Chapter 161
The old prince looked at her pitiful appearance, and his heart trembled, and there was no trace of blood on his tense cheeks, and the last touch of color in heaven and earth could not wipe away the deep sorrow on his body. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info
He chuckled, and finally pressed his hand to his lips and put his head on the chuckle: "What do I want from you?" If I had known that one day it would be so painful, I would say nothing that would have put you in my sight. You always think that I have failed you, but you can't see the plan I made for you, what are you not without conscience? If you can understand half of my hard work, you won't do this kind of thing with a knife to poke my heart in just a few days, I have only been tempted by you alone for so many years, I am afraid that you will be wronged, so I dare not do anything, I will endure everything, you ......"
Eniang pushed him away vigorously, stared at the stunned man with a sneer, and said hatefully: "Did I follow you so that you can give me glory and wealth?" Although I love money, I can't bear to embarrass you, I said early on that I just want to be with you, and I never care what will happen in the future, don't you understand? Who cares what happens when they die, all I can see is the two of us spending time together. ”
E-Niang's voice became lower and lower, and in the end it seemed to be self-deprecating, and it was full of deep sadness, for his inability to understand and for his own dead eyes, suddenly exhaustion swept towards her like the sea, making her weak, maybe all this was a mistake, the only way was to turn back and give up, they should go their own way, so it was good for everyone.
The old prince looked at her expression of sudden collapse, and an inexplicable panic and sadness rose in his heart, as if this person was getting farther and farther away from him, so that he could no longer catch it. At this time, he realized how reluctant and sad he was in his heart, it turned out that he was even more reluctant to give her than he imagined. His heart was in turmoil, and he suddenly didn't know what to do, if he had known that this would happen, he wouldn't have moved the idea of wanting her to leave.
Is there really no way to get it back? He anxiously wanted to step forward to take her hand, but saw her shaking her head, with a smile on the corner of her mouth that was as bleak as his mood at this time: "Don't do this, maybe your decision is right, I didn't understand it at the time." There is such a deep gulf between us, it is not something that can be crossed casually, maybe even if we are together for a while, we don't know what will happen in the future, so let's let each other go, I will always remember your kindness to me. ”
The old prince looked at her in disbelief, and suddenly his eyes were filled with a cold and terrifying chill, and his lips trembled and asked, "Do you really think so?" Drop everything here, including me? Is it for the woodcutter? What's so good about him? What the hell is he worthwhile for you to do? If you have to do this, then I can only ......"
E-niang's eyes widened suddenly, she saw a terrifying fierceness in his eyes, day and night compared to so many years, what he was thinking could be seen at a glance what he was thinking. It turns out that he is not the harmless and gentle person she thinks in her heart, and he will also have the desire to destroy everything, just because he is in his way, maybe the woodcutter will be hurt by him.
"You can't do that, there's nothing wrong with him, he's just helping me show the way. Zhu Tingwen, are you reasonable? It's all your own hope, what's wrong with me doing what you want? You can't hurt the innocent, everything is my own attention, you're all on my head, do you hear? ”
Eniang's anxious and anxious appearance stabbed the old prince's eyes, he didn't know in his heart that he had nothing to do with that person, it was just that he was unwilling, so he became like this.
Hui Niang knew that it would anger him or said seriously: "The housekeeper is a good person, he has thought of a lot of ways to help me stay with you again, he said that you just can't see clearly, and you are stuck in your own impasse, I was thinking about fighting hard, but I happened to meet him after thinking about it for a long time in the mountains, a very honest person, at least he will tell me, a girl's family should not be alone in this kind of place, what if you meet a bad person?" Zhu Tingwen, have you ever cared about my life or death? Actually, I don't need anything, what I want is that you can care more about me, so that I can live this life happily. I don't have any important relatives in my family anymore, I can do nothing but follow you, but unfortunately you can't see anything. I thought about it for a long time, I think this kind of ordinary life is actually very good, I don't need to worry about anything anymore, just just live a peaceful life, it is much easier to be loved than to be loved, what do you say? ”
The old prince approached her, grabbed her arm while she was caught in his own thoughts, and asked, "So you mean you don't want to love me anymore?" We're just cut off? No matter how much I plead with you, I regret it, do you want to do the same? Is there no room for turnaround? ”
Eniang looked at him with teary eyes, and shook her head weakly: "I don't know, I need to think about it, but Zhu Tingwen, you hurt me a lot, I really don't know if I should continue to believe you." What I'm thinking now is that I don't want to see you embarrassed more than my own selfishness, and if it's the best solution to go back to the beginning, then I don't want to force myself and let God dictate. It's not too early, the prince should go back first, I will leave here in the next two days. ”
The old prince watched her stretch out her hand and wave her big palm down, neatly and mercilessly, like a knife to cut off everything she wanted, maybe since then it is really their own Yuan Tianya, no one can touch his heart, and there is no joyful laughter in his world, is it just like this to return to loneliness? Have you been alone until you can't afford to appreciate this piece of mountains and rivers that belong to others? Was it a mistake for him to suddenly realize that he had stayed away from the strife in the first place? If he had struggled to compete for the entire country at that time, would everything have changed? Even if you become a prisoner and die, it is better than a person wandering aimlessly in this world like a ghost.
