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He was in her eyes so he could hear all her voices. Her pain, her hope, her forced smile. She is not like any host he has stayed with before, she is cheerful, she is lively, even if he does not take the initiative to communicate and persuade, she will always speak, as if speaking is an important meaning of her existence.

Xiu felt that on the first day of boarding her, he had heard far more words from the host than the dozen or so hosts he had not taken the initiative to communicate with in the past.

She's not like them. She is different from those hosts who are willing to be lonely and accustomed to solitude. She is not willing to be alone, she does not surrender to malice. She...... Fighting alone with the whole city, with the fear in the hearts of these people, she wants to get rid of loneliness!

However, the world has never been gentle with her!

He listened to all her efforts in her eyes. She smiled and wanted to help the old man carry things, but the old man didn't even want the things in his hand, so he put them down and ran; She cautiously tried to join the young men in the conversation, but they suddenly shut up and dispersed silently as she approached; She wanted to get close to the children and play with them, but as soon as she was about to approach them, they screamed and scattered. All her efforts have always been disappointed. She tried to show her tenderness to the world, but she never received any good response. In response to her tenderness, there was only deeper malice.

However, even though the world treated her so cruelly, even if the crowd treated her so cruelly, she still smiled over and over again, and tried to approach the crowd in a friendly way. But the result never changed, and every time, she was bruised by the alienation and disgust of the crowd.

Even so, even so, she never gave up her efforts, she still wanted to fit in, into this crowd full of prejudice, hatred and fear against her. She stubbornly tried, and it seemed that she would not give up until she achieved her goal.

Xiu didn't know why she was so stubborn, obviously giving up on integrating into them, and she could live happily alone...... Why do you have to blend in with them? Listening over and over again, they regarded her tenderness as a piece of decay, stepping into the dust; Listen to her over and over again to heal her wounds, and then send herself under the blade of indifference and alienation, to be slaughtered. Xiu, who had closed himself up, gradually felt a deep, heartfelt anger!

He could feel the pain that overflowed in her heart every time she was brutalized. He thought that after going through such a situation a few more times, she would learn to be obedient, slowly arm her heart, and give up the hope of blending in with the crowd.

He knew she would never fit in with that crowd. man's visceral rejection of the different; The visceral fear of what humans don't know is trying to clear her over and over again. As long as she is an outlier, as long as she is different from the crowd, as long as the crowd is unwilling to change, no matter how much she changes, no matter how hard she tries, it will be just a bamboo basket.

There is only one way to end this suffering, and that is to give up the effort, the hope, and the people who see her as different. She was born lonely and was born without the power to blend in with the crowd. Her efforts for longing are like fishing for the moon in the water and picking flowers in the mirror, and she will never get the results she wants.

In that case, just let go of the dreams that are impossible to achieve, and let go of the hopes that will hurt you...... As long as you don't dream anymore, as long as you don't work hard, you won't encounter the thorns that malice grows, and you won't be hurt again.

She didn't know that in the bottom of her heart, there was someone who was silently watching her and was suffering for her. She also didn't know what kind of pain it would cause to a man who had broken down and given up in the face of more than a dozen times of powerlessness.

She didn't know anything, and the only thing she could do after she had these thirteen powers was to approach the demon undead who only she could see, but ...... As their natural predator, her proximity only makes them panic. She was still lonely, and even if she got these thirteen powers, she couldn't get rid of this lonely fate. But she ...... still did not give up the effort, even if ...... She is not human, nor is she tolerated by aliens.

Even though she was bruised again and again, she was still optimistic and still actively showed her friendliness. However, no matter how optimistic and friendly she is, in the face of the indifference of the world, and in the face of the world's avoidance of snakes and scorpions, she will still be hurt. Even after all these years, they have been facing her with this attitude...... She'll still be lost, she'll still be in pain. She's just ...... after all It's just a sixteen-year-old girl.

She struggles to live with a smile in front of people, but in the dead of night, she will also sit in front of the window with her knees crossed, looking at the bright moon in the sky, or staring at the city that is gradually becoming dark, mourning alone.

She wept alone under the stars at night, venting all the hurt she had suffered during the day. Xiu didn't understand, it was so painful, and even she knew that there was little hope of success. But why is it that after crying in the middle of the night when no one knows, she can still greet other people's injuries with a smile the next day?

Obviously, he only boarded her for two days and two nights, but Xiu felt that he had been with her for several years. He guessed that maybe she had spent her previous years like this.

Xiu didn't understand, obviously it had been going on for so long, and it had been hurt countless times, why she still hadn't changed her original intention, why she still had expectations. knows that there is no luck, and knows that no matter how hard she tries, it is unlikely that she will get the results she wants. Why...... Why is it that it is already painful, why is it that it is already covered in bruises, and why do you still have to work hard?

Xiu doesn't understand. Xiu couldn't figure it out, Xiu didn't know what kind of mood she was working in, Xiu couldn't understand, what was so good about the people who had been hurting her? It's worth her so desperately approaching.

He doesn't understand, he doesn't understand. So, on the third night of boarding her, when she had vented all her pain with crying, closed the window, and was ready to go to bed, he finally spoke, "Now, why are you trying to get close to the crowd?" ”

Her feet paused suddenly, and her eyes were full of incredulity. She turned around and searched around, trying to find the person who spoke. Over the years, this voice was the first being to speak to her. She couldn't suppress the joy in her heart, and she was a little at a loss for a while, but she didn't listen to the question of Qingxiu.

"They're hurting you...... Obviously, this kind of injury has lasted for so many years, why do you still want to...... Why are you still working so hard? She stood silently, listening to his voice almost intoxicated. But after hearing what he said, the corners of her mouth gradually fell.

"You've been crying like this every night over the years, right? It's so painful, and I know that there is little hope...... Why, why are you still willing to work so hard? The voice screamed, questioning. Give up and stop trying so hard. As long as you give up this longing, as long as you give up this effort, there will be no more pain...... Give it up! He persuaded, and the pain in his voice made Shu Jing's emotions that had just calmed down fluctuate violently.

She lifted her arm and wiped away the tears that had fallen again with her sleeve. Then he walked slowly back to his bed, sat on the edge of the bed, and was silent for a long time, until he was sure that he could not wait for his words any longer, and then whispered a response.

"I don't know who you are, I don't know if you're human, undead or demon, and I don't know why you're in such pain. But I'm thankful that you're worried about me, and I'm grateful that you're talking to me. Thank you for giving me something back. She smiled lightly, so easily satisfied.

"Still, I won't listen to you, and I won't just give up on my efforts."

"Because, my mother told me, I had nothing left, the only thing left...... There's only hope. ”