Chapter 54: Despair 2
Xia Yuan's various expressions, various emotions, and various pictures of her kept switching in my mind, and my heart was filled with confusion and confusion. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ļ½ļ½ļ½Uļ½Eć ļ½ļ½ļ½ļ½
In the middle of the night, I returned to Xia Yuan's house with difficult steps, An Yue's expression looked at me indifferently, and turned her head......
Holding on to the last glimmer of hope, I walked into Xia Yuan's room, the furnishings of her room were still so simple, the quilt was neatly folded, and an unlucky bear on the bedside was looking at me directly.
Rummaging through her drawers and wardrobes made me suffer again, and I could only pray in my heart that I had accidentally lost the contract, and it was definitely not with her......
But reality can never be changed and escaped, the conspicuous document in the drawer appeared in front of my eyes, and I picked up the document tremblingly, which contained Xia Yuan's private file and the secret contract........
At this moment, I seemed to feel that all the different feelings she had brought me in the past few months were like a play, and I was like a grandstanding clown, being played by her.
I lost my trust with Jeremy Lin, and I am even more ashamed of An Yue, and I am also sorry for the brotherhood between me and Wang Zishi.......
Hehe, what a bullshit angel, what a life mentor.........
Xia Yuan, you won.......
I walked out of the courtyard in despair, Jeremy Lin and Wang Zishi were long gone, only An Yue stood at the door, looking straight at me.
"Tell me, why is that? Just because of this woman who has only known each other for a few months? ā
I was silent, and my heart closed my eyes.......
"You know, I really didn't believe you could do such a thing at the time, but when that girlfriend of yours shook hands with the two franchisees today, my heart was cold, Luo Bing, you tell me that the relationship between us is really that worthless?"
An Yue's every word was like a sharp arrow, mercilessly plunging into my chest.......
In their eyes, Xia Yuan is my girlfriend, I want to explain, but what can I explain? What can interpretation change?
Luo Bing, you are such a clown.....
An Yue asked again: "Are you acquiescing?" ā
"I said no, do you believe it?"
"She's your girlfriend and you're the only one in the know, what else do you think you need to explain?"
I suddenly laughed at myself: I was tricked, and I stupidly helped her clean up and tidy up her room.
The feeling of being betrayed is so painful, so unbearable......
"I don't want to explain anything, but I didn't really say anything to her about the contract, I know you don't believe it, but it's all happened, hehe..... So be it. I lowered my head, then looked up again, and said, "I'm sorry....."
Suddenly, An Yue slapped me, looked at me viciously, and said, "You take your rich girlfriend to hell, just when An Yue knows you blindly." ā
Does it hurt? It hurts, but it hurts even more......
I stared blankly at An Yue's distant back, maybe she would never look back, and everything that had once dissipated without a trace.....
.........
In just half an hour, I lost my friendship and everything in this city, and it all started with that very poisonous woman.......
I lost my soul, wandering by the pond, all of a sudden, I felt that death was calling me, after despair, I smiled, and yelled at the pond that had been listening to me since I was a child: "Luo Bing, you TM is a clown, a stupid pen, the stupidest person in the world, you deserve to lose everything, you deserve to die......"
After venting, I lay on the grass empty-eyed, I had nothing left, only the feeling of my heart being torn.
After the pain, I gradually calmed down, reflecting on my life for more than 20 years, the feelings of the childhood sweetheart seem to be so indestructible, but I still can't escape this realistic society, for love, I wasted the most precious time.
As for Xia Yuan, she made me lose my most sincere friendship, which is equivalent to making me lose my life, she took away my soul, and I still played the clown stupidly, making her smile and watching me lose everything......
Suddenly, an inexplicable voice called out to me in my head: here you have lost everything, you should go.
The cruelty of life, the betrayal of friends, the loss of love, a person's ability to bear is limited.
The traffic on the streets and the overlapping of people still set off my loneliness and the helplessness of this 'empty city'.
When I got home, I looked indifferently at the yard where I had lived for 2 or 30 years, and then walked into the room, cleaned up the messy room, and took out the dusty suitcase from under the bed, and I had to go.......
But where can I go?
After picking up my clothes and stuffing my suitcase, I sat down at the piano in a daze, calmly stroking the keys, and suddenly I hated the feeling of seeing things, and then I punched hard, and in an instant, the keys were dented by my fist.
I laughed and laughed, and suddenly I cried with my head covered.
After sorting everything out, I wrote a resignation letter and an IOU, then put the resignation letter on the table and put the IOU in Xia Yuan's room.
After doing all this, a wave of fatigue hit, and I fell asleep on the stone table.....
When I woke up, it was already evening, and I slowly opened my eyes, only to see Xia Yuan holding a pot of tulips and wiping them in front of me.
When I first woke up, I habitually wanted to tease her, but just in an instant, everything that happened today appeared in front of my eyes, staring at her blankly, how I wished it was a nightmare.
"How are you sleeping here, isn't it cold?" Xia Yuan said very casually.
I really want to capture her every expression, I want to capture the moment when she makes a mistake in her performance, but why does she act so really.
I snorted coldly and said to her, "Xia Yuan, you are really ruthless, you are really a master of acting, hehe." ā
When Xia Yuan was told by me, she replied: "Why are you so stingy, don't you just help me clean up?" ā
Her breezy expression made me even more angry, I stood up and pointed at her and yelled, "Don't you act anymore, you vicious woman, haven't you hurt me badly enough?" Why are you so disgusting, and you say that I am scum, shameless, hehe, I think you are a femme fatale. ā
Xia Yuan stood up for no reason, and said angrily: "Luo Bing, what are you doing, are you sick again?" ā
Her angelic face at the moment made me feel sick.
"You can really act, you can go and get an Oscar. Hehe, you won, I lost, I lost completely, because you can finally never see me again, this yard belongs to you, this is an extra gift to you. ā
Xia Yuan also seemed to see that I wasn't joking, lowered her tone, and said, "What's wrong, can you tell me?" ā