The first time is like a dream

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In 1614, the forty-second year of Wanli in the Ming Dynasty, the year of Jiayin, the cold winter of December. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info Zhejiang, Huzhou Mansion, Deqing County, Shijiazhuang. That night, the snow was heavy and the weather was cold, but he felt very hot, so hot that he couldn't breathe, and his house was full of fires, raging fires, which lit up half of the sky, and he had never seen such a fire, and it was dazzling. In his panic and confusion, he pushed her into the cellar and told her not to come out no matter what happened or what she heard. He thought that he would leave this world in the fire like his relatives, but he didn't even want his life, so he threw his life back to him, and the snow finally extinguished the fire and saved his life. Originally, he had parents who loved him and had a peaceful and happy life, but overnight, his family was ruined and he became an orphan. That year, he was 13 and she was 11.

1614, the forty-second year of Wanli, May. Fujian, Fuzhou. More than 100 people were killed and wounded, rockets were fired, and countless houses were burned down. That year, she was 11 years old.

Two years later, Beizhili, Hejian Province, Suning County. In the middle of the night, the moonless courtyard looked unusually dark, and half an inextinguishable candle flame reflected on the wall of the stove. Suddenly, two successive screams pierced the dark dead silence, and the flames of the overturned candles ignited the firewood. Not long after, a big girl pulled a little girl out of the kitchen, turned two corners, rushed straight to the back door of the mansion, opened the door knocker and ran all the way, I don't know how long she ran, she had arrived at the suburbs, her sister told her to hide quietly here, and she would return after a while, but she waited until dawn, and her sister did not come back. That year, she was 13 years old.

1614, the forty-second year of Wanli, July. Nanzhili, Yangzhou Prefecture, Taixing County. In that year, the countryside was flooded, his parents died, and he was helpless and wandered to Fuzhou with the southbound boat exhibition, where he was taken in by the tax inspector and put into his discipleship. That year, he was 12 years old.

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In 1627, November of the seventh year of the Great Tomorrow's Apocalypse. Beijing Chengdong Detective Factory, the pine, cypress and poplar in the garden stand on both sides, the planting of several ancient plums is mixed in between, the flowers bloom like jade, the moss whiskers hang between the branches, the length is about a few inches to more than a foot, the horizontal oblique sparse and thin quite elegant rhyme, the dark fragrance is subtle.

A gust of west wind blew through the garden like a sigh, alarming the branches of the trees that had been silent, and a few fallen leaves fell with the wind, scattered sparsely in the air, and fluttered swaying, skimming the stone steps and decaying grass in the garden, and drifting to the rows of gray tile walls. In the garden, in the stone bridge pavilion next to the hall, a long blue figure stood on the bridge, looked up at the vast sky covered by the clouds, and said softly: "Dad, the person who killed you used to be the master here, and now the master here is me." ”

The sky is twilight, the remnant sun is like blood, he is a single figure, reflecting this bleak sky, there is an indescribable loneliness and loneliness, he is long and jade, the air is lofty, but the eyes are rare desolation, and the look of loss is presented on the handsome face.

Suddenly, there was a whistling sound, breaking through the silence, a goshawk flying from nowhere, spreading its wings and circling in the sky, his eyes soared, walked to the edge of the pavilion corridor, stepped on the front steps, looked at the empty front, his face revealed a little disdain, and said proudly: "The red walls and blue tiles of the Forbidden City, don't think that it is really heaven and earth, there is nothing to worry about, the emperor's house is just an ordinary family, I Ling Yunchong has no interest in your position." If I hadn't been an incurable poison in my body, would you be so relieved to let me be in charge of the Divine Machine Camp? Even if I wanted to leave, you wouldn't let me go, would you? He laughed loudly, with a hint of bitterness in his laughter, laughing calmly, laughing lonely, laughing desolantly......

Laughing and laughing, his eyes gradually became sharper, his body was covered with a rainbow rhyme, the footsteps moved lightly, leaped up, waved his hand, picked a branch, and then lightly landed on the ground, with a cold sonorous, lazily lifted the tree, as if drunk, suddenly the right wrist vibrated sharply, and split out three times in succession, fast as lightning, sneering, like a chaotic disorder, in fact, every split, every cut, all accurate and ruthless, suddenly dozens of moves in one go, ten moves like a move, the technique is fast, It's incredible, and it sways out with pride.

He used a branch as a sword, dancing wantonly, and the scene in the imperial study came to mind......

November of the seventh year of the Apocalypse, the Forbidden City, Beijing, the Imperial Study. The new emperor Chongzhen Zhu Youzhen, who had been on the throne for more than three months, was summoning Ling Yunchong, the new governor of Dongchang. Now sitting on the dragon chair handsome eyes majestic domineering the person, is no longer the original king of faith, that is the emperor, his king domineering inviolable, he has stayed in the brilliant but empty place for too long, he has been used to loneliness, so he has grown up in such a high place, he walked against the wind step by step, in the turbulent waves of various forces are dangerous and unpredictable, the waves are magnificent but won as a matter of course, little by little the world into his own pocket, he has become a habitual emperor, The person who controls everything on top of all kinds of forces, and finally holds the power of the world in his hands, is he, Chongzhen, the mountains and rivers are thousands of miles, and he is my family.

