It wasn't until a long time later, after Lu Yunchun became famous, after his heart had been ground as hard as iron and stone. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

He began to forget the so-called past, and regarded the past as a dream, perhaps letting them sink forever in the abyss of loss.

He has always thought that as long as there is a plan but there must be a stand, as long as he tries to forget, then he can choose to stay, so he should be able to forget, after all, he has already left that era and that time, but he is still afraid of the shadow in his heart after the feast and wine carnival, is he afraid, but his heart was so soft at that time.

He didn't dare to think about it, he could only run away, and thinking about the past would only tear his heart apart. So he pretended to forget, and used his heart as iron.

Many years later, when he was dying, when he sometimes watched the first spring rain hit the green lotus pond in his garden, a touch of the deepest desolation began to attack him again, and he suddenly felt that his heart was still so soft, except for all the hardships and vicissitudes, it was still as soft as before, and those past events that had long been annihilated, the self he thought had died would always be resurrected in the bottom of his heart.

Dive into the night with the wind, moisturizing things silently.

So I know that I will never be able to forget or get rid of the past and tenderness that have disappeared because of death, the boy I once was, the heart that was once warm and affectionate. In the memories of the past, which were mixed with sweetness and pain, he understood that he had been inseparable from the soul of another person all his life, accompanied by him day and night, and that soul was always wordless reminder of the past to him, he could not avoid it, he could never avoid it, that inner soul, ah, the most gorgeous tomb in the depths of his heart, was actually built by himself, so his whole life was imprisoned in that corner, that person, that person, how could he avoid it? Her body may have disappeared into the sky, but her soul stubbornly dwells here, even if he has blurred her name, will still be with her soul, is this his sorrow, or his blessing?

He leaned weakly on the edge of the railing, and when he saw the pool full of blue lotus, he remembered her name again, ah, Bilian, it seemed that it was already a name so far away? And the gentleness that used to have seemed to have been left forever in that past era.

The blue lotus that this pool has planted for you has been flourishing for so many years! Has your soul ever stood in the depths of the lotus flower and looked at me, thinking back to our youthful madness?

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Chang'an City.

The Chang'an Lu family may not be the tallest and richest family in Chang'an, but it can definitely be counted as one of them, in addition to Lu Yuan's family wealth, but also because Mrs. Lu is one of the most prominent sects in the martial arts: the sister of the head of the Kongtong faction. How did a famous figure in the martial arts faction marry a rich man? How did Lu Yuanwai, who has a noble family, marry a woman who only knows how to dance and play swords?

These questions are naturally speculated by outsiders, but they have long been unsolved.

Two years later, the eldest son of the Lu family was born, and his birth confirmed that this was a loving marriage, this smart and beautiful child was named Lu Yunchun, as the only son of the Lu family, whether it was in the official family of Chang'an City, or the gang figures in Chang'an City, they did not dare to despise this child, so Lu Yunchun enjoyed almost the support of the stars since he was a child.

At the age of fourteen, he had become one of the most famous nobles in Chang'an City, and until this time, he had not yet realized that there would be unsatisfactory in life, and there would be shortcomings in life. Practicing literature during the day and martial arts at night, the days are unusually calm and fulfilling. His talent and family background allowed him to get more things than other children, and when he was born, someone had already paved the way for him with splendid embroidery, and he just had to walk through it safely.

It's just that I didn't expect that such a day is not forever!

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In the early spring of the year they met, Lu Yunchun was already twenty-one years old. Zhuo Bilian had just turned twenty years old.

As long as you lean on the horse leaning bridge, you will see the red sleeves of the building.

This year, Lu Yunchun met Zhuo Bilian in Chang'an East City.

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Lu Yunchun originally planned to see off his friends and leave the city.

Persuade the gentleman to have a glass of wine, and there is no one in Yangguan in the west.

Folding willows has always been in Baqiao.

So Lu Yunchun naturally went straight to Baqiao, but he didn't expect to be blocked by the crowd at the city gate.

