Chapter 37: What He Can Do
The blade slashed down from her side, slicing a pitch-black crack through the world. The whole world collapsed from this crack www.biquge.info turned into fragments and withered in front of Li Ai, just like the black world that had been shattered in her dreams not long ago.
The world without its master was so fragile, like the eternity she had hoped for, easily shattered in front of her. She stretched out her hand as if in a dream, trying to hold on to the world, but was powerless to find that it was irretrievably broken.
"Nothing lasts forever. Li Ai. Zhang Zhou, who slowly withdrew the long knife of the night between his flesh and blood, spoke in a dumb voice, his head lowered, so that people could not see the look in his eyes, nor could they see the strange expression revealed in the shadow of his long bangs.
"Let's return to the reality of infinite change, and let everything that has passed past. If you want to miss it, you can miss it, but but, but ah...... Please stop pretending that you are in a world where he has not left, and please don't lock yourself in memories! Zhang Zhou raised his palm with some hesitation, wanting to touch Li Ai's weakly hanging fingers.
"Cry out, just like then. Although they are not in front of you...... But that doesn't mean you can't cry. He tried to grab her palm, but before he could touch her fingers, something else touched the back of his hand.
It was a tear. Tears shattered on the back of his hand. As he pleaded, her tears flowed uncontrollably. He pursed his lips slightly, reaching out to grab her palm. He knew that she was very fragile and needed a support. So, he reached out his hand and grabbed her palm.
However, before he could grasp her palm, she took several steps back, and raised her head to reveal to him a face that was still presumptuous with tears. She choked up and shook her head to deny Zhang Zhou's words. "No...... No, there must be something eternal, nah...... Zhang Zhou, you see, my home has not changed, so the memories it carries will never change......"
"Don't you understand?" Zhang Zhou bit his lower lip and spoke in a dumb voice. It's not enough, it's not enough...... It wasn't enough to tear her back, it wasn't enough to force her to take a step, it wasn't enough to get her stopped time flowing again! So...... So, Zhang Zhou, say more excessive words! He thought so, but found that he couldn't do it.
His fingertips trembled, and his lips turned white. He could hear his heart pounding. He could feel the panic coming from within. Don't want to lose ...... He didn't want to lose ...... This is his companion, the only companion, the only companion who will stand by his side after he is wounded, and treat his wounds; the only one who would open the door and accept his companion who had made him dinner; The only companion who will listen to his pain and reflect his existence! How can it be...... It's easy to lose!
Don't contradict her. He heard this voice echoing in his heart, tempting, guiding, trying to make him choose another path. There is another way to solve everything, to put an end to her pain, to save him from losing his companions, and even to bring him closer to her.
As long as he is willing to be her eternal unchanging. As long as he promised her to stay by her side forever. In this way, everything will develop in a good direction......
However, things don't always go the way you want them to. The world he lives in is so dangerous that he doesn't know when he will encounter powerful evil creatures or demons and monsters and die on the spot. If he had made such a promise to her, but in the end he would not have fulfilled it, and if he had disappeared into her life like her parents, she would have been hurt even more. This is not salvation, but another bondage. When he made a promise, they were already bound by such a promise! Her time does flow, but once you leave her life, her time stops again.
How can that be salvation? So, so ...... What he wants to do, the effect he wants to achieve, is to let her go alone in a world without any support. He wants her to come out of the stagnant time, so that she can bear the damage that the world has done to her alone.
Since the world is destined for her to be hurt...... Well, the first damage ...... Let him come.
He took a deep breath and suppressed his restless heart. He raised his eyes, and in the residual light of the gradually shattering world, he looked through his bangs at Li Ai, who was on the verge of collapse. She looks so fragile when she has lost her false shell. It is as fragile as this false world, ready to be reduced to pieces and disappear at any moment. She chirped sadly like a fledgling that had just come out of her shell, calling for her support. And now, he will tear her only support.
"It's changed." "No matter how you keep that room the way it is, it changes every day," he said...... Isn't it? In fact, he should have known that she was vulnerable. He should have noticed it when he noticed that the sofa in her living room had never been erected after Midorihime disappeared. But he had been immersed in her tenderness for him, and he did not care.
"The most obvious change is the back of the couch that hasn't been erected since Midorihime came......," he whispered, forcing her to weigh which of the two memories was more important in her mind. He could see her pupils constricted as he threw the question.
He knew she was measuring, and he knew she was in pain, so he should take advantage of the victory to pursue her. He clenched his left fist and let his nails sink deep into his palm. In this way, I suppressed the suffocating pain in my heart. "And, Li Ai, why...... Why do you keep ignoring your own changes? ”
He heard the sound of breaking. This sentence hit Li Ai's weakness directly, and all her struggles were invisible. She froze in place, all that remained in her eyes was trance. Zhang Zhou stepped forward slowly, stretched out his palm with a little trembling, grabbed her cold and slender palm, and pulled her step by step out of this gradually crumbling world, leaving this quaint alley that has not changed for thousands of years, and returning to the bustling world of wine and wine. It's just that by this time the night has become very deep, deep. There are very few pedestrians on the streets, and there are very few shops still open.
He took her by the hand and returned from a world of death and decay. She didn't shake off his hand, and such a gesture gave him a hint of hope if, if, if ...... If their relationship hasn't collapsed yet...... No, does that mean she's actually ...... Even if this is only a 1 in 10,000 chance...... He took a deep breath, then turned his head and whispered to her as usual.
"Now, Li Ai, let's continue shopping, it's your birthday today." As he said the word birthdate, he felt her hand tremble. Then she slowly but surely withdrew her hand from his.
She lifted her cuffs and pressed them against her face, gently wiping the tears from her face. Seeing her make such a move, Zhang Zhou's frozen hand in mid-air slowly fell. Yes, Ming Ming just did such a thing, Ming Ming just ripped her only weapon to pieces, where is he qualified to do such extravagant hopes?
He saw her look away and look at the unknown place. "It's past 0:00, right? So, it's not my birthday anymore. She unconsciously held the hand he had grabbed in his hand to her chest and whispered like this.
"Yes...... Is that so? Zhang Zhou's lips trembled a little, and he quietly looked away, not wanting her to see the pain in his eyes.
What else could he do for her now? From his standpoint, there is only one thing he can do and help her...... "if you don't have any other places you want to go......"
Send her home.
"Let me take you home."