Chapter Thirty-Nine: Fireworks That Exploded
Zhang Zhou leaned against the outer wall of the apartment, and the corner of her eyes never left her room. The pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info time was already past midnight, and it had been nearly half an hour since he sent her back to the apartment. But until now he hadn't waited for her to turn on the light in the room. Therefore, he could not be sure that she would return home safely.
However, he could not go in or appear in front of her. At this moment, he walked in and was a passover. He could only watch here, watching to see if she would turn on the lights in the room.
He knew that she had most likely fallen straight into the couch and fallen asleep, so it was likely that his watch was just useless. But he still wanted to stay here...... This throbbing has nothing to do with anything but himself.
He lifted his palms and clenched the hem of his chest. There was a tearing pain in that part of his chest. This pain, which had been suppressed for so long, finally broke out at this time. For a while, it made Zhang Zhou feel the pain that was enough to make him collapse! He bowed down in pain, and before he knew it, tears streaming down his face.
When he did that for her, he forgot that he was not much stronger than her. She's a loner, and she's a loner. She uses loneliness as a shield for herself...... Why didn't he see her as his own? She was his companion. From the moment she became his companion, he saw her as his own.
Don't want to lose ...... He didn't want to lose ...... This is his companion, the only companion, the only companion who will stand by his side after he is wounded, and treat his wounds; the only one who would open the door and accept his companion who had made him dinner; The only companion who will listen to his pain and reflect his existence! How can it be...... It's easy to lose!
Because I am afraid of losing, I clench my palms; Because I am afraid of parting, I practice in advance; Because the future is uncertain, I want you to be strong. It's all his choices, and he naturally understands what those choices will bring, and what it will make their relationship look like. He came to his senses and chose to do so. He knew all the consequences, all the pros and cons.
But no matter how much you understand, no matter how much you understand. At the time of loss, when the expected consequences do appear. What should be sad is still sad, and what should be painful is still painful. However, no matter how painful it is, it cannot be reversed. So, it can only be accepted. Irrespective of...... How painful.
Human beings are inherently an accumulation of feelings and desires. If you lose the touch of emotion, can you still be considered human? Zhang Zhou didn't want to think about this proposition, and he didn't intend to become such an existence. He leaned feebly against the wall, staring at the room in the middle of the apartment. Waiting...... Waiting for the lights in her room to come on.
As time passed, his body became cold as the winter night grew colder. The exhaled heat turned into a puff of billowing mist in midair, and the bitter cold wind blew, tearing it apart and throwing it into an unknown corner.
He leaned against the wall of his apartment, letting the cold wind blow through his down jacket, which had been torn a few gaps, taking away the heat of his body. The body gradually became cold and numb, and the pain in the heart gradually eased at night. So he wondered, if he let himself go cold like this, he wouldn't be in unbearable pain because of the loss. He waited silently, for the light to be lit.
Li Ai, who was huddled behind the door, finally lifted her pale face, which was buried in her knees, and stared blankly at the pale blue curtains that exuded an icy smell. The cold air penetrated deep and deep from the window, wrapping around her body, cold to the bone.
It's cold. She muttered unconsciously, reaching for the quilt on the couch not far away. She didn't want to leave the back of the door, because here, she was already a little hot by her own body temperature. In her heart, this place, will not be cold.
She grabbed the corner of the quilt on the couch resting near the hallway and tried to rip it off the couch. However, after crying for so long, she had already lost her strength, and she could drag the quilt with only one hand. So she reached out and grabbed Midorihime's wooden carving, and dragged the quilt with all her might. The quilt moved slowly, eventually falling off the couch.
However, although the quilt was dragged down by her, Midorihime's wood carving also rolled off her palm. I don't know where I went. When she felt the puppet fall from the palm of her hand, she felt her whole body become cold. The only warmth that remained in her palm suddenly broke away from her palm, which made her whole body freeze in place. It took a while to react. She pursed her lips and reached out in the darkness to search for the puppet, but could not reach its presence.
She searched for a while in a panic before the light existed. She hurriedly got up from the twisted quilt, and when she walked towards the place where her memory was switched, she tripped over the quilt tangled under her feet and stumbled and almost hit the corner.
She didn't care to stand still, and hurriedly reached out to touch the nearby light switch, and the moment the light came on, she turned her head and plunged back into the place where she had lost the Midorihime puppet. When she was on the verge of collapse and found Midorihime's puppet from the tangled quilt, she collapsed weakly on the cold floor.
She hugged the puppet tightly to her chest and whimpered in a low voice, "Midorihime, it's just you, by my side...... You're the only one left......"
"They're gone...... Zhang Zhou is also gone...... You're the only one left...... You're the only one left......" The wood-yellow puppet in her hand flickered slightly, and then slowly floated up, pulling her up, who was slumped on the floor, and slowly approached the window, and the next moment, the light blue curtain was opened, and a silent world outside the window came into her eyes.
The streets, shrouded in dim street lamps, are outlined by darkness with buildings of different shapes. Just as she was looking at the scene outside the window blankly, the green girl puppet in her hand suddenly lit up with a green fluorescence, and at the same time, there was also a green fluorescent light on the street illuminated by the dim street lamp. The green fluorescence was so abrupt that Li Ai's eyes were involuntarily attracted. But when she looked away, the green glow was gone.
The green glow disappeared completely from the dusk of the street, and no matter how much she searched, there was no trace of it, as if it had been her delusion from the beginning. Only the green fluorescence in her hand, which was still lit on the Midorihime puppet, swam silently, telling her that nothing was an illusion.
Is it ......? As she thought this, the Midorihime puppet in her hand suddenly lit up with a higher green fluorescence, which swept past her eyes before slowly falling back. As it fell back, she saw the man walking silently on the street under the dim lights.
As if sensing her gaze, the man stopped, but did not look back, just stood silently in place, raising his palm. The next moment, a golden light shot from his fingertips into the sky, shattering within her line of sight, and falling into a sky full of fire trees and silver flowers, which was beautiful. When her gaze moved back from the beautiful landscape to the place where the man was, there was no sign of him.
She stepped back and sat down on the couch that had once belonged to Midorihime, her eyes full of confusion.
When the lights in her room were turned on, Zhang Zhou, who had been watching, finally put his mind at ease. He turned around and walked slowly down the dim street. Unexpectedly, the Midorihime puppet he put in his pocket would suddenly emit fluorescence, and he hurriedly covered it up with an enchantment, but in the end, she knew about his existence.
As her eyes fell on him, he suddenly understood what Midorihime meant by letting her see him. Midorihime's puppet has been following them, so she's been through everything, so she knows, they're fighting right now. And she didn't want them to quarrel......
He raised his eyes and smiled bitterly. "Midorihime ......"
He took a deep breath and lifted his fingers, turned his back to her, and pointed to the sky. "Now, Li Ai, you haven't ...... yet Invite me to your birthday party, I haven't given you a birthday present yet, this birthday...... How can it end like this? ”