It's just that his heart still maintains a certain amount of benevolence, even as an emperor, there are some things that have to be done, he wants to keep Ling Yunchong, but it is because Ling Yunchong is about to die, so he doesn't have to be suspicious. Ling Yunchong knew in his heart that it was fortunate that Wei Zhongxian, who was rampant in chaos in the Apocalypse Era, was not regarded as the remnants of Dongchang, his identity could not be recognized and accepted by the ministers of the imperial court, and it was impossible for him to be honored as the prime minister, even if Zhu Youzhen promoted him to the highest position, he could only be the position of the governor of Dongchang, Zhu Youzhen needed to find a trustworthy and capable person who could dominate Dongchang, and no one could stand up to this except him.

The Shenji Battalion is the Gyeonggi Praetorian Guard, which is responsible for the internal defense of the Beijing Division and the preparation of the war, is in charge of the training of firearms, and is a special battalion in charge of firearms. The Shenji Battalion, like Dongchang and Jinyiwei, directly obeyed the emperor's orders and was under the direct jurisdiction of the emperor. At the beginning, these important positions had Wei Zhongxian's minions, Zhu Youzhen dismissed and replaced those remnants of the eunuch party, and he never wanted to listen to the recommendation of his subordinates to replace the manpower but it was useless, and he was ready to remove some people and demote them, and find another capable person.

Zhu Youzhen stared at Ling Yunchong for a while, and said in surprise: "Then you don't only have this hundred days of life?" Ling Yunchong stretched out his hand to wipe the blood from the corner of his mouth, and said indifferently: "Not bad." ”

Zhu Youzhen sighed: "I didn't expect the toxicity to be so strong, even in the best case, I will lose my memory and blindness." Don't you care at all? Ling Yunchong smiled faintly and said, "What's the use of caring?" Zhu Youzhen seemed a little concerned and asked, "Have you seen the imperial doctor?" Maybe there's another way? ”

Ling Yunchong asked rhetorically, "Does the emperor think that there is a better and more intelligent doctor in the palace than Wuwu's medical skills?" Even if there is no way to cure the poison, can those imperial doctors do it? The emperor doesn't have to worry about me, I don't value my life very much, life and death are fate, and he will go. ”

Zhu Youzhen looked at him with admiration and admiration, and praised: "Life and death are aside, it is indeed the true character of a good man's husband." After a change of tone, he said, "But you died like this, I am really a little reluctant." ”

Ling Yun was surprised and asked, "What does the emperor mean by this?" Zhu Youzhen said: "At present, the position of the commander of the Shenji Battalion is vacant, and someone needs to supervise the construction of firearms and the training of the forbidden army. I have decided that it will be up to you. Later, I will make an edict, and tomorrow you will be here to receive the order, and you will go to the Shenji Camp in time to take up your post. ”

Ling Yunchong's face was incredulous, and before he could say a word, Zhu Youzhen said again: "I have read the information sent by Sun Chengzong about your sending volume, you are the secret detective he sent into the East Factory, change your name and surname, and bear the burden of humiliation. You are originally from Zhejiang, you are from Huzhou Prefecture, and your home is in Shijiazhuang, Deqing County. Your sister Zhang Wuke's original name is Shi Wushuang, and her father Shi Menglin is a member of the cabinet of the Wanli Dynasty. At that time, Gao Yu committed perjury and colluded with Wei Zhongxian to frame Shi Dashi Tongwei, so that he died unjustly. Your original name is Shi Kejian, and your father Shi Mengqi is the head of Shijia Village. Back then, Wei Zhongxian secretly sent Xu Xianchun, in the name of the Holy Decree, to set fire to Shijia Village on the pretext of quelling the disaster, so that your family was tragically destroyed. These old cases, I will send people to investigate and verify, and make your historian's name right. You and your sister will be able to revert to your original names in the future. ”

Ling Yun said: "Thank you for the emperor's concern for the minister, the minister is very grateful." It's just that the name Chen has been called for so many years, and he has long been used to it, and he doesn't have to change it back. A name is just a name, Shi Kejian Ling Yunchong is me, and I am still me. ”

Zhu Youzhen smiled: "Well said! Shi Kejian or Ling Yunchong, but the circumstances are different, you are you, no matter how many winds and waves you have gone through, how many dangers you have passed, you are still you. Is that right? Ling Yunchong smiled slightly.

Thinking of this, Ling Yunchong stopped dancing, threw away the branch casually, took out the bottle of 'Intoxicating Soul Attracting Pill' in his arms and looked at it in a daze for a long time, and his sister's helpless voice echoed in his ears......

