Haven't I gotten used to losing? So why, why did I suffer so much when I lost her?

Originally...... The most painful thing is not to lose all the time, never to get it, because then we are already numb. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info and if you suddenly gain it after losing it all the time, and then let you lose it, all the accumulated numbness will collapse in an instant, revealing the pain that you have been ignoring all along. All the pain adds up to make you feel heartbreaking, bone marrow, and heartbreaking.

On the street at noon, in the wrong sight, a couple who were still awkward just now were looking at each other. Faced with his girlfriend's questioning, the boy silently lowered his head. He seemed to want to reach out and grab the palm of his girlfriend at his side. However, under her cold questioning gaze, his hand froze in place, and he did not dare to stretch forward even a little.

The grocery store owner, who stood not far away and watched the awkward quarrel between the young couple, munched on melon seeds while waiting for the next development......

The two guys, who had already been identified as a couple, stood at the entrance of the street unconsciously, allowing the air between them to be silent. For a long time, when Zhang Zhou couldn't bear the silence anymore, and looked up to say what Lu Ji wanted to do, Li Ai suddenly turned around and pulled Lu Ji away, this sudden action made Zhang Zhou, who had not reacted, stumble, and in the eyes of the grocery store owner who was watching the excitement, it was like he wanted to reach out and grab her palm, but in the end she turned around and avoided it.

"Young people now~" The grocery store owner sighed as he reached for the second handful of melon seeds and turned his gaze to other pedestrians.

"Let's go, no need to say anything." She dropped these words and dragged him all the way to a specific place.

"Huh?" Zhang Zhou made a puzzled sound. Needless to say? Could it be that she already knows? So...... What was she going to do?

Because of such doubts, Zhang Zhou was always absent-minded about the afternoon trip, and in the end he didn't even know where to go. It wasn't until the sun went down and she brought him to the apartment that he suddenly woke up.

He let go of the hand that was interlocked with Midorihime's ten fingers, took a step back, and stood some distance away from Li Ai. After being silent for a moment, he waved his hand at Li Ai, who was facing away from him, "That...... I ......"

"Come up." Li Ai's voice was cold, and his words were short, short enough to command! But such a tone made the corners of Zhang Zhou's mouth hook up a reassuring arc.

"For the sake of what Midorihime wants to do, I ...... again Allow you to stay in my home. Li Ai declared, and then took Lu Ji's hand back to the apartment, leaving Zhang Zhou alone to stand in place, the corners of his mouth lightly. Well, bothered. He whispered, and then a glass-colored glow radiated from his left eye.

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The light of the computer is on and off, and the lines on the screen are broken and fragmented. Midorihime silently watched the joys and sorrows in the picture with her big and pure eyes, while the two people lying beside Midorihime were silent.

Everything looks like last night. But the two people lying next to Midorihime clearly knew that something had become different. What had changed was between him and her, and between their hearts. Invariably, they suffered from insomnia.

They both knew that they were awake to each other, and they both knew what they were thinking about each other, but they didn't move, silently letting each other think.

'Ahh Just when the two of them were losing sleep because they were thinking about the same problem in tacit understanding, Green Ji, who had come to an end of the animation, suddenly stood up from the sofa in the middle, and looked at Zhang Zhou and Li Ai respectively, and saw that the two who noticed her movements opened their eyes, and she jumped up with joy.

She first jumped onto the sofa where Li Ai was, and forcefully turned her body over, and in her confused gaze, a satisfied smile appeared on Lu Ji's face, and then turned to Zhang Zhou and made a voice that she couldn't understand.

Although she couldn't understand what she was saying, she could fully interpret the meaning of the expression that appeared under the fluorescent light of the computer. She wanted them to watch it with her, to watch the last anime of the rest of her time.

She lifted the thin quilt and wrapped Midorihime's body around her, so that she lay down beside her, and then reached out and took her into her arms. "Midorihime......" she rested her head on her shoulder and whispered, "Let's see." ”

"Hmm." As if understanding what she meant, Midorihime let out a brief reply. She rubbed on her in contentment, then lay quietly beside her, and set her eyes on the animation that started again.

Leaning on Lu Ji's shoulder, Li Ai quietly listened to the heartbeat in her body that was different from ordinary people, which was the pulse of another life. In the fluorescence light and out, she saw Zhang Zhou's somewhat focused face on the opposite side.

She suddenly remembered the words he had said to her that morning. She knew what kindness he was trying to express. However, she deliberately misinterpreted his good intentions. She had been lonely for so long that she had become accustomed to being alone. She can deceive her heart with deduction or ulterior motives and take the initiative to face others. But when the active turned to passive, she just wanted to escape. So when the opportunity to get rid of loneliness appeared, the first thing she felt was not joy, but panic. That's why she's so cold to him, that's why she uses that way to distance herself. Such a self is really fragile. She bit her lower lip tightly, and her heart was mixed.

Another sunrise and moonset. Li Ai, who was sleeping heavily with Green Ji in his arms, finally woke up slowly. I don't know if it's because Lu Ji is sleeping next to her, Li Ai's sleep is surprisingly peaceful. Speaking of which, she forced herself to watch the twenty-four episodes of the anime with Midorihime last night, and it was already three o'clock in the morning when she went to bed. Fortunately, yesterday I renewed my teacher's leave for two days. Thinking like this, Li Ai carefully pulled his arm from Midorihime's neck, but for a moment forgot that Midorihime didn't need to sleep at all. At this time, she didn't realize that something was wrong with her.

