Whether I admit it or not, I'm already in love with this Japanese woman who is more than a decade older than me, and I can't help myself with everything about Anna. I www.biquge.info the first woman I've fallen in love with in my life, and I don't know how it will end, and even if it makes me embarrassed, I won't regret it.

If there is any disharmony between us, it is her strength, and she wants everything between us to be in her hands. She never backed down whenever there was a conflict between us, and I couldn't help but ask for her forgiveness during the Cold War, without exception.

One afternoon, as we had sex as usual, cuddling each other in the bathtub, I put the book I had finished reading, looked at Anna and said, "Anna, we're going to the foothills of Mt. Fuji together next week." ”

"How did you suddenly have this idea?" Anna asked, frowning.

I saw that she was unhappy, and quickly explained: "We have known each other for a while, but we have never walked outside together, and we stay in the house every day and do not go out." ”

"If you don't want to stay here with me, you don't have to use it." Anna was even more upset when she heard this, and replied in her usual cold and arrogant tone.

"I just wanted to walk outside with you."

"Well, no more talk, I don't want anyone to see me with you." Anna was already impatient, stood up from the bathtub, got dressed, and walked out of the bathroom.

Anna's words made me feel seriously insulted, and I rushed outside after her and shouted, "You don't love me at all, you just want to control me in your own hands." ”

"You little guy know what love is?" Anna sneered.

"Yes, I don't know anything, you're qualified!" I retorted to her as a wife

"You're just a kid who never grows up."

"Haha, I'm a kid who doesn't grow up, but I'm dying in bed."

Although I was angry, I felt faintly relieved, the previous contradictions finally broke out at this moment, and everyone pointed at each other without principle.

"Get out.......... get out of my apartment, I don't need you to climb into my bed anymore." Anna pushed me out of the room, and it was clear that my words had completely angered her.

In the end, we parted happily, and no one confessed our mistakes to anyone. And I continued to live a boring life of two points and one line, and whenever I couldn't help but go to her, I would tell myself that I should be mature, that I should not always compromise easily, and that I should not ask for her forgiveness, that Anna must be taught a lesson, and that she must bow her head and admit her mistakes to me first.

I shifted all my thoughts about her to studying, and I tried my best to numb myself in the ocean of knowledge, so that I also wanted to be a useful person.

Years of study are coming to an end, I have a hard time respite from the heavy academic papers, I am looking up materials for the papers every day, I miss Anna not as much as before, and I am slowly integrating into my new life. During this time, I met new female classmates, and their young bodies also made me feel good. I thought I had completely removed Anna from my heart, but when I saw her again, I realized that it was all but self-deception, and that my love for her had never changed.

Anna was standing at the door of the school building in a long blue dress, I could see the uneasiness in her eyes, her weakness melted me in an instant, all the right and wrong before were no longer important, and the only wish in my heart at this moment was not to let her suffer a trace of grievance.

"How did you know I was here?" I didn't have time to say hello to my classmates before I walked over to Anna amid their quizzing gazes.

"You said it, you just don't know!"

"I shouldn't have lost my temper before, and I shouldn't have said that about you."

It was the end of the school day, and all the students were looking at the beautiful young woman curiously, and it was then that I realized that Anna was so out of place in all of this, and her worries were not unreasonable.

"Let's go, I'll take you somewhere." Without waiting for Anna to answer, I took her hand and ran away from the crowd and outside.

Without the attention of others, Anna regained her composure as a mature woman, and behaved unhurriedly along the way.

"What are we doing here?"

"What do you think this is?" I pointed to the bottom of a tent and showed her.

"Bikes?" Apparently Anna hadn't reacted yet.

"Last time, I thought about riding a bicycle together to the suburbs, where there are few people, and we can talk while watching the scenery." I consulted a friend about learning this bike, and it took me a long time, and I knew that Anna could ride it, and she had one at home.

"Oh! That's a good note. Anna did not object, and looked at me with a look of surprise and delight.

I went up to pay, and the car here had to pay a deposit before I could ride away, and at the same time I registered my student ID card, and when all the formalities were completed, I pushed a bicycle slowly down the street.

