Chapter 153: Sad Christmas, Prelude
"Right?" The last two words he asked echoed in her ears, reflecting his bright smile, which looked so beautiful. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoHowever, in the face of such beauty, she felt pain.
How should she respond to his inquiry? How could she answer? Can she say no, deny his speculation? She could only admit it. Perhaps, this is the retribution she took for deceiving him again...... She can only endure it, and she can't do anything to resist.
In fact, she didn't want to be like glue with him, and she didn't want to talk to him. However, since she had already made such a move, since he had understood her move in this way, she could only swallow the bitter fruit silently. So, that half-day of happiness really became the swan song of her life......
She wanted to speak and stopped, some wanted to tell the truth, but in the end she suppressed her restless mood, remained silent, and decided to wait for Christmas. That day was the end of everything she had prescribed. At that time, she will list all the lies in front of him, the past, the present, the intentional, and the powerless, she will tear it apart with her own hands, so as to return a real self in front of him, let him see the real self, and then make a choice.
At that point, what will he choose? She didn't know......
Li Ai lowered his eyes and replied noncommittally, but other thoughts were turning in his mind. In the end, I chose to go with the flow. So be it, he'll know the truth in a few days anyway. A little more, no more, a little less, no less...... And, at that time, who knows if he will continue to stay by his side after knowing the truth?
A strong wind came from a distant place, blowing dust everywhere, and the dead leaves on the tops of the trees on both sides of the street also fell with the wind, scattering the yellow sorrow of the ground. Li Ai's long hair fluttered in the wind, fluttering with the dead leaves like butterflies, and at that moment she seemed to blend into this somewhat sad scene, and the scenery was intertwined for a while, ethereal and beautiful.
This made Zhang Zhou, who was staring at her face waiting for an answer, but inadvertently saw this scene, a little distracted for a while, until she turned her body and turned her back to him and left first, he came back to his senses, and hurriedly walked a few steps and followed her.
But these few steps made him miss the opportunity to see the complicated look on her face. If he hadn't lost his mind at that time, but had seen the complexity and desire on her face, with his temperament, he would have asked clearly. In that case, there may be other developments. It's a pity that he missed it after all.
By the time he stood beside her again, the look on her face had regained its composure, and there was no trace of anything unusual......
The wind howled, tearing at the wheezing trees on both sides of the street, and swept the world in a frenzy, as if it were about to sweep away everything rotten and dilapidated. In such a strong wind, Wang Yue's figure standing on the street looked so thin.
He stood quietly in the wind, letting the dead leaves blown off by the wind hit his face, making his cheeks ache again and again. He lowered his eyes, did not dodge or dodge, let the wind blow and the leaves blow, so bleak, the whole person seemed to be integrated into this withered landscape.
There was no trace of fluctuating emotions in the lowered eyes, only dead silence. Or rather, there is nothing but dead silence. He had been waiting, waiting for years to come, waiting for the only glimmer of hope in his heart that was almost impossible to realize, waiting for a possible momentary turnaround. However, two days passed, and nothing happened......
He looked up at the sky that was gradually stained gray and black, and then stained by falling dead leaves and rolling dust, and the dead silence in his eyes gradually degenerated into indifference. She shouldn't come back, right? Or maybe...... Or maybe it's dead? He seemed to have his heart like water, thinking and recalling like an outsider......
But when he remembered the picture of her bloody mouth and obviously seriously injured, but she raised her eyes and stared at him painfully and sadly, wanting to get an answer from him, his chest couldn't help but twitch in pain, which instantly broke his calm heart and made him return to the red dust.
"I'm sorry......" He shook his body, clutched his chest in pain, and crouched down against the wall, but his mouth was a low voice, something that had not been spoken to her that day...... In the past two days, he has been stubborn, resisted, and even abandoned himself, but no matter what he does, no matter how he tosses, there is one thing that cannot be denied.
He cared about her, this was something he had personally admitted and knew. Under this premise, whether he is stubborn or not, whether he is self-defeating or not, will calm down in the end. When all jealousy and stubbornness have subsided, when all unnecessary emotions have disappeared, the only thing left is reason in the face of such facts. And after all the emotions are calmed down, only regret and sorrow remain......
But it's too late...... He leaned against the wall, staring blankly at the sky, and uttered lifeless words......
