Listening to He Biliang's sprinkled and long-spoken outspokenness, so deep-rooted and lovesick, I couldn't help but feel excited, hearing this, she suddenly understood the loneliness and depression hidden in his heart, although he was quite important in Shangshu Mansion, but he was not happy, not comfortable, and even felt dark and depressed, so he wanted to find spiritual sustenance, just now he said: "The sword and sword shadow fight and kill, which time is not the fate of a thread, over time the heart is tired, the sound of the piano is quiet and elegant, just enough to soothe, Playing and listening to yourself, there is no emotion. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ”

From this, it is conceivable that Gao Yu sent him all the difficult and dangerous errands to do, otherwise his hand would not have been so seriously injured. Nine deaths and lives in the dark night, so he cultivates his heart with the sound of the piano. He has no attachment to his heart, he longs to be loved, and his wandering and helplessness are so similar to himself. Thinking of this, there is no empathy, and the feeling of understanding arises spontaneously, and it suddenly leads to the birth of love and pity.

In an instant, he suddenly understood, no wonder he said that no one was allowed to snatch him, his attachment to himself, just like the only bit of light in his dark world he desperately wanted to grasp, he did not allow others to snatch away his only pure and pure hope, he was not only his sweetheart, but also his pure land, he did not allow anyone to touch, as if protecting his own territory. The only full version of the starting point of the spy step

If he ignores him, he will no longer have the interest of living, because at that moment, his heart is dead. Only with himself can his heart live, can he have vitality, and he can feel the warmth and bright existence. No wonder he said to himself just now that he was his winter sunshine, desert spring, and long-term drought and rain, so that he, a lonely and helpless person, could get spiritual comfort, so he said, you are so important in my heart. Herein lies the reason.

Unexpectedly, he was so affectionate, and he didn't expect that he had completely occupied his spiritual world. recalled that he was inserted into the palace by Gao Yu to do eyeliner, and rarely met with him, but I only saw it when I reported information to Gao Yu, but it was only in a hurry, let alone talking. In these days when he didn't meet and didn't speak, he had nowhere to talk to his heartfelt feelings, how difficult the pain of lovesickness was, you can imagine the scene of his heart being torn apart by longing, wandering in the moonlight. The only full version of the starting point of the spy step

Suddenly, I thought that my brother had just confided in me about Ren Qingyang, and he was also in this situation, and my brother said: "She is leaving, I don't know when I will see her again, and I don't know if I can see her again, my heart really feels empty." At that time, he said to his brother: "This heart has been accumulated in your heart for a long time and it is difficult to stop, but unfortunately you have no one to confide in. ”

My brother is like this, He Biliang is like this, they are all like this, they all want to pour out their hearts, but my brother has to suppress it because of his identity, so he is very uncomfortable; He Biliang was separated from himself and had no chance to show himself for a long time, so he was also very uncomfortable.

He said that he would not let go of the man who snatched him, his tone was so ruthless, but he was so gentle and caressing to himself. When I can't feel it like this, I know that this is a man with an extremely complex personality, and this alone can also understand what kind of situation he is doing, to the realm of rigidity and softness, I am afraid that he is on par with his brother. The only full version of the starting point of the spy step

Then I thought of He Biliang's words: "I will do my best to love, even if I know that there is no result, I will not hesitate to do it." I only know that I can't lose the people I love, I only know that I can't live without you, maybe I can't control your feelings, but I will never let you leave me unless I die. If I die, I can make you remember me, then I would rather die, especially if I can die at your hands, I really can't ask for it, die without regrets. There was nothing to think of here, Deng Shi suddenly felt in his heart, no wonder he wanted to stab himself, he just wanted to keep himself. Suddenly I realized his deep affection for him, and suddenly my heart was agitated, and tears dripped down involuntarily.

He Biliang felt that his body was trembling slightly, and he couldn't help but look sideways, but when he saw her tears in her eyes, two lines of tears slid over her face, and instantly knew that she was moved by her affectionate words, thinking that she had realized her true feelings, and her heart couldn't help but be happy, and her tenderness suddenly rose, rippling like water waves, and she couldn't help but kiss her lips again, extremely lingering. This time, there was no resistance or struggle, allowing him to kiss himself. The only full version of the starting point of the spy step

Suddenly, she felt his right hand touch her collarbone, followed by the collar, slid down to the neckline, and suddenly pushed him away, with a little feet, and her body bounced a few feet, and exclaimed, "What are you doing?" Then he looked sideways at the placket, but it was intact, and then looked at He Biliang, only to see that he was holding a wood carving wearing red silk thread in his hand. It was not visible that he took his wood carving, his face changed suddenly, and he said sharply: "Give it back to me!" As he spoke, he stretched out his hand and took a step forward, bound to take it back from his hand.

He Biliang took a step back, saw her staring at him nervously and angrily, turned his gaze, looked at the wood carving, and said: "This wood carving, since I met you in Shangshu Mansion, I have seen it once, and you still have it with you." You've always been very careful with this wood carving, and you never wore it outside, and it was only by chance that it came out of your clothes that I had a chance to see it. At that time, I asked you what the pattern on it meant, and you said that it was just an ordinary amulet, but no matter how I looked at it, the pattern did not look like the amulet. ”

I couldn't help but cover up in a hurry: "This is the custom of our hometown, the countrymen make it themselves, there are more amulets and peace charms, you haven't seen such a pattern, what's so surprising?" He Biliang looked at her and said, "You cherish this wood carving so much, and you have always carried it close to your body, it seems that it is extremely important to you." Can you tell me who gave it to you? ”

After a moment's pause, he said, "Of course it's my relatives." You don't have to know that well, do you? At first, she wanted to perfunctory say that she did it herself, and then wanted to say that it was sent by her parents or an elder, but she thought that such a statement would be covered, if he wanted to ask about the origin of this wood carving, he would make up a story improvised by himself, but he would expose the bottom, simply not to say specific, ambiguous and vague answer.

He Biliang heard her vague words, nodded and said, "Okay, if you don't say it, I'll guess." Then she took a closer look, and saw that the wood carving was made of camphor wood, and the color was some years of wood, thinking about her nervous expression just now, a thought flashed in her mind, and she didn't have time to think about it, and asked: "It was given to you by your intended person, right?" ”

The Ming court stipulates that anyone who is elected to the palace as a female historian must be without a husband, and there is no restriction on whether he is unmarried or widowed, although He Biliang knows that there is no unmarried, but he doesn't know if she has a lover before. He wanted to accept himself unwillingly, it must be because he had already had a crush before, so he saw that he couldn't cherish this wood carving so much, and always felt that it was a token of love given to her by her crush, and he couldn't help but want to find out and ask for clarification.

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