Jiang Weisheng's heart would sting because of Liu Kaiyang's words, she didn't expect that she would become a strange existence in the eyes of others. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info She has tried to understand Liu Kaiyang many times, after all, that is her husband, and he is the object she wants to get along with for the rest of her life. However, they are not people of the same world, and there are differences in personality, three views, attitudes towards the world, and cultural level, and this difference has become a chasm over time, which can never be crossed.

She also once told herself that marriage and love are two different things, life and ideals are also two different things, and you can't have both.

Just like Jiang Weisheng sees the moon, he will think of "people have joys and sorrows, and the moon is cloudy and sunny"; "The people of today do not see the ancient times and the moon, but the present month once looked like the ancients."

And Liu Kaiyang will say: "Wife, is there a plane in the sky?" What do you see? Isn't it just the moonlight? Let's go, get on the bed! ”

Liu Kaiyang occasionally took her to meet her buddies, and the group was in the box, swallowing clouds and spitting fog, drinking beer, and shouting loudly to find a little sister to find a companion for a drink, Jiang Weisheng was really scared and couldn't stand this kind of smoky occasion, and always used the excuse to go home in advance.

……

Dog men and women!

Jiang Weisheng silently withdrew his gaze from the door, hooked the corners of his mouth coldly, put the book on the table, walked out of the house, and walked out of the crowded street.

At this time, Jiang Weisheng felt very confused and tired.

What is life? She always tries to be bland, tries to be desireless, but is this really what she willingly willing? She was trapped in a tiger in her heart, and she couldn't smell the roses.

When she used to watch "Dream of Red Mansions", she liked Lin Daiyu the most. But no matter how hard Lin Daiyu is, she still has a life of fine clothes and food.

When she grows up, she aspires to be a generous woman like Xue Baochai, reasonable, and recognized by the world.

Later, she saw everyone's evaluation of Qingwen, "The heart is higher than the sky, and life is thinner than paper." She has a deep understanding of this sentence, it is too difficult for a person to live an ideal life. is often high-hearted, but it can't withstand cheap life!

Like her Jiang Weisheng, she has longed for an elegant life since she was sensible, calm and calm. The nobility and leisure piled up with money, there is no worldly interference, there is no deceit, but no matter how high-minded she is, she just thinks about it. After all, she will inevitably marry Liu Kaiyang, be a housewife, buy vegetables, cook, serve her in-laws, and then grow old slowly......

I see someone asking, what is your dream?

Jiang Weisheng, who was a student, will definitely answer eight words without hesitation: Wind and snow, drunk and dreaming of death!

But now......

Jiang Weisheng, what is your dream now? Or is it still a wind and snow, drunk and dreaming of death? No!

As children, both sisters loved to draw and both wanted a box of watercolor pens. Grandpa bought a box for his cousin, but left her alone. She didn't understand, she was too stupid, and asked directly: "Why didn't I?" ”

The cousin scoffed, "Because your father doesn't earn as much money as my father, and your father doesn't send back as much money as my father sends back." ”

Jiang Weisheng seemed to understand whether he understood or not, and he was not convinced.

No matter how old I am, my parents came back, but they always quarreled. Her dad has a short temper and fights with his hands. Once they fought, Jiang Weisheng was very scared, she knew that she should step forward to stop it, but she couldn't move her feet, so she could only watch.

When she went to school, she was no longer unconvinced. Because the more I see, the more I feel small.

By puberty, her hormones began to secrete. She was ignorant, naïve and stupid. There is no reason for hormones when you are young, and you will always be unconsciously attracted to the opposite sex when you see them, thinking that it is love. She always said to her table mates, I like so-and-so, I like so-and-so. A few days later, she also told her classmates that I don't like him anymore, and what I like now is that so-and-so.

At that time, there were no secrets, and rumors flew all over the sky every few days.

Once, the handsome deputy squad leader had an English question that he couldn't do, and the kind female squad leader took the question and said to him: "Why don't you ask Jiang Weisheng?" She's the English representative, she's sure she knows. ”

"No!" After hearing this, the deputy squad leader immediately scolded coldly, with undisguised disgust on his face: "Why do you ask her that kind of person?" ”

That kind of person。。。。。。

What kind of people?

Jiang Weisheng later learned that she had a bad reputation at school. And the disgust and disgust on the face of the deputy squad leader at that time, she remembers it clearly today.

Jiang Weisheng became more and more silent, and she spent all her silent time on books, which she thought were unique. But silence is not something that teenagers of this age should have.

"Isn't that Xiuying's granddaughter? Why is she like this, last time I shouted Xiuying at the door of her house, and no one replied for a long time. Later, I asked Su-young, and Su-young said that her granddaughter was at home at the time. ”

"I've also encountered this situation, but it's been several times, and no one answered, it's really rude!"

Jiang Weisheng replied, she replied, but they didn't hear it.

Grandma blamed her: "Anisson, how many times have I told you, I want to talk!" Why don't you have a long memory! Last time your uncle came, you didn't say a word, you didn't pay attention, and your uncle had an opinion a long time ago. During the Chinese New Year, your aunt came here to eat, and you didn't say a word, and your aunt said behind her back what you mean, you are not educated at all! ”

Jiang Weisheng never knew that others were talking about her behind her back.

When he was in college, Jiang Weisheng left the city where he was born and lived the cleanest and most comfortable three years. Her roommates don't dislike her, and she has a lot in common with her roommates; Her life is also very simple, she goes to the library to read books in her spare time, which is very comfortable.

A year of internship in a small company. Jiang Weisheng really saw the difficulties of being alone, she couldn't be exquisite, she couldn't be flattering, and she couldn't be intrigued, her reaction was always half a beat slower than others, and the boss was not very satisfied with her. She became more silent than before, cautious, doing her job for fear that something would go wrong.

After the internship, her parents asked her to go back to her hometown to find a job, but it was still a small company, and she worked hard for two years, and only made a slightly better colleague as a friend. Later, she was so tired that she couldn't hold on, and there was a steward who would always stare at her with squinting eyes, and she didn't know where she got the courage to quit.

She started her journey to find a job, but it didn't always go well. Mom and Dad always say that you have to adapt to the job, not you pick a job, you can't find a job for the rest of your life, and she really didn't find it in the end.

Fortunately, Jiang Weisheng has a skill, and she has become an online writer. The job was hard and not as easy and expensive as expected.

Words are the most precious and cheapest thing in the world.

She didn't want to follow the routine to write the fire text, but no one read it when she wrote it according to her own wishes; She thought it could be published anyway. But what can be published is of high quality, much better than what she wrote.

She had no choice but to think about mixing up a name first, and then write according to her heart's wishes when she had the ability. She began to write about popular topics, and sure enough, the situation was much better, but she was unwilling to always follow the routine, so one-third of her essays were routine, and two-thirds of the routines were outside, which also created her half-popular situation.