Well, Midorihime is still safely in her arms, it seems that it is still early. Thinking like this, Li Ai inadvertently took out his mobile phone from under the pillow, but what was displayed on it was close to noon!

She was startled and sat up directly. Is it already this time? What about today's itinerary for Midorihime...... Wait, Midorihime? Midorihime!

When she thinks about Midorihime, she finally senses that something is wrong. She hurriedly reached out to push the motionless Midorihime, and pushed hard several times before she woke her up from her sleep. Midorihime rubbed her sleepy eyes, and weakly supported her body, wanting to smile at Li Ai as usual. But this smile has been dyed with far-fetched meaning!

Midorihime, who didn't need to sleep, actually fell asleep...... Could it be ...... How could it be...... There should be a few more hours! What to do? Li Ai panicked and was at a loss for a while. By the way, Zhang Zhou, he must know what else to do! Li Ai subconsciously set his eyes on another sofa, but did not see him on that sofa. For a moment, despair appeared in her eyes.

But the next moment, the kitchen door behind her suddenly made a loud noise. She followed the prestige and saw the pale-faced Zhang Zhou staggering towards her with a bowl of bright red blood! "Quick...... Let Midorihime drink it! He screamed, telling her to hurry and follow his instructions!

Scarlet blood was handed to Midorihime's mouth by Li Ai, pouring into her throat in her reluctant but feeble struggle. It wasn't until there was not a drop left in the bowl of blood that Li Ai removed it from Midorihime's mouth.

"Ahem...... Cough ......" As soon as she removed the bowl, Midorihime coughed violently. Li Ai hurriedly patted her on the back. She thought it was because of her haste to pour it. For a while, I forgot that Midorihime didn't need to breathe at all.

"Good...... Pain ......" Li Ai's ears sounded a somewhat crisp voice with a little complaint, which made her pupils shrink instantly. She turned her head in astonishment and stared at Zhang Zhou in a daze, wanting him to give her an explanation.

"I don't know how, but isn't it a good thing that you can understand her now?" Zhang Zhou, who was pale, sat down on the sofa and smiled bitterly at Li Ai, "However, even if she is allowed to drink my blood...... It won't last long. To be able to have a real conversation with her in the little time I have left...... Isn't it great? ”

Li Ai turned his head stiffly, facing Lu Ji's smiling eyes. In those eyes, there is still the same purity as before. But this kind of purity is coming to an end!

"How can it be...... How can this be. Also, there are still a lot of reservations that have not been completed, and there are still many landscapes that have not been taken to see you, how can you, how can you leave like this? "Obviously, we have only been together for less than three days, and we obviously don't understand each other's words, and they are not even the same race. Why...... Why did she unconsciously have such an important place in her heart?

"I ...... I want to go with you. But I ...... It seems that it can't be done anymore. Midorihime seemed to be a little confused about her state, but she quickly put this confusion behind her, and said with a joyful smile to Li Ai, who was biting her lower lip and holding back the tears that were about to fall. Li Ai couldn't hold back any longer, and threw herself into Lu Ji's arms and cried bitterly.

"Hmm, don't cry, don't cry." Midorihime took Li Ai in her arms and rubbed her hair like a child.

When Li Ai's crying subsided slightly, Lu Ji raised her head and looked at the weak Zhang Zhou. "I finally understood what it meant to get, and I finally knew what I wanted to get. And now, I'm getting what I want. I'm already satisfied. So...... Even if it withers now, I'm happy. As she spoke, she was clearly laughing, but she shed tears.

Zhang Zhou's lips trembled. It turned out that she would answer at that time that she didn't know, just because she didn't know what it meant to 'get'. Right now...... She understood, and she 'got', but ...... How can it be satisfied? But, time, damn time is gone!

Zhang Zhou gritted his teeth, and he suddenly found that even if he was lodged by thirteen powers, he was still so powerless in life and death, in the face of fate!

"Don't be miserable for me." Midorihime stretched out her hand to Zhang Zhou, which was so white that it was almost transparent, and motioned for him to go to her side. Zhang Zhou stood up strongly, walked in front of her, and handed his hand between her fingers. At the same time, Midori also pushed Li Ai in her arms.

"I know the meaning of the flower, but I have not heard of the name of the flower. I...... It's just going to disappear like the face code. So...... Don't be so sad. Little by little, her body crumbled, shattering into a sky of greenery. She tried to bring them closer with her crippled hands, but before she could do so, she completely dissipated into thin air, leaving only a tearful smile on her face and a hint of anticipation, "Don't quarrel anymore." ”

Li Ai stretched out his hand in vain, trying to catch the falling green flowers, but in the end it was just an empty silence.

Zhang Zhou stood beside her, looking at the hand that belonged to him and hers that had stalled in the last place of Lu Ji's pull, and then slowly moved it, holding Li Ai's palm that was also stalled there. This time, it was his own will. And she didn't break free.

Now, Midorihime, you actually know, right? If you leave, the relationship between me and her will be terminated, and we will each return to our own lonely world. That's why you say that and act like that at the end, right?

Because you, in a long time, have tasted enough loneliness!

Two lonely people leaning together does not exclude each other's loneliness. Can be at least ...... You can feel each other's presence!