"Brother, don't blame yourself, who made us brothers and sisters, how can I be tired or not, even if you are wiped out, I am willing."

"No problem, even if my brother is broken for you, he will not be willing to look back. Don't be afraid, don't be sad, I promised to take you out of this place of right and wrong, take you back to our hometown, and I will definitely do it. You trust me. ”

He couldn't promise his sister that, but now he didn't know if he would make it to that day. He looked up and followed the oblique sunlight line between the trees, as if he saw the beautiful picture in the light and shadow of the south of the Yangtze River faintly reappeared: I remembered walking in the smoke and rain of apricot blossoms, I remembered boating on the lake to pick lotus roots, I thought of the small bridge and flowing water, I thought of the blue bricks and tiles, I remembered the flying flowers on the Mo and watched the red, I remembered a lot, I no longer paid attention to the grievances of the rivers and lakes, the court was treacherous, and I no longer had to dance with the tiger and the wolf, how free and easy was that? The small bridges and flowing water in the south of the Yangtze River, the green bricks of the ancient roads in the south of the Yangtze River, everything in the hometown of the south of the Yangtze River, the life that recorded the peaceful life and the state of peace and worry-free are slowly surging out in the bottom of my heart......

Wu never told him: "The trap hidden in the dark is not terrible, it is terrible, the trap is fluid." I just think that the whirlpool of the capital is like a flowing trap, very sinister and terrifying, there is no real friendship between people here, and no one is worthy of our trust. ”

He once mentioned that there is nothing to say: "The fate of the secret detective is actually just a chess piece, a lonely and helpless chess piece, but I am reluctant to follow such an arrangement, I prefer to live my own color, you have to remember, you are you, don't be at the mercy of anyone, you are living for yourself, you have to live well, live your own life, and go your own way." ”

Over the years, he has fearlessly wandered on the cusp of the storm, parting from life and death, wandering uncertainly, drunk and lying in Longtan, and being in the storm, can know his own faults, but there are still regrets?

Inadvertently, a gentle voice sounded in my heart: "No, I don't want you to die well, if you betray me, I won't die well." In addition to the only relative who has no sister, the one he is worried about suddenly comes to his mind, these words are like a spell, every time he thinks of it, he can't help but tremble.

At first, he thought he could come and go freely in her soul, but he didn't expect her to be so obliged, a thought of persistence, a deep love, he untied her knot, she fell into the whirlpool of love.

He asked, "Why do you want to harsh yourself with such cruel words?" She said: "If you misread and believe someone, you can only blame yourself for being blind and blind, and if you are willing to be deceived by someone you like, you can only blame yourself." ”

Whenever he thought of her words, he felt great love and pity, "Qingyang, how can I be willing to let you die, let alone let you die because of me." ”

She was like the best dream in his heart, longing to have it but unable to touch it. Now, he doesn't know how long he can live, he looks down on life and death, and he is not afraid of life and death, but he is racking his brains thinking about how to let her live well, and he must let her live well, even if it is a lie.

Messy thoughts fluttered, and for a moment he thought of his old friend, "Brother Ling, I am fortunate to know you as a friend, we hit it off at first sight, and that bamboo forest is also the place I miss the most." ”

He said: "Yes, our brothers are friends of the general horns, and they fell in love when they were young. ”

"The two of us will always be together and will never leave. This is our agreement. ”

"A trustworthy person like me will never forget it for the rest of my life."

The more he thought about it, the more gloomy he became, and gradually felt a little sour, and muttered: "Zheng'an, I still have to go down this road to get close to a poisonous snake that is even older and more treacherous than Wei Zhongxian." I'm afraid that after this trip, you and my brother will really turn against each other, or the brother himself will take the first step, and the court will be turbulent, so you can take care of yourself. ”

He is not afraid of death, he is afraid that he is the only one who fights alone, and the blood is empty, and he has always been alone in the end, until he is disillusioned, then he feels more desolate and helpless than death. As long as he looks into someone's eyes, pays attention to someone's tone of voice, and pays attention to someone's small movements, he can accurately judge what this person thinks and wants.

But from another point of view, you will find that God has given him such a cruel ability, just like giving you the ability to predict the future and look back at the past, but not giving you the ability to change all this. Whatever limits us, we call it destiny. He has been fighting against fate all his life, never disappointed, never gave up, he has never admitted defeat, nor is he willing to admit defeat, even if he pursues occasional satisfaction in disappointment, even if he is relieved of the suffering of wacifulness in his dreams, even if he wanders in the lamplight, he just misses it silently in his heart, if life is only as it was first seen......

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It is also said that men use the word affection between each other,

Song Ci of He Bing of "The Criminal Officer of the Great Song Dynasty" said: I am a righteous brother and I are in love.

This is a historical feature film, and Song Ci said it when he paid tribute to his classmates.

Therefore, it is also appropriate to use the word "affection" in the author's novel. If there are readers who want to yy into bl, it has nothing to do with the author, it depends on each person.

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