Lu Yunchun, who was riding on a tall horse, naturally easily saw the reason for the congestion: a black-haired girl knelt on the ground with her head bowed, and the dark red words on the white cloth spread out in front of her seemed to be written in blood, simply four words: sell yourself and bury your father.

Soon after the beginning of the troubled times, this is not an uncommon thing, except for these four words written quite beautifully, Lu Yunchun can't see any strange things, he doesn't think about raising the whip, wanting to disperse the crowd, good friends are about to leave, for him, it is much more important than what happened here.

But at this moment, he heard an almost familiar voice shouting, "Wu Na Niang, how much silver do you want?" A tall thin man with a lion's nose and a wide mouth came in from the crowd, and it was none other than Hu San, a famous scoundrel in Chang'an City.

The girl raised her head slightly, at this time Lu Yunchun knew the reason for the excitement, although there are many women who sell themselves to bury their fathers, but there are few who are as beautiful as her, this is a haggard and pale girl, who seems to have a sickly face, but these can't hide her beautiful facial features and the delicate and weak demeanor, she has a pointed melon seed face, snow-white skin, and a pair of eyes that seem to be covered with a layer of mist, looking at it like a star that has not disappeared in the morning light!

There was a sigh in the crowd, and Lu Yunchun also felt sorry for herself, if such a weak and beautiful girl fell into the hands of Hu San, what was the difference between it and a tyrannical thing? As long as he lives in Chang'an City and is old, who doesn't know that what Hu San specializes in is abducting and seducing women from good families, what will happen to these women after he is sold into the dust?

The girl's eyes slowly swept through the crowd, and a look of help after being humiliated flowed out in those clear eyes, but after turning around, her eyes immediately fell to the ground blankly, and she said in a strange cold tone: "Fifty taels of silver!" ”

Hu San shouted and said, "Fifty taels of silver, what kind of golden branches and jade leaves are you doing?" A thin coffin only costs three taels of silver at most! ”

There were boos in the crowd, and the girl raised her head slightly, still with that kind of blank and helpless eyes, which seemed to be staring at Hu San's face, and seemed to penetrate again, only to hear her repeat in a flat whisper: "Fifty taels of silver." ”

"Phew!" Hu San scolded, reached out and pinched her chin to force her to raise her head, and shouted: "Don't be embarrassed, which dead corpse is worth fifty taels of silver, five taels of silver, come with me now!" ”

The girl struggled for a moment, but she seemed to give up quickly, her two hands had been raised, but finally fell weakly on Hu San's arms, she tilted her head, a sadness similar to despair appeared in the depths of her eyes, mixed with the mist, but she did not shed tears or scream, but this look was more shocking than crying.

The onlookers talked about it, but fifty taels is not a small amount after all, and Hu San is not an easy person to provoke, so for this beautiful girl, who can give more except sympathy?

Looking at those eyes, as well as the sorrow contained in those eyes, teaching Lu Yunchun's heart seemed to be shaken by something heavy, that desperate look that seemed to bear it again, that kind of look made his blood boil, and he couldn't help but shout: "Hu San, take your dirty hands away!" ”

Hu San was stunned for a moment, but then he recognized who the person was, and was deterred and threatened by a more powerful force, he let go of his hand, and said with a somewhat uncomfortable smile: "It turned out to be the eldest prince!" ”

Lu Yunchun nodded with a smile, he didn't have to be polite like this, he said straight to the point: "Hu San, you are reluctant to pay, then I want to buy this girl!" ”

The anger in Hu San's eyes was fleeting, and he muttered: "Big prince, this is the ...... that the villain takes a fancy to first."

Lu Yunchun straightened his face and said coldly: "How?" Do you want to fight with me? ”

Hu San was stunned, and said unwillingly: "The eldest son, it is really the ...... that the villain takes a fancy to first."

