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Lin Yanzhu walked out of the company after work. See the clearing under the trees in front. Stunned for a moment. In the past, Zhao Jin liked to wait there for her to get off work. Walked to the stop sign and began to be in a daze again. In the past, this time was not a quarrel with Xiao Ran. It's to ravage Zhao Jin.

Memories are like floods that open the floodgates. Surging. The bits and pieces of the past are so clear.

Lin Yanzhu laughed self-deprecatingly. It turns out that habit and dependence are really much more terrible than love itself.

It's just that. She knew she couldn't go back. Even if it's compounded. The question of existence is still existing. There is no way to change what has happened. They are no longer the original Lin Yanzhu and Zhao Jin.

Xiao Ran asked Lin Yanzhu. Why did you break up all of a sudden. For Xiao Ran's question. Lin Yanzhu sighed. Just tired. Really tired. She doesn't want to argue over the same issue forever. I don't want to hold on to a dead knot anymore and imagine that everything will be settled tomorrow.

"What about before. Why insist on being together." Xiao Ran asked at that time.

Lin Yanzhu smiled bitterly. Maybe it's because we're all old now."

The older a person gets, the more he dares to do anything. Can be used with age. Courage is diminishing little by little. Found no more youth to consume later. I can't afford to lose.

The bus stops. Interrupt Lin Yanzhu's memories. She gets in the car. I took out the transportation card from my bag and swiped it. Walked inside and found a place to sit down.

In fact, she doesn't need to be in a hurry to find a place to love. Lin Yanzhu thought. It's really old enough to think about your partner. Find a suitable person to live with. Just like her parents. Maybe there is no love. But I can go through my life plainly. It's not bad either. After all. Even if it's love. It will eventually be worn off by firewood, rice, oil and salt.

Feelings experienced by a person in his early twenties. It has a great impact on how you treat your marriage and relationship in the future. As long as you've been seriously invested in a relationship. You have to think about how it affects you. If this relationship is for your future and now. The negatives are already greater than the positives. Then it is best to end early.

When you get off the bus. Lin Yanzhu found out. It actually rained lightly. The weather in April is mostly hazy. The thick gray clouds that can't be pushed away are depressing. What's even more irritating is that. The drizzling rain. Originally warm weather. It's cool because of this drizzle and breeze.

Lin Yanzhu thought it would rain. Commute to work with an umbrella every day. But it just doesn't go down. When she thinks it's not going to rain anyway. It's just against you, and it's raining a lot.

A drizzle falls on the face. Wet eyelashes. Lin Yanzhu blinked. The journey home is neither long nor short. And according to this rain. It won't get soaked. But it's going to get wet all over.

She walked under the porch of the shop. Try to avoid rain. However, the characteristic of this drizzle is that it is light and fluttery. There is no direction at all. Not much. The hair is covered with a layer of mist.

Lin Yanzhu suddenly remembered Xia Ning's wedding. It's also like this. It started to drizzle in the morning. But the people of the day. Even if it's raining. The faces are beaming with joy.

Tie the knot. Lin Yanzhu looked at the pedestrians coming and going on the road. Secretly sighed. Making a boyfriend like Xia Ning is bland. Then get married step by step. Maybe there's nothing bad about it. However, Lin Yanzhu always felt that there was a lack of passion.

The moment I saw Xia Ning put on her wedding dress. Lin Yanzhu and Xiao Ran hugged each other and cried. Crying and crying and laughing again. Wedding dresses are a dream for many girls. But it's not just a beautiful dress. After a short period of dazzle. It will be a long and ordinary life that repeats itself day after day.

Xiao Ran asked Lin Yanzhu. Are you willing to be ordinary.

Lin Yanzhu asked rhetorically. What is ordinary. What is extraordinary.

Xiao Ran was dumbfounded. But she said. I'm envious though at the moment. But I know it's not the life I want.

Lin Yanzhu thought for a moment. Then he agreed with Xiao Ran's words.

Even if it ends up being ordinary. Still want to live for yourself once before that. Be a free person. Live completely for yourself.

"Sister. This one is for you." Immature children's voice. Let Lin Yanzhu come back to his senses. She bowed her head slightly. A little boy of seven or eight years old stood in front of him. Hand her a sky blue umbrella.

Lin Yanzhu looked around. Me."

The little boy nodded. Stuffed the umbrella to Lin Yanzhu and ran away.

Lin Yanzhu was stunned. Open the umbrella. Sky blue umbrella surface. Tiny white flowers. Very much in line with her taste.

Keep walking with an umbrella. Across a street. Another little girl came running. Hand her a card. Two simple little figures are drawn on the small card. A man kneels in front of a woman. Woman with leather whip in hand. The caption is a few words. The Queen spares her life.

Then. One after another, children took the card and put it in her hand. The accompanying pictures are also varied. There are those who seek to be ravaged. There are those who are whipped with leather whips. The last one. The man on the cartoon is holding a flower. Standing in front of a woman. The flowers are dazzling red. As red as blood.

Lin Yanzhu held a dozen small cards in his hand. Holding an umbrella in one hand. Walk to a clearing. As if talking to himself, he whispered, "Come out."

