When I knew the news of the suicide, I could only sit back and wait, and I didn't know what I was waiting for. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

In addition to regret and grief, why is she so selfish.

That day, I wrote in my diary:

As soon as you turn around, you will meet again in the next life, so long and long...... How I wish it was a lie that made me stop calling strangers so frantically to find out. The result was despair again and again. Life is destined to be brilliant and colorful, but unfortunately it is only a moment of beauty. You chose to end, too hastily! Too silly! You're so stupid! I am a materialist, but at this moment I wish that an idealist god would help me, help me find you, and tell you that even if the world forsakes you, I will not abandon you. Unfortunately, it was too late, too late. It's all jokes, jokes! Ignorance! Stupidity! Ignorant! The despair that I have never felt before, today I finally see it.

I was like a mad dog that had gone mad and couldn't let go of it.

Aunt Bai Xin's phone call came again.

I watched my phone ring for a long, long time, not knowing whether to answer it or not. To be honest, I was a little panicked, they came to me to understand the situation, nothing more than to prove whether Bai Xin's death was related to me, given that at present, there is no evidence to prove that Bai Xin's death is related to me, I am afraid, in the end, it doesn't matter if it is or not, because you are close to her, so it is you.

Now the preconceived thinking is so terrifying that the suicide of young people is nothing more than a love word, catch the culprit, let us vent our personal anger, and then repent and apologize for compensation, all in one go.

For the sake of a dead word in the world, as for so many reasons? Walking quietly is precisely the most regrettable way. Let the living continue to repent, and let the deceased die with hatred.

"Do you have any insurance or other safeguards? I am a teacher at the school, and the school came forward to suppress this matter and asked us to sign the closing report, which was Bai Xin's suicide and had nothing to do with others. If I don't sign, my position will also be threatened. The school has given an ultimatum. ”

"Didn't the school say how to deal with it?"

"Now that people are dead, who knows if they have taken leave. The school counselor insisted that there was no leave note, and we did not find the leave note in her belongings, so if I am now compliant, a pension of 30,000 yuan, I am forced to resign, and there is no pension at all. ”

I don't know how to say it, as a student who is not deeply involved in the world, I can only silently endure this move, this is the reality.

I don't understand why a fresh life has fallen so unrespected, like out-of-season commodities, unfinished real estate, eager to sell in tears. As a result, any bit of conscience hidden in our hearts will be annihilated.

As a student, I am most proud of my alma mater, which will protect myself when I am in danger.

But at this moment, looking at the name of the school and the school motto written in the glittering golden flowers. There are a million reasons why I refuse to go into this cage.

Later, I gradually figured out that that year, according to incomplete statistics, there were 6 lives that fell in the school, including students and employees. If we do everything humanely, then the school will also be at risk of being investigated.

As for why Bai Xin committed suicide, or rather, involuntary suicide, no one knows. Only she knows.

I thought carefully about it in the past few days, and maybe the last babble was to give me a hint that she was going to finish everything she said to me at once. So that I don't have any regrets. But I absentmindedly thought she was just a chattering mother.

As a result, this farewell is an eternal farewell.

I don't care what the final extent of the situation will be. It could be that her aunt resigned, or maybe they received a pension.

But Bai Xin's name has never disappeared from my address book. So much so that three years, five years, ten years.

As long as the number is there, she's there.

Later, I went to school, got out of school, ate and slept every day like a normal person. It's just that I always feel empty in my heart. Before leaving, she lied that she had a boyfriend, the purpose was to make me die, distract me, and make me feel less sad when I learned the news of her departure.

I also hated myself, why did I hold my proud self-esteem, no longer inquire further, try to clarify my intentions, and then, the ending would not be so tragic.

Sometimes, the order in which we appear determines whether we are passers-by or the male protagonist.

In the face of an irreversible ending, there are too many impossibilities and ifs, let us regret it for life.