front of her, but behind her! No, it should be said that it is a static but changed scene after the catastrophe - otherwise it should not be bones, but stumps under the collapse of bricks.

She suddenly realized what she was really afraid of.

How many years have depended on each other, even if there have been quarrels and grievances, but the relationship between mother and daughter is not hypocritical. In her most rebellious years, she gritted her teeth and accused her mother of being too domineering, of not giving her any room for freedom, and even forcing her to give up the relationship between father and daughter, but even then, she never thought that her mother would leave her - in that tragic way where there is no room for turn. From then on, she was alone, no one was hurt, and no one was with her.

So her future is so empty and lonely, because the people who care about her the most and the people she cares about the most can no longer accompany her. She hated, hated why she couldn't protect her mother that day, hated why she couldn't be sensible earlier, but no matter how much she hated, she couldn't go back.

So in front of her was a person's bloody emptiness, and behind her was the white bones that she couldn't bear to think about, and she missed and regretted it, but there was no way to change it. She is now consuming those pains like this, if her mother knows about Jiuquan, I am afraid that she will be even more sad and heartbroken.

Unconsciously bursting into tears, Tao Xinlai suddenly knelt down.

"Come on, I'm sorry, live ......"

"Live...... Come on...... Gotta live......"

What is it to live for? Is it because she can't get out of that memory for the rest of her life, but she wants to call an outsider to play the role of her mother in a daze, so that she can't even remember her own mother's face? If so, why did she come out of that new home so sensitively and wander alone for so many years?

Tao Xinlai began to whimper, and suddenly burst into tears.

"My daughter is not filial...... Mother ...... "She was so excited that she slammed her head on the ground, and soon her forehead was red and swollen and bleeding, but she didn't know it." She wanted to see her mother, even if it was a phantom, she missed it so much, but she knew very clearly that her mother was no longer there, everything was fake, fake...... It's ridiculous that she has been living in self-righteousness in those falsehoods for so many years! It turns out that she is such a cowardly and cowardly person!

The fourth uncle watched this scene quietly in the sea of knowledge, touched his head with a little worry, and said, "Why is this kid so stubborn, he is really reluctant." At the end, he thought about it again, his brows stretched a little, and said: "Okay, overcoming difficulties and difficulties is the first essence of the Dao heart, otherwise why bother cultivating immortals against the sky." ”

The fourth uncle thought like this, sighed, and no longer worried, thinking that he had no choice but to have to do it, there was always Gu Yu and himself, but this time the demon in his heart was not to give up, even if the demon became more and more profound in the future, there was always a way to pass it. If the strong attack can't be done, then use the Heavenly Spirit and Earth Treasure. The world is so big, there is no way.

Tao Xin cried bitterly, and he didn't wait for the person he wanted to see until the end. Her heart slowly calmed down and settled. The word "let go" is easier said than done. But she knew intellectually she had to let go. Relatives are relatives, and cultivation is cultivation. If she is doing well, her mother will be relieved and happy. Otherwise, it would not be her Tao Xin who survived. She has failed her relatives for many years, and she has not figured out such a simple truth, and she has never been willing to think about it.

In fact, how many hardships and pains a person has in his life, it is a hurdle and a calamity. The strength of a person lies in the fact that he still straightens his waist after passing this hurdle, and he is still free and calm after experiencing one calamity after another.

It's time to let go, put those good things in the present, and keep those hurts in the bottom of your heart. It is impossible for a person to be full of good memories without a little pain, what matters is how to look at it and how to deal with it in the future.

Thinking through this joint, her heart suddenly brightened, although her face was mottled with tears, the heavy stone on her heart gradually lost its weight.

The whole body gradually relaxes. Just relax...... Just relax...... A stream of true qi flowed into the dantian, dancing with the liquid light beads swirling in it. Tao Xinlai's mood changed, and it attracted aura from all directions, and it was faintly the rhythm of going up a small ladder!

It is no wonder that Taoism says that life is double cultivated, and "sex" refers to the existence of people's mind, thoughts, temperament, character, and spirit; "Life" refers to the existence of human body, life, energy, destiny, matter, etc. Later, the closer the association between "sex" and "life" became, and the more indispensable they became.

Tao Xin came to this realization, not only in addition to the demons, but also crossed a small realm. It's a blessing in disguise. (To be continued.) )