Lu Yunchun said coldly: "It's a good wishful thinking, five taels of silver forced the girl to go back with you, and then doubled it and sold it to Wanhualou?" Hu San, let me tell you, I want this girl, it's good if you want to, do you want it......" He didn't say any more, and with a light press on the horse's back, he fluttered down in front of the girl, and the expression of such action was indeed more intimidating than words.

Watching Hu San leave in embarrassment, the crowd cheered, and it was easy to get the favor of the people who watched the excitement with violence, especially Hu San was not a sympathetic figure in Chang'an City. Lu Yunchun threw down a silver ticket of fifty taels and asked her, "Would you like to go with me?" ”

I saw that the girl lowered her head, slowly picked up the silver ticket and held it in her palm, then slowly raised her head, the star-like eyes swept over Lu Yunchun, and after a while, she said softly: "I am about to sell it at my own price, so naturally I have to obey the orders of the son." ”

Lu Yunchun was slightly stunned, this girl's faint tone was full of resigned ances, her lowly status and her outstanding appearance, the gentleness that naturally flowed made Lu Yunchun's heart feel a little more pity, "What's your name?" ”

"Bilian!" The girl still knelt and replied in a low voice, Lu Yunchun saved her mind and said gently: "You get up first, what's your surname?" ”

"The surname is Zhuo."

Lu Yunchun said gently: "Ah, this is really a good name, you don't have to be afraid, I will treat you well, and slowly you will know that it will not be too embarrassing to be a maid in Lu Mansion, well, your name is very elegant, are you literate?" ”

Zhuo Bilian said in a low voice: "My father once taught some. ”

Lu Yunchun's pity couldn't help but add another layer, and said, "Your father hasn't been buried yet?" ”

A thin layer of mist floated in those eyes, gathering but not dripping, Lu Yunchun understood, and said, "Go, you take me, I will help you bury your father." ”

Zhuo Bilian was stunned for a moment, and then said in a low voice: "Isn't the son unlucky?" That place is very dirty, I'm afraid that my son won't be able to stand it......"

Lu Yunchun laughed and said, "What's so unbearable about this?" I'm not the noble boy you imagined......" As he spoke, he pulled the girl out of the crowd. The scholar waitsman waited beside him with his horse at a loss, and shouted, "Childe! ”

Lu Yunchun said: "Shi Yan, you rode my horse to send Chang Gongzi, saying that I can't go because of something, apologize on my behalf, you tell him, I will give him a good reception when he returns." ”

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Although he grew up in Chang'an City since he was a child, it was the first time that Lu Yunchun knew that there was such a poor and dirty place in the city, and he couldn't imagine what kind of life the people in it lived. And Zhuo Bilian, this flower-like girl actually lived in such a place, he suddenly felt a wave of confusion, not out of pity, but for the fact that there was such a life and world in the world that he did not know at all.

In the dilapidated and dark room, it can be said that there is nothing empty, but it is much cleaner than expected, there is still a bowl of wine next to the corpse that has been slightly emitted the smell of corruption, and the dead Zhuo Father is also different from Lu Yunchun's imagination, this is an almost handsome middle-aged man, he has changed into clean clothes, and his face has obviously been carefully cleaned, if he is alive, he must still have a moving appearance. But when he approached the corpse, the wrinkles on his face and the bitter corners of his mouth seemed to tell the hardships of life, and his haggard and thin appearance showed the pain and torture he had endured before death, all of which taught him to rise a chill from the depths of his heart.

Zhuo Bilian slowly walked to her father's side, holding her father's hand, that kind of nostalgic and gentle demeanor as if he was still a living person, she said in a low voice: "He died of illness, refused to see a doctor, and refused to take medicine, alas! She sighed softly, but her tone was so calm that she seemed to be telling someone else's story, but the more she was like this, the clearer Lu Yunchun saw the hidden sorrow in her heart, "He always said that life and death are fate, everything is fate, don't force everything, otherwise you will only suffer more pain...... Zhuo Bilian's hand trembled......

