Chapter 115: My heart is sad
The moment the door of the mansion closed, it was like a fish swimming freely in the water suddenly thrown into the desert, panicked, just like being trapped in a fire in the previous life and no one rescued him, Ning Chaolai was left with nothing but despair. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info
On the one hand, she still had hope, feeling that Ning Xiangsheng was soft-hearted, couldn't see her pitiful, and would let her stay, on the other hand, she knew too well that what she hoped for could not be realized, and Ning Xiangsheng would not let her stay by his side.
Knowing that there is no hope is the real despair.
Ning Chaolai sobbed, it wasn't that she was disobedient, she deliberately went against Ning Xiangsheng, she really couldn't just leave.
The cuckoo is dead, she can't do anything to get it back, he is afraid that Ning Xiangsheng will also leave her, so she wants to stay in the Prime Minister's Mansion and watch Ning Xiangsheng well.
If the emperor is embarrassed by Ning Xiangsheng, even if she can't save her, at least she can live and die with Ning Xiangsheng and will not be lonely.
In his previous life, he didn't have time to experience the vicissitudes of life, and he died.
What you have in this life is even more few.
has never been loved, because of a false friendship lost another precious friendship, there is only family affection, and the only thing she can protect is Ning Xiangsheng.
If she couldn't even protect Ning Xiangsheng, she would really have nothing.
The rain poured down from the eaves like a pillar. The first rain of the year was cold to the bone.
Xu Shaoqiao came all the way, the rain had already wet his shoes and socks, he squatted down, held an umbrella in one hand, and draped the big rain he brought on Ning Chaolai with the other.
"Come, get up." Xu Shaoqiao Road.
No matter how long she kneels, Ning Xiangsheng will not change her mind.
Ning Chaolai didn't move at all, no matter who tried to persuade her, she wouldn't get up.
Xu Shaoqiao bent his knees, knelt down in the rain, and wiped the rain from Ning Chaolai's face with his sleeve.
Ning Chaolai wanted to kneel, and he accompanied him.
The rain splashed on the umbrella, and the two people under the umbrella knelt side by side in front of the house, although their backs were lonely, they were also at ease.
Standing behind the wall at the corner of the alley, Tai Shuhuan reached out to wipe the rain on his face, and quietly watched the two people in the scene through the rain curtain.
Because he refused to let her name be humiliated, killed the cuckoo in order to save her, and asked Ning Xiangsheng to drive her out of the house, one by one, will Ning Chaolai forgive him?
For several hours, the rain gradually decreased, the sky hung low, and the door of the Prime Minister's Mansion was never opened.
The rain on the umbrella fell to the ground one by one, splashing the water.
"It's getting dark, it's fast." Ning Chaolai said with a smile.
She had nothing to do but look away.
"The slowest is time, and the fastest is also time."
Xu Shaoqiao got up with a smile and stretched out his hand to lead Ning Chaolai.
Ning Chaolai's knees were numb, and he held Xu Shaoqiao's arm and waited for a long time before he could barely stand up straight.
If she doesn't insist, Ning Xiangsheng won't insist either.
The door to the Prime Minister's Mansion creaked open.
Ning Xiangsheng and Liu Lan walked out together.
"It's not too early, wait for the carriage to come, you and Lan'er can go." Ning Xiangsheng opened his mouth.
Ning Chaolai smiled bitterly, "Ah Weng, you want me to go, you want me to live, but do you know? If there were no Aung in the world, I would not be truly happy in this life. ”
If you don't die, how can you be happy or unhappy, so if you want to be happy or not, you must at least live first.
There was silence for a moment, and no one spoke, until two carriages came out the back door.
One carriage was prepared for Liu Lan and Ning Chaolai, and the other was used to carry the dowry prepared by Sheng Ning Xiangsheng for Ning Chaolai.
Whatever she does, the ending will not change, she can only obey Ning Xiangsheng's arrangement and follow Liu Lan to Jiangnan.
