Chapter 186: The Pain of Memory
"Niangniang, Niangniang, the informant from the Second Prince's Mansion just sent the news. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info" Qingyin ran in with a letterhead and said.
Tang Jinxuan was drinking porridge, when she heard the voice, she picked up a handkerchief and wiped the corners of her mouth, raised her head and looked at Qingyin and said, "Take it and I'll take a look." ”
Qingyin handed the letter to Tang Jinxuan, and then saw Ning Xue on the side staring at her, and immediately glared back, and said, "Sister Ning Xue, why are you glaring at me, what did I do wrong?" ”
"Ah Xuan has been having a bad appetite these days because of the affairs of your Royal Highness, and today I finally drank some porridge, and you came in and shouted, isn't it wrong?" Before Ning Xue could speak, Yu Yeluo, who was wearing a plain dress, unbuttoned her cloak, walked in slowly, and took the conversation and spoke.
Hearing Yu Yeluo's words, Qingyin glanced at the half bowl of porridge that Tang Jinxuan put on the table, stuck out her tongue, lowered her head and said in a muffled voice, "I did it wrong." ”
Tang Jinxuan didn't hear the three of them speak at all, looking at the letterhead in her hand, she was stunned for a while, looking at the contents of the letter motionlessly, her face was a little pale.
"Xuan, what's wrong with you? Why is your face so bad, has you not rested well in the past few days? Seeing Tang Jinxuan's appearance, Yu Yeluo hurriedly grabbed her pulse to check her pulse.
"I'm fine." Tang Jinxuan withdrew her hand from Yu Yeluo's hand, shook her head indifferently, stood up and walked towards the house.
Seeing this, Qingyin hurriedly shouted: "Niangniang, you haven't finished drinking your porridge yet, you can drink a little more." ”
"No need, I can't eat it, you can serve it." Tang Jinxuan said without looking back.
Yu Yeluo watched Tang Jinxuan pull the curtain up after entering, and felt strange in her heart, so she immediately picked up half a bowl of porridge on the table, waved her hand and said, "You all go out, I'll go see what's going on." ”
"Qingyin, what did you write on that letter to Niangniang?" Ning Xue asked in a somewhat indifferent tone.
Qingyin pursed her lips and said, "Sister Ning Xue, what are you talking about, it's a letter to Niangniang, how can I open it." ”
"I was just thinking about what was written in it, and after reading it, Niangniang's face changed, and she didn't mean anything else." Ning Xue explained.
"I know, but I really don't know what is written in it, but Miss Yu is here, there shouldn't be any problem, I'll go and boil some chicken soup for Niangniang and send it over, Niangniang has lost weight these days." After Qingyin finished speaking, he turned around and left.
Ning Xue looked at Qingyin's lively back, shook her head and smiled, then looked at the sky and sighed, since something happened to His Royal Highness the Prince, although Niangniang didn't say anything, she lost a lot of weight and couldn't eat, and they were very distressed when they saw it in their eyes.
"Ah Xuan, I just saw that you didn't eat much, you can eat a little more, and if you go on like this, before Nangong Fusu comes back, you will come first." Yu Yeluo looked at Tang Jinxuan and said.
Tang Jinxuan put the letter away, looked at Yu Yeluo and smiled and said, "Don't worry, I'm not so fragile yet, I really can't eat it." ”
Yu Yeluo looked at Tang Jinxuan and asked, "Ah Xuan, you tell me the truth, what was written in this letter just now, I see that your face has changed, is it about Nangong Fusu, he .....?" He's dead
"No, it has nothing to do with Nangong Fusu, I just thought about the past." Tang Jinxuan knew what Yu Yeluo was going to say, so she shook her head with a smile and said.
"Can you tell me about it?" Yu Yeluo asked.
Tang Jinxuan handed the letter to Yu Yeluo and said with a smile: "Actually, it's nothing, it's just that Qin Yuyan is pregnant." ”
"Qin Yuyan is pregnant?" After hearing this, Yu Yeluo hurriedly unfolded the letter, and then breathed a sigh of relief.
"Ah Xuan, do you think of the little prince born to the queen?" Yu Yeluo put down the letter, looked at Tang Jinxuan with her eyes for a moment, and asked.
Tang Jinxuan looked at Yu Yeluo, and did not hide her, nodded and said: "Qin Yuyan is pregnant with a child, it is the poison that I designed Nangong Cheng, this child was killed by me before it was born, and Suiyun was also killed by me back then, he is still such a small child." ”
"It's because of my negligence, I finally lost my breath, and at that time Sister Queen's expression....I really can't forget, Luo, I don't want to, I'm really not, I ..... I'm sorry Sister Queen, it's all my fault....."
"Ah Xuan, it's not your fault, it's not your fault, it's Chu Li's bastard, he framed you." Yu Yeluo watched Tang Jinxuan keep leaving tears, and hurriedly patted her shoulder and said.
"It's my fault, it's all my fault, if I hadn't fallen in love with Chu Li at that time and hadn't believed in him so much, I wouldn't have killed Suiyun, and our Murong Mansion would have been fine."
"When I was with Chu Li, my brother persuaded me, I was bent on going my own way, I didn't listen to him, I killed all the people closest to me, I was a heinous sinner, I said I wanted to find Chu Li for revenge, in fact, so many people died, it was because of me, I was the most damned person, I was the ......"
Tang Jinxuan said, tears welling down, she had always resented Chu Li before, resented the national teacher Chan Yu, and thought that they were the culprits, but today when she saw Qin Yuyan's unborn child, she realized that she had always been the most vicious person, the child who had not yet been born, and because of her selfishness, she died without even having time to look at this world.
"Ah Xuan, calm down, I know you're very uncomfortable, but you have to think about it, if it weren't for Chu Li's appearance, would you be like this?" Yu Yeluo tried to wake Tang Jinxuan up.
Tang Jinxuan shook her head violently, and said with tears in her eyes: "Ah Luo, I hate it, I hate my current self, it's just cold-blooded, inhumane, Chu Li used me for power back then, killed so many innocent people, and now I also killed so many unrelated people in order to take revenge, and also used Nangong Fusu's feelings for me, you say, what is the difference between me now and Chu Li back then." ”
"Ah Xuan, it's not like this....." Yu Yeluo shook her head, wanting to say something but not knowing how to express it.
Looking at Yu Yeluo's appearance, Tang Jinxuan sneered and said: "Look, you also think that I am no different from Chu Li, in order to take revenge, I have become unrecognizable now, I don't know my current self at all, such a hateful face, when did I start to become the most hated by myself." ”
"Ah Xuan, I know you have endured a lot of pressure for revenge, if you don't want to, then let's give up, okay?" Yu Yeluo asked.
After listening to Yu Yeluo's words, Tang Jinxuan raised her eyes and murmured, "Give up, do you want to give up.....