Zhao Jin appeared from the turn with a flower. The flowers are as red as the paintings. Just as vivid. Walk over to the side. He said, "You said I didn't even give me a single piece of grass. So I ......" walked up to Lin Yanzhu. Sincerely, he said, "Forgive me. Let's start over."

Lin Yanzhu laughed. You think what I need is a bouquet of flowers. Don't waste time on me. Let's go back."

"I see it." Zhao Jin said. You look at those places in a daze. You're reluctant."

"Yes. I'll look at those places in a daze. So what. It's just a habit that has been cultivated for a long time. Soon. Other habits were replaced afterward. It's nothing." Lin Yanzhu turned around to leave.

Zhao Jin tugged at Lin Yanzhu's hand." You just don't kid yourself anymore, okay? I'm willing to put down my pride for you. What else do you want?"

"What else do I want?" Lin Yanzhu sneered. Arm flick. looked at Zhao Jin coldly." I'm sorry. I don't want to do anything. Please take your self-esteem away from my world."

Zhao Jin hugged her fiercely. Flowers fall to the ground. A few petals spread out. Stained with muddy water on the ground. Say it in her ear." Forgive me. Just as if nothing had happened."

Lin Yanzhu because of Zhao Jin's movements. Hands loosened. The umbrella falls to the ground. She pushed Zhao Jin hard with both hands. Break free of his embrace. It's about to collapse." I beg you too. I beg you to spare me. We're done."

"You thought you said start with it. You say it's over."

Lin Yanzhu squatted on the ground. Put your head in your knees." Let's end it. ZHAO Jin. You don't love me that much. It's because you're unwilling."

Zhao Jin frowned. It's not ......"

"Yes." Lin Yanzhu raised his head. Tilt your head and look up at him." You tell me how much you love me. I can't do it without me. Even you yourself believed it . In fact. There is no one in this world who is inseparable from whom. We used to be together. There are also some particularly fond memories. But those days can't come back. I'm not what I was then. Neither are you. ZHAO Jin. I'm tired. Do you know. I just have to see you. It's a feeling of exhaustion."

Lin Yanzhu smiled slightly at the corner of his mouth. Tears slipped down the corners of her eyes." Let's separate. Even if I'm not used to being alone. Even if you're not used to not loving me. This feeling is already a burden. So. Let's separate."

Zhao Jin also squatted down. Reached out and grabbed Lin Yanzhu's shoulder. Bury your head in Lin Yanzhu's shoulder socket." No. Don't let it go."

Lin Yanzhu wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes with his index finger. Push Zhao Jin away and slowly stand up. Because I've been squatting for a long time. A flick of the numbness of the foot. And then. Turn around. He said with his back to Zhao Jin. I will resign. Don't look for me again."

A relationship. It's always easy to start. It ends again for a variety of reasons. Maybe one of them doesn't love anymore. Maybe it's the incompatibility of the two people's personalities that eventually wears out the relationship. Maybe it's like Lin Yanzhu and Zhao Jin. It was the wrong start.

When you can go back. Timely termination. This is called a stop loss.

The end of the relationship is not terrible. The most sighing thing is. The end of one party with an iron heart. The other side is struggling. Originally, the other party would hold a little memory and guilt. Such. It's annoying. And then more exclusive.

That's how everything in the world is. One trades off the other.

The rain gradually became heavier. Lin Yanzhu is gone. Zhao Jin stood alone in the rain. Feet. It's petals scattered all over the place. Watered by rainwater. Mixed with dirt. Slowly. The original bright red is getting darker and darker.

Zhao Jin thinks. He's like this flower. It was as if his self-esteem had been trampled on.

Love someone. Will be humbled to the dust. And then it blooms. But. And didn't say if the other person didn't love anymore. So. What to do with the person you still love.

When the drizzle turns into raindrops. People who wet the spot. In the rain. The figure grew more and more blurred.

Lin Yanzhu returned home. Open the door with a key. Mom, who was busy in the kitchen, took a look." Why don't you have an umbrella?"

"Forgot." Lin Yanzhu echoed in a low voice.

"Let's go take a shower first. After washing and eating."

"Oh." Lin Yanzhu put down the bag. Go into the room and get a change of clothes.

The father of the Lin family walked over from the living room. whispered: "My daughter seems to have been obedient a lot lately."

"Whew. Take it." The mother of the Lin family handed the fried vegetables to Father Lin." What is obedient and disobedient. Donkey temper. Like you."

Lin Yanzhu took a bath and lay on the bed. I made a call. It rang several times before it was picked up." What are you doing? Haven't answered the phone for so long."

On the phone. Xiao Ran gasped. Speech is also intermittent." At... Jogging... Exercise."

"I'm full."

"It's just a stretch. Whew~"Listening to the voice, it stopped." What's wrong. What's the matter?"

"Dating you. Weekends are not available."

"Weekend. Hey. I've got an appointment."

Lin Yanzhu rolled his eyes. Heavy color and light friends."

"Oops. Not really. An old classmate came over for the weekend. Or I'll make an appointment with you next week."

"Forget it. I'm going to find Xia Ning. Bye-bye."

hung up Xiao Ran's phone. Lin Yanzhu called Xia Ning again. As a result, the call did not go through.

"Zhuzhu has eaten." Daddy's shouts came from outside.

Lin Yanzhu threw the phone back on the bed. Open the door." Here we go."