First of all, I want to explain that this is an article that I don't know how long it will be and will develop there, because it depends on the mood and the arrangement of God, I don't know how many days I can last in this chaotic and complicated world, and whether I have time to interpret my life perfectly, so this will be a text that only has an origin, and no place to return, just like my life, from one beginning to another, it never ends, I am tired of living without death, so if one day I end myself, please don't be surprised, which is a fateful arrangement. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

And on that day, my article will also come to an end, at this time, don't blame me for being a 'eunuch', because eunuchs are not suitable for me, eunuchs have lost the following parts, and I have lost my whole life, please call this 'eunuch' disappearing, permanent disappearance in the tide of history.

In addition, please don't look at it with a documentary eye, treat it as a pastime, just like I just write casually, everyone just looks at it casually, don't be too serious, don't need to be exquisite, don't be pitiful, of course, you can't scrutinize and study - because some things can't be scrutinized, even Sage Kong said: sister-in-law, uncle help! Whether it is holding the hand of the drowning sister-in-law, or can you jump into the water and hold your waist and buttocks, do artificial respiration by the way, press your chest or something, who can say clearly? So it's still entertainment-oriented, just like looking at a meteor in the sky, forget it in a blink of an eye after the brilliance has passed, because my life is like a meteor, gently crossing, blooming a glimmer of light, and then disappearing into the long river of history.

Some people say that my life is despicable, and some people say that my life is great, but I personally think that my life is helpless, is ashamed, and the causes and consequences that have long been destined in the dark have been predestined in the past and present life, if I have a choice, I will never bow my head in fate, and even raise my middle finger to say to God: No!

But I can't choose, this is history, is the human race, is my most beloved race imposed on me responsibility, I have to shoulder, even if my shoulder is weak and can't help the light touch of the big hand, I still have to shoulder my own responsibility, "Three Kingdoms Red Cliff Soldiers" There is a woman with big eyes who said a sentence: "The rise and fall of the world, the woman is responsible," since the woman is responsible, I can't escape as a man, so I still gritted my teeth and persevered, not that I am strong, nor am I noble, It was the times that drove me to a dead end.

I want to integrate into this society, live an ordinary life, and have been working hard, like Xianglin's sister-in-law, spent all my savings, just to have an 'innocent' body, but the world is not perfect, she can't accommodate perfect things, and even more can't accommodate perfect people, and in the end I am still under the arrangement of fate, like a beautiful meteor across the sky, a bright brilliance blooming with life, disappearing into the dust.

Although my end is doomed, I will not hurt myself and feel sorry for myself, because I have been here and worked hard with my life, and the final outcome may still be the most ruthless knife in fate, but in the face of my conscience and the people in the world, I have no regrets.

Please allow me to use a clumsy pen to slowly depict a real me, expose the truth of history, and eulogize the goodness and beauty in the ordinary. Perhaps this essay will not be favored by the Nobel Prize for Literature, nor will it be nominated for the Contradictory Literature Award, but he is an epoch-making masterpiece that promotes righteousness, departs from low-grade tastes, and inspires people to make people infinitely evocative, just like Copernicus put forward the 'heliocentric theory' in the XX century, he is the truth but only posterity knows, and modern people will not understand my purity and greatness.

If that's the case, don't curse, don't be indignant, just think it's a fart I let out when I'm bored, and you're just passing by by accidentally, and a light breath drifts in the wind, flawed but not hurting!