The coffin had been bought and parked outside the house, it was Bi Lian who picked it herself, and this thin coffin only cost four taels of silver, which made Lu Yunchun a little more puzzled: Then why did she sell herself for fifty taels of silver?

Zhuo Bilian still held her father's hand and did not let go, her gaze gently stopped on her father's body, Lu Yunchun heard her say in a low voice: "Daddy, I promised you that everything I promised you will be done, and I will always remember my oath." I sold myself, ah, sold for a good price, Daddy, I just can't promise you to crush your corpse to ashes, I can't bear it, Daddy, although I know you want to do this, but I finally can't bear it, even if it's for myself, I can't do it, so be it...... Daddy, you didn't break your bones and scatter ashes, I have a place to stoop in the world, but I will always remember other promises, even if I am broken......"

Lu Yunchun couldn't listen to it anymore, the sadness in his calm voice made his heart cold, why is there such sadness in this world? He turned around and went out to call someone in, put the body in the coffin and prepared for burial, he thought that Zhuo Bilian would finally cry, but she didn't, she didn't struggle or cry, silently obeyed Lu Yunchun's arrangement, from the coffin to the burial, she didn't say a word again, only when Lu Yunchun asked her if she wanted to engrave the monument, she said quietly: "Father is willing to be forgotten by someone!" ”

When the funeral was over, Lu Yunchun was about to take her back to the house, but saw her ghostly walking back to the street, out of some inexplicable pity in her heart, Lu Yunchun did not stop her, but silently followed behind her, only to see that she did not walk back to the hut, but folded into the next room, the same dark and damp room, a little boy was lying on the side of the bed crying, and there was a thin woman lying on the bed, who was moaning hoarsely.

Seeing her come in, the little boy's face showed a smile of surprise, he stood up and ran to Zhuo Bilian's side, shouting, "Sister Bilian! ”

Zhuo Bilian stretched out her hand and hugged the child, and the burden she handed over was the silver that Lu Yunchun saw her in the coffin shop just now, Lu Yunchun was almost shocked to hear Zhuo Bilian's thin voice say: "Ping'er, take this silver to treat your mother!" ”

The child was carrying the burden, the expression on his face was both happy and surprised, and he exclaimed, "Sister Bilian, how can you have so much silver?" ”

Zhuo Bilian pointed to Lu Yunchun and said softly: "It was given to you by this son, you come to thank the son," after a pause, she said softly: "Ping'er, I'm leaving, you take good care of your mother and be a good child!" ”

The child's eyes flickered, and he cried out, "Sister Bilian, Sister Bilian, don't go, where are you going?" Uncle Drunk is dead, and you are gone, who will teach me to read in the future!? Sister, don't go......"

Zhuo Bilian stood up in a panic, her body swayed, as if she couldn't bear the sadness, she turned around and ran out of the house, only then did she stand against the wall, at this time, she saw Lu Yunchun's eyes, and the surprise in his eyes, a faint smile emerged from the corner of her mouth, she said in a low voice: "Look, since they are all sold, why not sell them for a good price?" Her body swayed, like a candle in the wind, and she fell down in a flicker......

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Bilian's illness came very violently, and it took more than half a year to slowly recover, according to the doctor's words afterwards, she was infected with the plague, and with this epidemic, the people in the streets west of the city died to the end, and it was really a fluke to pick up this life, and it was really thanks to the blessing of the Lu family!

Fortunately, Lu Yunchun did not get sick, but this was still inevitably scolded by his mother, but saving people is not a bad thing, Mrs. Lu, who was born in a decent family, knows the way of chivalry after all, and saw that her son liked this girl very much, and when Bilian recovered, she pointed her to be her son's personal ring.

Bilian, who recovered from her illness, was still very silent, but this gentle girl quickly won the love of everyone, not to mention that anyone could see that the young master treated her differently, who knew when she would fly on the branches!?

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