Chapter 22: Reflections on the Past
Jin Rong has so many books, and on this day, I was cleaning his desk alone, and a thin black book fell down. Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 info I leaned down to pick it up, and accidentally saw the dense words on it, I opened it and looked, it was all one name. Wen Xin, Wen Xin, Wen Xin, Wen Xin. A piece of paper is densely packed with these two words. How much do we want someone to write her name on a piece of paper over and over again? In the moment of loneliness, I secretly convey my thoughts through that stroke, and this deep love should only belong to the one who is alone. It's a pity that that person is not me, the book slipped out of my hand, and there was a place in my heart that seemed to be leaking, empty and cool.
I walked alone to the green glowing tree and sat down, at the moment I felt a sense of helplessness, but I didn't know if there was a place for this helplessness, so I could only hold on. Does Jinrong love me? He loves the woman named Wen Xin, not me. I remembered the cold eyes he had when he kissed me, so cold, the sun was so dazzling, why did I still feel so cold.
What kind of past did Jin Rong and the woman in red have? And when were these names written? I didn't dare to ask Jin Rong, for fear that our relationship would fall apart as soon as I opened my mouth, and it was probably something he wrote a long time ago. It doesn't make any sense for me to ask, after all, that Wen Xin has already lived with her beloved, and I'm a little vexatious.
Since it was a past event, maybe I shouldn't mention the sad emotional experience of Jinrong. He loved her so much, but watched her go. I still remember the desperate look in the look in the eyes of the woman in red when she jumped off the balcony. How can I hurt him again with these memories? When you don't see it, don't mind those past things, Luo Xi, I told myself secretly.
"What do you think?" Jin Rong stood in front of me, blocking out the harsh sunlight and casting a shadow on me.
"Your bells have turned blue, is there anything that makes you sad?" Seeing that I didn't reply, Jin Rong squatted down and looked me in the eyes.
I shook my head and didn't speak.
"Xiao Luoxi, what's wrong?" He touched my head and tried to hug me.
I subconsciously dodged, "Nothing. ”
He pulled me over and hugged me in his arms. "Did I mess with you?"
"Good, no matter what, I didn't do a good job, don't be angry." He didn't know why I was like this, so he could only coax me like this.
I lowered my head and didn't look at him, I was afraid to look at him, I was afraid to see the lack of love in his eyes.
Seeing that I kept my head down, Jin Rong held up my face with both hands and gently stroked my eyebrows with her fingers. "It seems that I'm really angry, my brows are furrowed so tightly, what's wrong?"
I don't know how to answer, question? No way. Accept? I'm not ready yet.
He kissed me suddenly, and I wanted to break free, but I couldn't get rid of his tenderness.
His kisses were a little tough at first, but then they became more and more gentle when he saw that I was no longer running away. I felt a little useless that I couldn't resist, and even tried to cater to his kiss. I opened my eyes to see if the way he kissed me at this time was the same cold look he had at the beginning, but I found that his eyes were closed, and his serious appearance made me feel that what I saw before might really be just a past emotion, and it had nothing to do with him now. And I love him now, and he loves me now.
The kiss lasted for a long time, until a green petal fell on our lips. He let go of me.
"Luo Xi, I love you." This is the first time I've heard Jin Rong say this. I looked him in the eye and there was seriousness in it. I don't know if he sensed my confusion or if he suddenly wanted to say this. But I believed it. I touched his chest to see if he was taking good care of my heart. He hugged me gently, "Don't worry, Luo Xi, I'll treat you well." ”
I pressed against his chest and heard his heartbeat popping.