Chapter 14: The aggrieved Kim Taeyeon
Gradually, the time came to twelve o'clock in the morning. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info
At the last second, the Mnet staff pressed the confirmation button, and the homepage was refreshed and a photo of Lee Jun-hyun appeared, which was also the photo taken by Yoon Mi-rae.
Three songs with great emotion, three R&B songs, three songs that make people want to cry, and three songs that poke tears.
Every fan or passerby who has heard the song has to admit that such a song has magic.
How long has it been since I've heard a love song like this? What is your experience in creating these three highly emotional songs?
What kind of musician are you? Forget about hiphop, R&B are you still doing it like this?
Is it because of your musical literacy or because of your experience?
However, Lee Jun-hyun is asleep now, he is very sleepy, and the three songs this time consume too much energy for him.
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On the other side, she cried listening to the song, and cried again, and she was always asking herself, why are you crying? Obviously my eyes are swollen, and there are no tears left, why do I still want to cry? Why do you still feel sour in your nose.
I don't know how many times I listened to it until I was able to hum along with the song.
Just curled up in his knees, with headphones and hair hanging down, the whole person curled up and sobbed like this.
"Love is gone, and I'm still standing like a fool."
The lyrics awaken the memory, and she recalled that last night's words, he just stood like a fool, and then followed his own questioning, except to silence him, he would not do anything else, he used to be, not like this.
He would...
He'll come up ...
Hold yourself and say: I love you...
Last night, what I was waiting for was such a familiar, such a warm embrace, and such a simple three words that pierced my heart.
But did you wait?
No, the result of waiting for yourself is disappointment and despair.
He's changed, yes, I've changed too.
Our everything...
It's just instinctual.
It's just habit-driven.
But I'm already familiar with such habits! Familiar with such instincts, aren't they?
Can I live away from such habits and familiarity?
Can anyone tell me? Can I get out of it? It's been three years, I thought I had forgotten about you, and since you're leaving, why are you coming back? Is it because of me? Or is it because...
Lee Jun Hyun... I'm afraid... I'm afraid you'll leave me again, I'm afraid of being alone, I'm afraid to turn off the lights to sleep, I'm afraid to sleep with the door closed, I'm afraid... I'm afraid you'll come back, I won't see you.
Lee Jun Hyun... Do you still love me? Or do you just want me to forgive you?
Do you know? I have never hated you, I love you, I hate you for not leaving, I am afraid that you will leave me alone, I am afraid of being alone.
I want to hear you stand in front of me, like a man, and say those three words.
Lee Jun Hyun, can you do it?
Slowly, she dragged her sobbing body, held her mobile phone, wore headphones, walked barefoot on the cold floor, and walked to the balcony.
Wearing only a pajama and a men's coat, she shivered with cold, but she stood like this.
The crystal clear tears were dried by the wind, forming tear stains.
The talent of the singer, she sang along with the song in such a cold wind with Li Junxian's voice.
Possible...
Probably because this is the only way that she doesn't feel lonely and scared, which she used to do, and for that, she learned RAP.
may be because only in this way will she feel that she is with Li Junxian, and the two are not separated.
Maybe it's because only in this way will she know what's going on in her heart.
She knows everything on the Internet, so many netizens call and forward it in unison, let her see, let her hear, and let her come back.
She knows that others have confidence in Li Junxian and are confident that he can handle this relationship well.
But myself...
She didn't know...
But... She smiled...
Standing in the biting cold wind and smiling, the smile is so beautiful, so beautiful, so eye-catching.
Pity... No one can see and appreciate.
Because the smile is for him.
Because he wasn't around with that smile.
He pouted his head slightly, puffed out his mouth, looked at the bright starry sky at night, and remembered the words he once said: "I really want to have this starry sky!" ”
He looked at himself, and there was only doting in his eyes: "In the future, I will buy a Rolls-Royce, and we will look at the stars every day." (Rolls-Royce has a featured starry sky top)
Recalling this conversation, she smiled even brighter, a smile from the heart.
But once again, the tears slowly flowed.
"Li Junxian, I'm hungry!"
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"Don't listen to these three songs, don't listen to them, trust me."
"Crying, why write such a song, why do you have such an experience? Can't two people who love each other be simple? ”
"I really cried, it was too graphic, and the lyrics and arrangement were too perfect."
"I originally wanted to say that as a woman, I couldn't find a boyfriend when I listened to such a handsome song, but I remembered him who didn't exist."
"A fictional one upstairs? I also made up one, which is too graphic. ”
"The voice has a feeling of tearing with a little smoke, and with such lyrics, it is a little helpless and painful."
"Made, I'm in the pit, the first floor is harmful, and it makes me curious."
"I'm also in the pit, and I won't buy it if I don't have a message on the first floor."
"Complain about my cheap hands, and you can't get out of the pit."
"It's so helpless, it's so distressing, the lyrics are the sense of the picture."
"Yes, I have to take it, after all, I am a master of ryhme (rhyme), and the lyrics are too perfect."
"It's in the pit, it's not the pit of the three songs, it's the Weapon? X's pit. ”
"Upstairs, the truth."
"Yes, the road turns to the fan."
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In the girls' generation dormitory, Kim Taeyeon listened to the song and recalled the scenes of the past, including laughter, noise, and disputes.
But... The starting point for everything is the combination of the center.
But now, everything is centered on the individual.
The combination has become unimportant, what is the reason?
Just because of the interests? Just because you can't let go of such a high class position? Afraid that you can't afford to buy a designer bag after leaving girlhood? Can't live a life of luxury? Can't enjoy the admiration of 10,000 people?
What kind of changes are the causes, and why have you all become like this?
Why did I become a gas bag, and why did you all do it? Why? What am I sorry for you?
I received so much anti, I sacrificed so much for the sake of the combination, I didn't go home for the New Year, my parents waited patiently again and again, and let them down again and again, why did it come to this?
Just because I compromised with the company for the sake of the combination, you hate me like this? Why? Why do you treat me like this?
It seemed like the third time, and it seemed like the fourth, and she couldn't count how many times she cried.
It seems that I started crying from listening to his songs, why? What magic do you have? What the hell do you have to make me cry?
They treat me like this, why do you treat me like this, why do you want to move me so much with every song you make? Sad, is it because we have sympathy for each other? Silently pay for each other, instead...
What kind of person are you?
I hate you... I hate you...
Kim Tae-yeon curled up on the couch, crying and sobbing in her knees in the empty dormitory room except for her.
Recalling the prickly words, she felt very tired, since she didn't please, then I wouldn't do anything? May I?
Since you are all working hard for yourself and selfishly breaking away from the group, then I am the same, is it okay?
Since you all hate me like that, then I don't need to continue to think about you, can I?
Let's act as sisters and don't talk about it in private, is it okay?
Kim Taeyeon, why do you pay so much, you are qualified to make decisions for other people's lives? What are you?
Kim Taeyeon, don't let people look down on you, cheer up, be strong, for yourself, not for others.
Unconsciously, these songs of Lee Jun-hyun have changed Kim Taeyeon, a person's ability to bear is limited, and it will explode and explode to a certain extent.
Kim Taeyeon's grievances have long been backlogged, like a bomb, exploding at any time, maybe a few of Lee Jun-hyun's songs are like sparks, igniting her grievances.
But is it really possible to leave nothing at all?
She's Kim Taeyeon.
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