"Zhang Zhou, what if...... How would you feel if one day you found out that you had been living a lie all along? What would you want to do? When the lights in the living room went out, Li Ai, who was wearing pajamas and pressed the switch against the wall, suddenly asked out loud.
"Huh?" Zhang Zhou was stunned for a moment, subconsciously turned his eyes, and looked in the direction where Li Ai was with eyes that had not yet adapted to the darkness. The light that belonged to the city from the window gradually made Zhang Zhou's eyes show a little reflection, allowing him to see clearly the thin figure standing by the wall with his back to him.
"Why do you ask this all of a sudden?" He was a little puzzled by how she suddenly asked such a question. Frowning slightly, sensing that something was wrong, he cautiously opened his mouth and asked the girl who was facing away from him in the dark, and her figure was very blurred.
"It's nothing, it's just a whim......" Li Ai, who didn't get an answer, shook his head, said a casual word, and then stopped talking, turned around and returned to the sofa that belonged to him. And her behavior made Zhang Zhou feel a little uneasy in his heart.
He scratched his head a little tangled, a little unclear whether Li Ai's last words were true or false, and hesitated to give an answer. However, before he could make a decision, Li Ai had already fallen asleep, and the only sound of her breathing that gradually became even in his ears was in his ears.
"......" He scratched his hair in distress, and glanced helplessly at Li Ai, who didn't know if he was asleep. After struggling for a while, he finally climbed onto the sofa lying horizontally, lifted the quilt and lay in. That's it for the time being, if Li Ai asks later, let's talk about it.
After the friction sound of lying in the quilt on the other side disappeared, Li Ai, who was lying on the sofa, trembled with his closed eyes, quietly opened, and quietly stared at the ceiling illuminated by the ghostly light above his head......
After that night, while being like a lover, but maintaining the previous mode of getting along with Li Ai and treating Li Ai gently, Zhang Zhou has been paying attention to Li Ai intentionally or unintentionally, ready to make a well-considered answer when she asks that question again.
However, Li Ai just stayed by his side silently and gently, except for asking some questions about the changes that had occurred in Zhang Zhou's body from time to time, and just silently enjoying the tenderness he gave her. There was no point in asking any more questions like that, as if that question that night was really just a whim.
Zhang Zhou, who was secretly entangled, finally put aside this somewhat strange question, which made him think about it carefully, and unconsciously gave birth to a little ominous premonition in his heart, and treated Li Ai wholeheartedly. Christmas is just around the corner, and the end of what Li Ai calls 'trials' is approaching......
The days are just plain and bland, without the slightest waves, only plain, full of happiness that makes people indulge in it. Li Ai was in Zhang Zhou's unreserved tenderness, thinking silently, trying to parse the message left by Moyin Bao'er. In the blink of an eye, it was the eve of Christmas.
On Christmas Eve, the night when Western Christian believers collectively sang hymns and sang praises of the birth of Christ, in China, it became a day to eat apples to seek peace and security.
Zhang Zhou, who is Li Ai's tentative lover, did not want to be exempt, bought a few catties of red apples from the store's mobile phone that took the opportunity to increase the price, followed Li Ai leisurely, returned to the apartment, and then went to the bathroom with the apples in his arms, ready to clean them one by one.
While he was going to the bathroom, Li Ai took out his mobile phone, called his uncle who had reconciled, asked each other about the current situation, and hung up in a hurry. She didn't want Zhang Zhou to see that she was calling his family on a holiday that wasn't too important, and she was afraid that it would remind him of his family and make him miserable.
She didn't know about the situation in his house, and she didn't bother to check it out. But not long ago, she had looked at his phone, and the address book was empty except for her and the homeroom teacher's phone number...... At this point, she understood something, and she wanted to pity him even more, and of course, she also wanted to make up for the deception she had made to him.
Thinking of this, Li Ai inevitably remembered what would happen tomorrow, and was inevitably in a trance for a while. She silently put down the phone in her hand and turned her head to look at the bathroom with the door hidden. His vague figure was reflected in the glass door, and his whistling sound could be heard through the crack in the door.
Listening, listening, looking and watching, Li Ai's nose suddenly became sore, and he almost burst into tears. I don't know if there will be a chance to see, hear, or experience such a scene again after tomorrow......