Before I knew it, it was snowing outside, and I don't know how long the snow had fallen, and the road was covered with thick snow. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

I stopped the car and stretched out my hand, the snowflakes fell coldly in the palm of my hand, and several tall snowmen were piled up on the street, and I accidentally found a big Santa Claus hanging in front of the clothing store opposite.

My heart trembled suddenly, and I thought back to Xia Yuan a few days ago and said solemnly that I would go with her to build a snowman and go sledding.......

Looking to the side, Xia Yuan looked at the front expressionlessly, the atmosphere was a little embarrassing, and after a while, I blamed myself and said, "That..... I'm sorry I forgot that today is Christmas....."

This sentence seemed to touch a certain string in her heart, Xia Yuan turned her head and looked at me angrily, and said, "You actually remember, hehe, I thought you had forgotten everything a long time ago." ”

I didn't dare to look at her, I lowered my head, thought of her unusual performance today, and then shook my head.

"For special reasons today, shall we go tomorrow?"

Xia Yuan turned her head, a little more lost in her eyebrows, and muttered in a low voice: "It turns out that I have always taken myself too seriously, it's ridiculous." ”

For some reason, her words actually made me feel a little faint heartache.

But why do I feel heartache for her?

The snow is still falling. After getting out of the car, Xia Yuan ran out against the goose feather snow, and after hesitating, I also rushed out, she was not as fast as me after all, and stopped in front of her.

"Get out of the way." Xia Yuan said coldly.

Xia Yuan was a little trembling in a thin dress, I didn't speak, I just took off my coat and covered her.

I didn't make eye contact with her after all, I just said, "I'm sorry." ”

She suddenly shouted loudly: "You soulless man, you will live in the shadow of Jiang Yan for the rest of your life." ”

After saying that, Xia Yuan pushed me away and ran past me.

After hesitating, I grabbed her and said, "Don't do this, okay?" ”

"Let me go, liar." Xia Yuan shook me off fiercely and ran out towards the white world.

I stood still, watching her back in the distance.

........

This night, I sat by the pond and smoked cigarette after cigarette, and for a long time, I closed my eyes and lay in the snow, feeling the icy chill.

Today I was dishonest and entangled in emotions, the pain in my heart became more and more unbearable, I covered my head, and at this moment I thought of ending my life.

Maybe I would have been dead twenty-five years ago......

The night was bitterly cold, but I was thankful that there was no one next to me during this endless night.

Only when I am alone can I dare to vent my inner unhappiness.

The picture of Ozel Xiu's marriage proposal kept coming to my mind, and they would be very happy, really happy.......

The coldness gradually made me come out of the confusion, stood up and looked at the endless night, and said to myself: You are happier than me to be worthy of my cruelty to myself, so that I can withdraw willingly and embarrassed.

Silently wrote my love for you as a blessing, I wish you well, and the rest has nothing to do with me........

This night, I walked home with heavy steps like a puppet, and when I entered the courtyard gate, I habitually looked at Xia Yuan, and the lights were still on.

Thinking of today's missed appointment, she still accompanied me to finish the scene, and a sense of guilt came to my heart.

When he came to her house, he struggled for a long time and knocked on her door, only to find that it was hidden.

But I still stood at the door and said, "Xia Yuan, have you slept?" ”

No one paid any attention to me, I took a breath, pushed the door open and walked in.

The simple layout of the house is incompatible with the luxurious decoration outside.

There was a bowl of instant noodles soaked on the table, I walked over and touched it, it was already cold, and tentatively walked to her room, Xia Yuan was really in the room.

It's just that she fell asleep on the table, and my emotions became even more entangled.

With a burst of remorse in his heart, he walked over and patted her.

Feeling that someone was moving herself, Xia Yuan slowly raised her head.

The next moment, I was deeply touched by her red and swollen eyes and the remaining teardrops on her arms.

Xia Yuan's sentence came to mind again: It turns out that I have always taken myself too seriously, which is ridiculous.

My heart has been occupied by Jiang Yan, and I have never taken Xia Yuan's words to heart in my subconscious, this woman has taken care of me, accompanied me when I was lost, and guarded me by my side when I needed her the most, but I had to lose my trust in even a little thing.

I silently asked myself in my heart: Luo Bing, are you so bad?

Thoughts were spreading in my mind, and at this moment, I really wanted to ask her why she was so kind to someone like me who looked like a dog.

Thinking of all the darkness that Xia Yuan endured behind her, but she still had an indifferent expression every day, although I don't know how much pain she was suffering in her heart, but she really cried because of my broken promise today........

Looking at each other, Xia Yuan turned her head away and said coldly: "Whoever allowed you to enter my house, please let you out." ”

"Why are you so nice to me, why are you crying for me?" I mustered up the courage to look at her directly, catching her every look and every movement.

Her somewhat red and swollen eyes dodged me, and after a while, Xia Yuan stood up and pushed me away, trying to run out again.

This time I didn't hesitate at all, put aside the material boundary between me and her, and held her tightly.

"Say, why is it so good to me?"

Xia Yuan didn't look at me again, but said lightly: "I'll answer you these questions later."

"Why wait later, not now?"

She shook off my hand with all her strength, then turned her back to me and said lightly, "Don't ask, I'll tell you later." She stopped for a moment, and I seemed to see her shoulders shaking, but I didn't hear a low sob.

My heart hurts, every time it hurts my heart, it's Jiang Yan, but today I actually feel heartache for Xia Yuan.

The tearing pain in my heart made me unable to breathe smoothly, and today I would ask Xia Yuan this kind of question unusually.

After a while, I calmed the unspeakable pain in my heart and said, "Okay, I won't ask, but please forgive me, okay?" ”

Xia Yuan still didn't look back, and said, "I've forgiven you, it's too late, you go back, I'm tired." ”

"I ...... Okay, you go to sleep first..... Good night. "There are some things I want to ask at once, but looking at her stubborn back, I still haven't said it, some things may be better to understand by myself, after all, she is already scarred......

......

Back in the house, lying in bed, I was haunted by countless images this night, and I lost sleep.

Maybe one day in the future, I will inexplicably think of a certain person, whether I like it or not, but I will always be used to thinking of her, and then silently hope that everything is okay with her.....