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My best friend was getting married, and she told me that she was going to get married. It's not so much calm as numbing coldness. There was not a hint of overt joy that I perceived. I understand and know that the bride is married, but the groom is not him

I cautiously speculated on my best friend's thoughts over the phone, but she never said a word.

I was like this, over the phone, in a corner of the city late at night, silently with her in silence.

What it's like to love someone to the point of being powerless

"You say, what it's like to love someone to the point of being powerless." The girlfriend's slightly mocking tone spit out this sentence inexplicably.

"If you don't try, how do you know you can't do anything?"

"I almost gave up this old life, but my arms still can't twist my thighs. The bitter heart of my father's wife overwhelmed me, my husband and my parents choose one of the two, do I still have to choose my husband? What about loving him, he can satisfy my parents, that's what he can do. ”

"But he's just graduated from college and has nothing, so you shouldn't compare him to someone who's worked for years seven or eight years older than you."

"Who in this society has ever pitied you as a fledgling? is called a rookie in the workplace, and is called a child in the love field. That's how everybody comes here. ”

"Rookies in the workplace will also have a day to spread their wings and fly high, can't you work harder for love and so on?"

"It's a big bet, and since I graduated from college, I won't believe that happiness is waiting for it. I still love him, but I can't do anything about it. ”

Obviously, the almost crazy rhetoric of the best friend is already dead, which is probably the best state at the moment when you love someone to the point of being powerless.

I thought it was still early, we were still young. The drama of being forced to break up and forcing a blind date will not be staged. But if you attend a few weddings of your peers in succession, you will find that there are very few couples who have lovers who eventually become dependents. I don't know when it began, "our" life has gradually become the life of "all of us", the combination of two people, often involves countless seven aunts and eight aunts, one person drags a little, and your life is completely puppeted.

We try to regain control of our lives, only to find that there is no use. The parents of the house, the parents of the car, the parents of the bride price, you have nothing but your lover.

Without capital, what qualifications do you have to work hard to love someone to the death. It's often about watching love do nothing.

Many people think that as long as I love you and you love me, two people can raise their eyebrows and get along with each other. I earn the bread myself, you just have to give me love.

The foundation of such an assumption is still based on bread. Aren't those couples who broke up as soon as they graduated forced to forget each other because they didn't have the blessing of bread?

After all, the sense of powerlessness in our hearts stems from the infinite thirst for scarce things.

Before graduation, the people around me have the same standard of living, and after graduation, there are many people who are beautiful, talented and rich, in addition to being ashamed of themselves, I think, only secretly resentful in the corner.

In your early twenties, it is the most embarrassing age, there are too many things that you can't do, and it is much simpler to choose to give up a person in front of love than to give up a person in front of family affection.

At first, we all thought that the world was black and white, but the reality told us that there were many gray areas, and there was still nothing we could do. When a loved one is seriously ill and the deceased has passed away, there is still nothing we can do.

I remember that someone on Zhihu described a series of physical and chemical reactions and physiological conditions of the patient before death. In the end, it was concluded that the critically ill patient had pain, but he could not express it. Instead of being full of catheters and seeking a trace of psychological comfort for the living, it is better to do nothing and let the critically ill walk decently. Commonly known as euthanasia. However, in our country, euthanasia is illegal and even unethical. He will be criticized and poked in the back. Behind the repeated abuse and gossip, our powerlessness is only accused of unfilial piety.

Mourning is greater than heart death, this is the best interpretation of loving someone to the point of powerlessness.