Chapter 32: Narcissism
An Yuyan in the dark smiled a little sadly: "Your short life is just the opposite of me, I don't want you to go from one extreme to another, from you in the previous life to me in the previous life, I don't want you to learn my character and my life, I just hope that after you learn psychology, you can protect yourself, protect the people who love you and the people you love." Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoI hope you will be a pure, dignified, gentle and quiet woman who has insight into the world and is skilled in human feelings. ”
Chu Xue listened to An Yuyan's last words and confessions, and these last words and confessions were all for her own good, thinking of her own resentment and indifference to An Yuyan in the past few days, tears couldn't stop flowing.
An Yuyan's voice was much more tender than before at this time: "Why are you crying?" Really! ”
Chu Xue felt even more sorry for An Yuyan, and said sadly: "Yuyan, I can't stand you, I shouldn't have categorically rejected you when you proposed to see Xudong's family!" ”
After An Yuyan let out an almost silent light laugh, she stopped squeaking.
Chu Xue continued to cry: "You shouldn't ignore it when you ask to see Xu Dong's Fa Xiaoqian," "You shouldn't have turned a deaf ear when you said to see my friend Li Wenke," "You shouldn't have ignored it when you said you wanted to see my parents, and even when you asked me if I remember the license plate number and owner of the car that killed me, I actually said with a wolf's heart: 'You have the means, why don't you investigate it yourself!'" ’”
An Yuyan remained silent.
Chu Xue continued to reflect on herself: "I know that you want to see them to understand the problem between me and Xu Dong, but, as you said, I have become extremely sensitive in this life, and I always wonder, why are you so good to me? Why do you want to help me without hesitation? ”
The corners of Chu Xue's mouth wiped a trace of self-deprecation in the darkness: "I know, I live the belly of a gentleman with the heart of a villain, but I can't help but think that a shrewd person like you would never do such a thing, you must have an ulterior motive behind it," "You know, I'm afraid of being calculated, and I don't want to be calculated in this life!" "And ......"
Chu Xue's eyes looked at the lights of the thousands of homes in Liluan City at the foot of the 'Caesar Building', and gradually moved to the south, looking at the 'Jiangnan Water Pavilion' villa area where Ji Bingyi lived on the south bank of the Luan River*, and then turned his gaze back to the north, falling on the north bank of the Liluan River*, which was once his own warm nest of the 'Lechuan Community', at this moment Chu Xue's eyes were full of resentment and resentment, and said word by word: "I swear that I will never let him (her) go!" ”
An Yuyan's heart jumped: "Ji Bingyi or Xudong?" ”
"Hmph, a slap doesn't make a sound, I won't let go of either of them!"
An Yuyan couldn't hold back the speechlessness in her heart: "You only have anger, resentment and revenge in your heart now, and anger, resentment and revenge will make you lose the calmness and wisdom you should have!" You forgot what I just said, don't go from one extreme to the other, see clearly before you act! ”
Chu Xue was extremely sensitive, and her heart was shocked, and her eyes were full of doubt when she shrugged her eyebrows: "You are defending Xudong!! ”
An Yuyan smiled helplessly: "I said before that every woman is narcissistic, and I am no exception. ”
After a few days of hard study and practice, Chu Xue already has a good understanding of psychology, and when she heard An Yuyan's words, she couldn't help but refute: "In fact, it's not just women, everyone in this world is narcissistic, including men and children." ”
An Yuyan: "Oh? "Yes.
Chu Xue smiled confidently: "Are you testing me?" "People are narcissistic from birth, babies can't perceive the existence of the objective world, they only know that they exist, they are hungry, cry loudly, there is food, and 2-7 year old children tend to think that all things are spiritual, he will talk and play with a rag doll or any inanimate thing to make friends, this thing of the child also thinks that the world revolves around him, he is the center of the world, these are the manifestations of children's narcissism, Teacher An, am I right?"
An Yuyan: "Hmm. "Narcissism is a widespread phenomenon in human nature, people need to love themselves, need narcissism, but narcissism is like the salt we put when we eat, less will be tasteless, more will be difficult to swallow, so people who meet the psychological standards of narcissism are what we really call narcissistic people." ”
"Yes!" Chu Xue almost recited what she saw in the book word for word: "According to the psychoanalytic explanation, narcissism originates from a repressed defensive psychology that stems from an inferiority complex. ”
Speaking of this, Chu Xue said in an extremely affirmative tone: "And you, never inferior!" "You're not narcissistic, you're confident, of course sometimes you have a little bit of conceit!"
An Yuyan is "Oh! , but the voice was full of ridicule: "What about you?" Do you think you were narcissistic in your last life? Are you narcissistic at the moment in this life? ”
Chu Xue was stunned, slowly walked to the door, turned on the light, sat on a chair, took a piece of note paper from the desk, a pen, and wrote it word by word, Chu Xue thought about it while writing and read it aloud: "First, I have a strong reaction to criticism, or extreme anger or extreme shame or inferiority, this article, I had in the previous life; Second, I hope that others will always pay attention to themselves, care about themselves, praise themselves, and often find ways to seek praise from others, well~ this one, I didn't have it in my previous life; Third, I think that my own problem is very special, and only special people can understand it, and I seem to have this one, but I don't seem to have it; Fourth, although I understand the feelings of others, I am indifferent...... This one...... Sort of! In my previous life, I liked to live my life behind closed doors; Fifth, I can't understand the feelings of others, and I can't look at problems from the perspective of others, which is definitely there. Sixth, interpersonal relationships are very unstable......"
An Yuyan smiled lightly: "Okay, don't list them one by one, you were narcissistic in the previous life, don't you deny it!" ”
Hatsuyuki nodded: "Yes, I admit it!" ”
An Yuyan said unhurriedly: "What about this life? What about you now? What about you at the moment? ”
Chu Xue slowly lowered her head, put her hands on her forehead, and whispered, "I don't know." ”
An Yuyan's voice was not impatient: "Narcissism sometimes manifests itself in an unreasonable, even incomprehensible and unacceptable way. For example, narcissists often care too much about their health, always suspect that they have a certain disease that cannot be detected by any instrument, even if they think this suspicion is ridiculous, they cannot get rid of doubts, and they are in constant fear all day long."
"Another example, since you know that you live the belly of a gentleman with the heart of a villain, but you still suspect that I have bad motives, and it is also a kind of narcissism to rely on your own wishful thinking and extreme suspicion without any basis."
Chu Xue looked up and was puzzled: "But you also said that anyone has a motive for doing everything, so what is your motive for doing this?" ”
An Yuyan's voice was a little sad out of thin air: "For myself!" ”
"For yourself?"
"Yes, for my own sake, because I'm also narcissistic, and my narcissism is that I love my body too much!"
Chu Xue was stunned, and couldn't help but look at the beautiful and seductive body that was still An Yuyan and would be her after 2:45:32 p.m. tomorrow.