Chapter Seventy-Six: The End He Should Have Known
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"You mean to say...... You've been lying to me all along? All our communications are actually based on lies? Xia Shuying's voice was a little hoarse, revealing a thick exhaustion. The jar in his hand slipped with the sudden weakness of his fingers, tumbled along the slope of the ridge, and finally fell, shattering at the bottom of the tower, and the fragments of the jar were splashed everywhere.
"You are not the Elder Moon Emissary, these powers are not given by the gods, and those killings are not my mission...... Even making amends for my marriage is a lie, right? Her voice was hoarse, and there was fragility in her words. Such fragility left Xiu speechless, and could only remain in painful silence.
"Why...... Why don't you answer me? Xia Shuying's words already had a little more crying, this was the first time he had seen her cry in all these years. She was not like her, her tears had dried since a long time ago. She was used to loneliness, to pain, and she was already numb to pain. Because of this, in that four-year pursuit, no matter how she was treated, she never shed tears, at most she only frowned.
And now, he saw her tears. The vision of her right eye was cloudy, and Xiu hadn't seen it for a long time since she had seen such a blur. And now, he is revisiting that vision again.
“…… I'm sorry. Xiu was silent for a long time, and finally found that he couldn't say anything other than these three words. And the three words of this exit made Xia Shuying's tears break the embankment again, and they were even more turbulent. For a long time, she silently lifted her sleeves, wiped away her tears, and then flew away from the top of the tower, but she said nothing.
It's just that, for a long time after that, she went back to the way she was before she didn't meet him. Taciturn, cold as ice. She would still kill those aliens who disturbed the order, and she would still sit on the top of the tower, looking at the top of the green building where she had sit. However, she no longer spoke to him at all times, nor did she call him a messenger. Everything had changed, as if there had never been a presence for him in her world.
And Xiu, who was staying in her right eye, was also silent, not daring to speak or speak. Even though he still wanted to save her, even though he still hoped to make amends to her. However, he no longer has a position to lead the marriage for her. How could he open his mouth to match her? The person she loves is him, and if he really does that, not only will he not be able to save her, but she will also be hurt more and more.
Faced with such a situation, there is nothing to be done. She was silent, in the face of this silence, Xiu was powerless to change, so she could only be silent together, entangled together, and tormented together. But compared to Xia Shuying, who knew nothing about his fate, the torment of Xiu, who knew everything, was much stronger. He wanted to open his mouth countless times and tell her the truth, but he was stopped countless times. He could only remain silent, unspeakably silent.
This unspeakable silence continued until the final day came.
That day, Xiu sat weakly in her eyes, and her body was wrapped with the breath of powerlessness. He had been counting down the time, and in this last month, he lived like a year.
He could feel that the malice from fate was getting stronger. Little by little, it eroded her life, and at the same time let the chill fill his heart little by little. He knew he could no longer change anything. She was dying, and he was doomed to be powerless. He had thought of forcibly taking possession of her body and then changing her fate in some drastic way. But whenever he wanted to do it, he could feel a resistance from his soul.
After hesitating again and again, struggling round after round, thinking over and over again, he suddenly found that he had no way out. He stared into her eyes, full of bitterness. He wanted to save her, and this time it wasn't just about that person, but also about his own considerations. But he couldn't do anything. He could only sit in her eyes weakly, unwilling to wait for the end to come.
He knew he couldn't change the outcome. From the moment she asked that question, the outcome was already preordained. No...... Rather, from the very beginning, from the time he lodged in her body, said that he was a messenger of God, and told her that he would lead a marriage for her, this end was already predestined.
Because for a lonely person, the first person to walk into her heart, the first guy to be by her side all the time, the first existence that can make her feel warm, often fills her whole heart. Let there be no room for a second person in her world!
But there are things he can change. At the very least, he could change her mood before she left. He knew that if he spoke up to her, that he liked her the same, that he loved her too. Even if she understands that this is unrealistic, she will believe it at all costs. Because she believed in him so much that she never doubted it. Even if he had just revealed that everything was based on a lie, she would believe everything he said next.
He knows. If she does, she can feel happiness. Get the happiness you want. He also knew that even if this happiness was only for a short moment, it was enough for her. It's like the short-lived happiness between him and Shu Jing and the meaning to him.
