Like an imprint, it is an unforgettable pain in the heart, and in the dead of night, the dull pain comes out from the bottom of the heart, heavy and slow, and gradually spreads to every part of the blood flowing in the body. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 It was only then that I would admit that over the years, I had not been willing, and I had been resentful when I had not received a response.

Ah Wan is my best playmate, for as long as I can remember, I have been with him like a shadow, when it comes to friendship, if he is the second, no one dares to say that it is the first.

He has a lot of things on his mind, and his indifference has to do with his heart.

He is not good at expressing himself, or he is unwilling to express himself, anyway, since he was a child, he has always treated people coldly.

Every time I see Chaolai, he will choose to take a detour, I can't avoid it, and I will treat him coldly, he hates Chaolai, obviously, too direct, I am always worried that his cold words will hurt Chaolai's self-esteem, I will even be careful to mention Chaolai's goodness in front of him, talking about Chaolai's kindness and well-behaved......

All I do, all I say, is nothing more than not wanting my best brother to hate my favorite girl.

Later, I don't know when it began, I realized that he liked the court, why did he say that, because every time he mentioned the court, he would listen carefully, and when he heard me talk about the court, his eyes were full of seriousness, and such a serious appearance could only be seen in the school.

When I said anything to him in the future, he still had a stiff face, looking like he loved to answer, but occasionally he couldn't help but bend the corners of his mouth and deliberately hide it.

He no longer avoided Chaolai, and when he saw Chaolai, he would stop where he was, waiting for Chaolai to come forward and smile at her.

I hate my hindsight, my stupidity, he clearly likes the court too much, I am afraid that he is disgusted, I hate him for hiding so deeply, step by step, he goes to the inside, and I have become an outsider, a spectator of feelings.

I also hate the unfairness of fate, from childhood to adulthood, I was the first person to walk to Chaolai's side, I am the one who is always by Chaolai's side, I am the one who tries to make Chaolai happy, I am the one who accompanies Chaolai to see the peach blossoms in the barren place, I am the one who is worried about the cold in Chaolai, and I am the one who always prepares for Chaolai.

It was I who accompanied her to rejoice and grieve, laugh with her, and cry with her, but in the end, it was not me who was by her side.

Things gather by like, people by groups, he and Chaolai are not enthusiastic people, how good can my temperament be? I have never been so considerate to people, including myself, but I have never liked me, let alone loved me.

Even if I did everything I could for her, it still couldn't compare to a smile from him.

I am a very important friend in the court, her siblings, a relative-like existence, and the morning is the attachment of the first remembrance in the mortal world, and the pain that cannot be erased on my prosperous road.

In the five years of separation, I lived like a year, always wanted to see her, I stood in front of the barren Xiangfu gate countless times and stopped to watch, looking at the vermilion door, looking forward to her coming out of it, shallow smile, I miss her so much, there are often phantoms in front of me.

I saw her standing beside me and walking with me, I saw her smiling at me on horseback, I saw her push open my door, I saw her sitting on the stone steps in front of my house with her hands folded......

I saw it too many times, and at first I could tell myself that it was fake, she was not in Chang'an, she was not by my side, but the more I went on, the more I wanted to believe that it was her.

She would talk to me, saying that she had lost weight recently, and asked her why she was dressed so thinly, and I told her interesting stories about Chang'an, but her expression was always faint, like death, I reached out, and I couldn't touch anything, I asked the people around me where she was, and asked her if she was by my side, and they would push me away, saying that I was crazy.

I woke up in my sleep countless times, panicked, and sat in front of the sealed Prime Minister's Mansion countless times and cried bitterly.

If she doesn't come back, I'm going to go crazy.

I asked to leave, leave Chang'an, leave this place where I have lived for more than ten years and have her everywhere, I think that even if I want to die, I will wait for her to really come back.

He said let me not be impulsive and let me stay in Chang'an, I know, he is for my good, and I also know that his pain is no less than mine.

I just don't know, since he likes her so much, why should he suppress himself, bitter her, and bitter himself.

In just five years, it has been so long, it is so long that it is like a person who has gone through dozens of spring and autumn alone, I don't know how to eat, and I forget what I did a moment ago.

I'm very helpless, she hasn't come yet, but I'm old, looking at the person with a face full of vicissitudes in the bronze mirror, I laughed at myself and thought, even I don't know myself in the mirror, she saw me, how can I remember me?

The moment I received his letter, I was ecstatic, I couldn't wait to put on my wings and fly to her, I mercilessly dropped the whip on the horse's back, I just wanted to see her sooner, faster. I really can't wait, five years of lovesickness day and night, one step slower, it's all torture for me.