We walked all the way from the center of the city along the path to the periphery, although the weather was sunny, but when we arrived in the suburbs, the breeze did not feel very hot on the road, the roadside was full of wild flowers at this time, a green rice ear on the roots of the field, and the scenery was lush and prosperous.

Anna has a childlike smile on her face and competes with me to see who gets to her destination first. We laugh uncontrollably without fear of disturbing others.

When we got tired of riding, we would stop, and the old woman selling tea on the side of the road would naturally fill us with a pot of tea. We put our bicycles at the foot of the trees, drank the fragrant tea as cool as nectar, and looked at the beautiful scenery of the green mountains and green waters, I dare say that life is nothing more than that.

The good times were short-lived, the afternoon passed quickly, and eventually we had to be separated again, but I was not saddened in any way, the misunderstanding between us had been resolved, and as long as I let go of my machismo, the previous contradictions were not inevitable.

I insisted on sending Anna home first, but Anna refused to let me go back and forth because it was too late.

"Ma Gu Ming!"

"What's the matter, I won't delay the time to go back to school if you let me go." I was a little surprised that she suddenly called my name, she didn't call me by my name in the past, and even when she was angry, she only called me the little one.

Anna stopped talking, lingering in place for a long time before she spoke, "I'm happy today. ”

"Me too."

"Also........... my real name is Xiumi Tianzi."

I shouted, "Xiumi Tianzi." ”

"Let's go." Anna looked at me affectionately and waved her hand.

As the sun sets, the afterglow prints the horizon crimson, and the last rays of dusk cast from the harbor to the lonely platform, leaving the most beautiful moment of the day at the end.

Geng Daquan suddenly stopped when he read this, got up and walked to the windowsill, first took a puff of cigarette and looked outside in a daze, and unconsciously burned out the cigarette until his fingers reacted, lit a cigarette again and returned to the original place to look slowly.

Who would have thought that this parting would be the last time I would see Anna.

"Actually, when I went to your school one day, I wanted to tell you that I was planning to leave the city, but I couldn't tell you for various reasons."

"You don't have to look for me, even if you want to look for it, you won't be able to find it, don't wonder why I'm so sure, we are people of two worlds after all, I sometimes wonder if it's wrong to introduce you into the house!"

"In the end, I just hope you can forget about me!"

- Annaliu

Looking at the note on the table, I knew that Anna was indeed gone, and that the only woman I had a physical relationship with said goodbye.

The whole world seemed to collapse in an instant, and there was nothing more ironic than that.

A woman she loves, but she finally knows her departure through the hands of others.

"Where is that woman now?" Faced with my friend's blank face, I was completely out of control, and I had no reason to speak of.

"What woman, I don't know, all of a sudden I found this note, and after a glance I knew it was addressed to you."

"How is it possible, there must be someone."

"It's also strange that I haven't been out of my dorm all afternoon."

I tried to find the answer from my friend's gaze, but his behavior left me in a daze, and I just rushed out of the school gate like crazy.

I went to Anna's house, but it was a new tenant who told her that the original tenant had already moved out when she arrived.

"You can go to where she works, maybe they know her whereabouts, I know this house belongs to the tram staff dormitory."

"She must be a beautiful girl, you can't be so depressed." The woman said with a smirk.

The woman's prompt made me grasp the last straw, and as for the last joke, how could I take it to heart, I thanked him and rushed to Anna's place of work.

However, the answer was that they didn't have a woman named Anna here, and no one left during this time.

How could I have believed that I was blind when I had seen Anna working on the tram.

However, all the employees finally insisted that no one left, and no one knew about Anna.

How can a person disappear like this inexplicably, and no one knows. How could this not make me despair, if it weren't for the fact that everything about Anna was still clearly imprinted in my mind, I would have thought I was crazy.

Do you think I'm going to give up?

I even came up with the idea of asking someone to draw a portrait of Anna, and I showed it everywhere, but no one knew me.

I once asked a friend, "Have you seen a movie with a heroine named Anna?" ”

"No, I've never heard of it."

What else do you want me to do!

That's it.

Geng Daquan thought that with these letters, he could understand Ma Guming, but who would have thought that it would cast a shadow on his heart that had just regained his light.