Ning Chaolai knelt down, kowtowed to Ning Xiangsheng three times in a row, and lay his head in the rain, saying,
"Thank you Aung for your kindness. Chaolai is not filial, can not always accompany Ah Weng, can not solve problems for Ah Weng, just hope that when Chao Lai is not around, Ah Weng can take good care of himself, don't worry. ”
Liu Lan knelt next to Ning Chaolai, and after kowtowing to Ning Xiangsheng three times, she said,
"Uncle, rest assured, in this life, as long as Liu Lan is still there, he will take good care of Ning Chaolai."
Tears may fall out of his eyes from time to time, Ning Xiangsheng turned his back, waved his hand and said, "Let's go, let's go." ”
In this way, he rashly entrusted the treasures he had loved for more than ten years to others, and he didn't dare to watch Ning Chaolai leave.
Liu Lan glanced at Xu Shaoqiao, who seemed to have a thousand words to tell Ning Chaolai, and took the lead in getting into the carriage.
Ning Chaolai got up, looked at Xu Shaoqiao, who was smiling stiffly, and said,
"From childhood to adulthood, only you know me best, Shaoqiao."
The friendship between them is deeper than what others see, and they can communicate with each other with just one look.
If Ning Xiangsheng has something, Xu Shaoqiao must remember to tell her.
Xu Shaoqiao took Ning Chaolai into his arms with one hand, and said in a hoarse voice,
"No matter where you go, you must live happily, and let this rain take away the unhappiness of the past."
Ning Chaolai nodded, and Xu Shaoqiao let go of his embrace.
Ning Chao looked at the mottled mansion gate, stared at Ning Xiangsheng, who didn't want to look back at her, turned around and got into the carriage.
The carriage moved forward, and only Ning Chaolai's half-cheerful and half-mournful chant was heard.
"In the past, I went back, the willows are still around, now I come to think, the rain and snow are falling, the road is slow, thirsty and hungry, my heart is sad, I don't know my sorrow."
However, in a short period of ten days, things are people, and the past cannot be traced, this is her sadness, but she is not the only sad person.
The carriage left, and he didn't listen to the real sound anymore, Ning Xiangsheng turned his head suddenly, looking at the empty quiet alley, and couldn't help but cry.
Murmuring called, "Come along." ”
If you say goodbye today, I am afraid that there will be no day to meet again.
Xu Shaoqiao held an umbrella and chased after the traces of the carriage.
But he stopped when he saw another man following him in the rain around the corner.
Uncle Tai also followed behind the carriage, not close, not far away, just like he came to Ning Chao, did not implicate, did not let go.
At the Hundred Flowers Banquet, as long as he nodded, Ning Chaolai would be his. If you love deeply, why are you willing to give your loved ones to others?
When she walked through the city gate, Ning Chaolai asked the carriage to stop, she lifted the curtain on the side, and looked back at the word "Chang'an" carved in stone on the city gate.
In the past two lifetimes, all her good memories are here, and if she can take her memories away, she will be alone and can't take anything with her.
On the city wall, Shangyang fell into the eyes of Ning Chaolai.
Shangyang smiled and waved at Ning Chaolai, that sincere smile seemed to tell Ning Chaolai that everything that happened these days was an illusion, if the cuckoo was still alive, if she and Shangyang were still close sisters, if they didn't have so much to do with right and wrong.
What if, just what if.
Ning Chaolai and Shangyang have never been sisters who put their hearts into their hearts, they were not in the past, they are not now, and they are even more unlikely to be in the future.
Ning Chaolai's face was calm, but the hand holding the curtain betrayed her inner struggle, and she could care about nothing except the death of the cuckoo.
"Chaolai," Liu Lan pulled Ning Chaolai's hand and said, "Let's go." ”
The curtain is closed, and everything outside the curtain is isolated.
Ning Chaolai didn't see Li Suwu walking from the other side of the city wall to Shangyang.
Shangyang was whipped twice by Uncle Tai, and his injuries were serious, so he could only stand against the wall, and when he saw that Li Suwu was late, he couldn't help but be sarcastic,
"The pavilion master is really a divine dragon who can't see the end, I have been to the Qianjin Pavilion more than once recently to look for you and you can't find it, I don't look for it today, but it appeared for no reason."
Li Suwu looked at the carriage under the city wall and Tai Shuhuan standing at the city gate, and took a few steps back, she couldn't let Tai Shuhuan know about her dealings with Shangyang.