But would he really be able to say that? Could he really tell her another lie in her last days? Was he really willing to say that to anyone other than her? That's 'I love you', it's an undesecrated vow, once it's said, it represents the unswerving loyalty and the old love affair of this life, can he really use it to frame a lie?
"Messenger...... My lord. A hesitant call sounded, interrupting Xiu's struggle and pulling him out of the endless chaos. He raised his eyes a little stunned, staring blankly at the outside world through Xia Shuying's eyes. It took a long time to realize that she was calling him.
"I'm here." He hesitated for a moment, then responded. And after he responded, she remained silent. Through her right eye, he could see that she was in a narrow alley, looking up at the starry sky overhead. Such a scene was extremely familiar, so familiar that Xiu couldn't help but clench his fists.
"I love you." She said, "I guess I fell in love with you a long time ago." She said this, and the corners of her mouth curled up with pleasure. Maybe it's when you're constantly giving me advice, maybe it's when you're playing with those rich businessmen, or maybe it's when I'm rejecting that person. She said that, and he just listened silently, not knowing how to react.
"I love you. Your Excellency, Messenger. She declared this, but unconsciously blurred her vision. A misty color covered her eyes, and a moist sensation condensed in the corners of her eyes. "Even though I can't see your face or know your name, I can only hear your voice from beginning to end...... I can't help but fall in love with you. The moist feeling gradually coalesced into a ball, turning into teardrops that slipped down her face from the corners of her eyes.
She raised her arm and tried to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes, but the tears were wiping more and more, and she couldn't wipe them clean. She simply didn't care, let the tears run wild on her cheeks, and continued to speak, "I know that all our communication is built on lies. Even my love for you grows on such soil. So I spent a lot of time asking myself. ”
"Ask myself if I will still love you as much as I used to, knowing all this." She leaned her back against the narrow wall of the alley, silently clenching the killing dagger in her hand. "I kept asking myself, telling myself that you were just lying to me. However, I found that even so, I still love you. No matter what kind of soil it sprouts from, love is always love and will not change. ”
"So, I want to tell you that I love you." She fell silent when she said this, and he was silent in her eyes, not responding to her words. After a long time, Xia Shuying's hand holding the handle of the dagger slowly loosened. She smiled weakly, even if she knew what the outcome would be, when she really faced it, she would still feel very painful.
"I don't want you to answer in the affirmative." "I just have a feeling that if I don't say these words, I won't have a chance again." She said this, but she didn't know that the Xiu who was living in her right eye was already in pain to the point of no return. Of course he knew why she felt the way she did, but until now, until it was all over, he couldn't tell her the truth.
"So...... You don't have to be embarrassed. She pursed her lips silently and said these words with difficulty.
As she said this, the rocks behind her and beneath her fluctuated at the same time, devouring her body little by little. At the beginning of this devouring, she and he sensed the changes that were taking place at the same time.
"What's going on?" Xia Shuying tried hard to break free from their devouring, and tried hard to use the power that was boarding, but she couldn't do anything. I could only watch in horror as my body was swallowed up by the fluctuating ground little by little.
"That's the truth." Xiu's voice suddenly became sharp, which made Xia Shuying's movements suddenly stiffen. "It's you...... Do it? She asked in a low voice, the sparkle in her eyes dimming.
"If you live and fly with that person, you can get rid of this fate." Xiu didn't answer her question, just silently stated, "Now, don't you regret it?" ”
"In other words, you didn't do it, you actually saved me all along, right?" Her eyes brightened again, but she ignored Xiu's question.
"So what? Now that I have done nothing, your fate has not changed. Xiu was silent for a moment, then pressed his forehead, trying to soothe his painfully tangled brow. I couldn't change anything......"
"So what," Xia Shuying smiled, obviously her body had been half swallowed by the ground and walls, but she could still laugh. "You've been here, I've loved. That's enough. ”
"Don't you regret it?"
"Why regret it?" She smiled brightly, "Even if I had known that this was the result, I would not have changed the choice I made at that time." Obviously dying, she relaxed, whispering to the ball of light that had begun to gradually float out of her body, "I said I didn't love, I just didn't love." ”
The undulating walls and stony ground devoured her body like crazy, and for a short time, only a small part of her body was exposed.
"Now, Lord Emissary, what if...... If I had appeared in your life before that person, would you have fallen in love with me? As she said the question, the ball of light that enveloped him drifted out of her body.
So she didn't get any answer from him. But she still got the answer. Just as she didn't love that person, he didn't love her.