The self in the mirror sighed: "I can't help myself in the open and secret struggle of the court, and I am walking on thin ice in the whirlpool of deceit, when will it end?" The sky is blue, the clouds are vast, and other places are hometowns, with deep love but vicissitudes, with all the madness but madness, don't look back, look back only afraid of a dream. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ”

Ling Yunchong's eyes were distracted, and he muttered: "It's a pity, often reality is not as good as a dream." The world is always so helpless, I can't keep what I want, and I don't want to do it to the end. Drunk like a dream must wake up eventually, the world is bleak and a dream. Drunk and awake, illusory and real, sometimes you don't need to tell so clearly. The only thing you can grasp in your hands now is power, and you have the right to choose the path you want to take." At present, you are deeply respected by the emperor, entrusting you with great responsibilities, putting you with great power, and the good situation, you are only one step away, as long as you take one more step, the world can get it. ”

Ling Yunchong said: "He sees that I won't live long, otherwise he will never look at me with blue eyes." Even though I was poisonous, he never fully believed me. The self in the mirror said: "But you have an advantage, that is, he doesn't know that your poison can be solved, as long as you detoxify, you can replace him and sit on the world." Ling Yun said: "There are no relatives and no friends, only to seize the power that can be grasped, but this thing is empty, cold, and I can't find a trace of joy. The self in the mirror said: "So, you don't want to detoxify anymore?" ”

Ling Yun said: "I can't write the method to tell me in the secret letter, but her poison is only half detoxified, and she has not fully recovered, and the reason for the detoxification is just her speculation." Maybe this is a feasible method, but I have also been poisoned by the 'Spring Flower Scatter', and I am afraid that this method may not work. I don't want Qingyang to take risks for me, and I don't want to involve her, even if I get the original poison of the Dongying Evil Python, I don't want her to solve the poison of the 'blood relative' for me. Since she's left me, let's break it off completely. Gather, why bother with an excuse, scatter, why need a reason.

I won't go to Moonspring to find her, she is already in my heart, inseparable. She is a person who values love and righteousness, and she is very affectionate, I would rather die than have her sad for me. There is no recipe for 'Intoxicating Soul Attracting Pill' written on the "Strange Poison Spectrum", I won't die for the time being, I can avenge her before I die, and I will die without regrets. I can't give Qingyang a future, I can only give her freedom. The self in the mirror said: "You look at me and ask yourself in your heart, do you really have no ambition to change the dynasty?" ”

Ling Yunchong glanced in the mirror with a sloppy gaze, and said: "The rivers are flashy for thousands of miles, and the clouds and smoke are all the places to return. What is the power struggle? The so-called white bones are red, the bones are piled up into mountains, and the blood flows into rivers. A few famous corpses lie on countless nameless corpses, the so-called hegemony, that's all. Do I want to vent my endless loneliness with the blood of all beings? My heart was painful, but my mind was peaceful. Yesterday's events are cloud-over-raining, and a pillow of yellow sorghum is resting today. The world is unpredictable, prosperity is empty in a blink of an eye, what is the name of the front and back, but it is just a passing cloud, not to mention the high place is too cold and lonely. Even if it's an emperor, it's not a big deal, it's just an emperor's throne, I don't care about it at all. "The only complete version of the starting point of the spy step

In the mirror, he said: "You have always been comfortable and don't want to be a little restrained." Heaven and earth are infinite, everywhere can be home, and the heart is the world. Ling Yunchong nodded slowly and said, "Hmm...... The heart, that is, the world, the body, does not matter at the end of the world. I just want to spend this life calmly and elegantly, if I choose ambition and turmoil, my life will inevitably have a chaotic fission, step by step towards the quagmire, unable to extricate myself. Even the emperor can't extricate himself from the whirlpool, not to mention that I am just a natural prodigal son. Wandering wanderers, fighting swords in the world, wandering in the rivers and lakes, I don't drift with the current, I only drift with the wind. The self in the mirror said in a warning tone: "You have to think it through, now that the situation has changed, you happen to have another opportunity in your hand, if you don't fight, you will have nothing." ”

Ling Yun said faintly: "I have nothing, what do I care." I just have to take revenge for nothing, this is the motivation for me to live now. In the mirror, he said: "The annals of history are written by the victors." Seize the country and sit on the world, but the king is defeated and defeated, there is no wrong and right, right and wrong. Ling Yun said, "So what? Not something I wanted, I didn't have much interest. Even if you do, it's just a crazy take on the world. "The only complete version of the starting point of the spy step