I finally saw it, but I couldn't believe that it was her who was sitting in a wheelchair in men's clothes, I was stunned, looking at her stupidly, she smiled at me, so that my tears came unexpectedly, what has she experienced in the past five years, she was originally alive and jumping in a wheelchair, why did she become like this.

Her suffering became a scar on my heart, and I was about to die of pain.

She has changed, the whole person is lazy, she is not close to us, she doesn't like to talk, she doesn't chant anything, she has changed a lot, and the strangeness makes me dare not approach easily.

He had also changed, walking on thin ice all day long, guarding her like a frightened bird, for fear that in the blink of an eye, she would leave his sight again.

They are all changing, only I am the same, and I am still stupidly following in their footsteps.

She said that she was going to get married, and I didn't want to remember that day, so I also set my big day on that day.

But as long as I have a 1 in 10,000 chance, I would rather the ancient Buddha green lantern than marry someone else, but fate is so ridiculous, I love her, I can't get it, so I even took away the qualification to silently guard her.

I will be someone else's husband, whether I want to or not, she will be someone else's husband, whether I am happy or not.

I forced a smile at his gloom, and felt the bitterness of losing her with him.

It's just that I didn't expect Liu Lan to die.

After Liu Lan died, she was even more silent, he took her to the General's Mansion, and treated her too well to be better, this sincerity that was late to the performance, I thought it was enough to move her, make her heartbeat, so that she could put down everything and start all over again, but no.

No matter how considerate he was, she was still indifferent.

Sometimes I would go to see her, and she would still talk to me and have a smile on her face, but I had known her for so many years, how could I not see the perfunctory in her smile, I thought that her alienation was only aimed at me, until I saw his brow that could not be relaxed, I realized that her alienation was for everyone.

She has two parts of sorrow, eight points of hatred, and occasionally, she will show a vague tiredness and anger. can feel her ruthlessness from her bones, incarnated as a murderous demon without blinking.

She has nothing but hatred for this world, which surprises me and makes me jealous.

Day after day, I felt that she was drifting further and further away from me, and he seemed to be getting farther and farther away from me.

The only thing that is the same is the attitude of the two of them towards me, the same deception, the same outside.

The two of them are inseparable, but they look inseparable, and before I can guess what happened to the two of them, she will marry the Huns and become a princess of peace.

Seeing the pain of watching the woman I like marry someone else is enough to experience it once, but I still have to experience it once, or more than once.

On the day of her wedding, she walked out of the palace wearing a red wedding dress, which was about to merge with the vermilion palace wall, so red that my blood boiled all over my body, and gradually cooled after boiling.

If only he were to marry me. I have nothing else to ask for in my life, I wish my parents a long life, and I hope that she can call me a husband.

My eyes followed her steps closely, one step at a time, and I didn't dare to miss it, after all, some people, some fate, once missed, it was a lifetime.

I saw that before getting into the carriage, her steps paused, and although it was far away, I felt that her eyes were looking at me...... It shouldn't be looking at us, me and him.

I grabbed the railing with both hands, and I wanted to smash the railing to pieces, and I wanted to, and I wanted to chase her like he went crazy.

I watched him mount his horse, and he wanted to keep her, and I watched his back go away, and a sad song spontaneously sounded in my heart. I can only envy, I can only dare him to be so crazy, if it were me, I can't be so wanton, I have a home, I have relatives, even if I don't think about myself, I have to leave a way for them to live.

I think his retention must have touched her, how magnificent the lonely horse of the slanting sun.

He and her, going around and around, grievances and grievances, are destined after all, and it is Yue Lao who has pulled the red line.

Later, we went to the Xiongnu together to fetch her.

I paced back and forth beside the carriage, anxious that they would not return, and that they would fly away without saying a word.

Until I watched them walk towards me, my hanging heart could finally be put down, she staggered after him, weak enough to be blown down by a gust of wind, I wanted to rush over, I wanted to take her into my arms, crushed in my bones, I did run, not for her, but for him.

The arrow came too suddenly, it was going to kill him, I didn't have time to think about it, so I flew to block it, just because it was the man she loved the most, and because his name was Uncle Tai, and he was my brother.

If I hadn't blocked that arrow, would the outcome have been different, it's just that it doesn't make any sense anymore.

If he dies and she has no hope, what is the difference between her and death?

Until the last moment, I thought about why she didn't have me in her love, but at least, at least occupied his tomb, even if she didn't belong to me, but her name would always be with me, and she would never change, even if the sea was rotten, she would accompany me for eternity.

This time, I didn't lose after all, I was so cautious, I still had it once, her, my dynasty.

Walking alone in the sea and the world, there is no way to go, the frost is full of face, I don't know how to live in the next life, is she willing?

Fortunately, her final result was not thousands of miles away, but fortunately, the person who has been with her for the rest of her life is him.

Since it's him, I'll forget it, forget him, and forget her.