In the mirror, he said: "What you want is love, faith, confidant, and friend, but I'm afraid that this is what you can't ask for after spending your whole life and paying the price of your life. In this cruel world, no one knows you and understands you, and no one believes that you love you. It's all there, Qingyang is gone, what else can you do? ”

Ling Yunchong only felt a fierce pain in his heart when he heard this, shook his head violently, and said: "No, there is no blood connection with me, whether she is alive or dead, she is one with me." If I say that I have found a confidant, even if no one in this world believes in me and understands me, I have no regrets, at least I still have Qingyang, she understands me and understands me, as long as she believes in me and loves me, I am satisfied. "The only complete version of the starting point of the spy step

The self in the mirror said: "Yes, except for nothing, you only have Qingyang, but you choose to let go, you want to be with her, you want to be with her, you want to think about it very much, but you can only force yourself not to see her again." Don't you really want her? Are you really willing to see her again? Ling Yun suddenly lost his mind, bowed his head in a daze, and after a while, he raised his head to look at himself in the mirror, only to see a haggard and sad face, full of sadness and confusion.

At this moment, Ling Yunchong's heart was really miserable and unbearable, sour and bitter, and he wanted to cry loudly, but he couldn't shed a single tear. To Jing Xinyu, he is talking to himself in his heart, this is his self-reflection buried in his heart, how could he not want to? How can you give up? At this moment, seeing his sad expression in the mirror, he no longer dared to look at him, turned his head to the side, and only heard the voice of the image in the mirror coming into his ears again: "Today, in a critical situation, you even want to deceive her." You were afraid that she was just tempted by you, and you were even more afraid that she would really remember you, but now you are afraid that she will leave, and you are even more afraid that she will not leave. ”

This word violently hit Ling Yunchong's heart, his heart was spent in such contradictions and entanglements, this love is not a game together, but precisely the kind of pain that is deeply concerned but has to leave. He needs warmth, love, Ren Qingyang's feeling of understanding him and trusting him, he wants to have such warmth and feeling forever, but he can't say it clearly, he can't confess to her affectionately, it's not that he doesn't want to say it, he just can't say it. All along, he has been in the tension of wanting to love and not daring to approach, but now he wants to let go in person, but where is he willing to give up? His mood was very conflicted, contradictory to the point of indescribable, contradictory to the point that he himself was terrified, in the end he was still afraid, afraid that she would leave him.

Ling Yunchong couldn't help but feel extremely painful, and shouted sadly: "Don't say it anymore! At the same time, he flipped the mirror buckle on the table with a "snap", and was stunned for a long time, silent. Suddenly, he stood up, walked to the wooden cabinet, took out the seven jars of wine he had bought before, opened the altar seal, raised his head with his arms, and poured it into his mouth. Ever since that time he met Wu Wu in the medical hall, he had been following Wu Wu's advice and not drinking again, but at this moment, he really wanted to get himself drunk, and he just wanted to get drunk and rest. He promised to take her back to his hometown, he hated that he couldn't do it, but he couldn't save her death.

He was used to being suspected by the emperor, but after this incident, he realized that he was actually suspected by his friends. And the only person who loves himself and understands himself, the beloved confidant, he has to let go and has to be estranged from her. He has always been open-minded and chic, but this time all kinds of stimulation made his heart depressed, crying without tears, and he felt that his heart was crying blood.

In this moment of fragility and confusion, he did not follow the advice of the unreasonable, did not care about the poison in his body, and this time he drank as violently as before, he only wanted to torture himself as much as he could, or get himself drunk. He didn't drink when he was young, he had never been drunk since he was beaten to drink on the road of secret investigation, he couldn't get drunk even if he wanted to drink like this, his lonely mind was sober, he might be able to get drunk when he was happy, but he had never been happy, how could he be drunk? Now his heart is aching, it hurts, it hurts, he can only take wine to anesthetize.

Ling Yunchong drank all the seven jars of wine stored before, he was not drunk as always, and unintentionally lowered his head, only to see that the cyan clothes on his body were drenched with a large piece of wine. From last night's trip to 'Yiting Fang' to today's trip to the suburbs and then in and out of the palace, he was wearing this cyan robe, looking at the empty wine jar in front of him, there was no wine left,

He flipped over a jar of wine, then put away the letter-free letter and the wood carving, and put it in the dressing box, and put the dressing box in the dark compartment at the head of the bed. Then he changed into that purple shirt and walked out the door. If you smell of alcohol, and even your clothes are drenched with wine, it will inevitably cause people to speculate. He didn't want to be noticed about the wine stains on his body, he didn't want to be known that he had drunk excessively, and then found that he was not happy today, so he changed into clean clothes and went out as usual, so as not to arouse suspicion.

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