E-Niang turned around and walked inside, there was a long distance between the two of them, he could expect that after many years they would drift apart because of such a distance, maybe he would be the only one who was reluctant to give up, and she had already had someone else, and had already forgotten about him, an old and lonely person. This kind of realization was too terrible, so he quickly stepped forward and wrapped her into his arms, and murmured: "Don't be like this, I really can't live without you, you should pity me once, I know I made a mistake, I can't admit my mistake to you?" I just beg you not to do this to me, I have nothing, the only thing I want is for you to stay away from me, so how can I live my life in the future? Ei Niang, Ei Niang, don't do this to me. ”
The tears that Eniang finally couldn't stop were raging again because of his words, she closed her eyes and shook her head weakly: "Give me a little time, we will be quiet with each other for a while, maybe tomorrow you will be like understanding, and you will not be so impulsive again." It's not too early, the prince should go back quickly, it's really not good for you and me to be like this. ”
The old prince knew that he was no longer suitable to persecute her at this time, she was even more tired than herself, but she still couldn't bear to let her go like this, remembering what Zhu Zhao said that day, he pursed his lips and said in a low voice: "I can give you time to think about it, but during this time, you go to accompany Zhu Zhao's wife, I hope that when I see you again, you will dispel such thoughts now." E-niang, I know that you resent me in your heart, and I can't forget my alienation and indifference to you, and I will double my compensation from now on. Sometimes it's not me hurting those innocent people, it's you, why do you drag him down when you know you don't like him? Einiang,People who are in love will lose their minds.,Now there's no good or bad in my world.,I just know that watching you disappear in my world is something I can't tolerate.。 You can blame me for the wrong things I did before, or even beat me, but you can't have the thought of leaving. When do you want to figure out when you will come back, and as for that person not to go to him if he wants him to live this life in peace, you should know that I have the ability. ”
Eniang didn't say anything more, but the eyes that looked at him were piercing cold, as if he was looking at a stranger who had nothing to do with him, such a gaze was too sad, making him feel like he had broken his breath and could no longer heal, even if this pain would accompany him for a lifetime, he was willing to bear it.
In the end, E-Niang just shook her head, turned around and lay on the bed, the meaning of sending off the guest was very clear, and he had to turn around and leave. When the door closed again, she chuckled lowly, this person is really a madman, he used to always make people confused about what he was thinking, but now he put his identity so low, he knew that it would be so painful now, why bother to open that head in the first place? However, it cannot be denied that people will always cherish the hard-won possession more and more after going through all kinds of hardships.
E-Niang let out a long sigh and turned around and closed her eyes, she was so tired now, so tired that she didn't even have the strength to raise her hand, no matter what was about to happen, she just wanted to wait until she woke up, she just wanted to give herself time to catch her breath now.
She soon fell asleep, and the troublesome and sad past in her sleep was finally gone, and he watched her smile so softly and so easy-going, just as he had been so patient when he first spoke to him, that she almost thought that he had fallen in love with herself as deeply as she did. They love each other, there are not so many realistic things in the way of each other, they stay together and live happily ever after.
What she didn't know was that dreams were always the opposite, they were struggling with each other here, and for the emperor in the capital, he finally had time to care about his younger brother who had been forgotten by himself for a long time, thinking that he was so old that there was no one around him who knew hot and cold, and after discussing with the queen, he decided to find a gentle and well-behaved person for him to serve him.
The emperor has been really worried recently, his younger brother and his own sons have reached the age that should be set, but they all refused, how can he let them mess around, when Zhu Zhao returns to Beijing to report on his work, he has to beat this confused son well, so that he can know that his patience as a father has reached the extreme, and if he goes on like this, don't blame him for being unkind.
The housekeeper waited outside early the next morning, looking at the slightly good-looking E-Niang, she couldn't help but sigh and said, "Can you tell me, what are you doing so stubbornly one by one?" You too, he's already succumbed, what do you still want him to do? Kid, it's almost over, what's good for you if it's too stiff? Could it be that you really plan to die of old age and not get along? So what are you still doing here? In the past two days, I will stay at Mrs. Qian's house first, and then come back and talk to him well, he loves you, what did you want to do at the beginning, he couldn't help you? So don't talk nonsense anymore, and don't implicate others for no reason. ”
Painted Niang sighed helplessly, now can only nod and agree, packed up and walked out of this Zhuangzi or couldn't help but look back, in and out of the past few years have never been left for too long, really to leave when I found that even the bones are full of reluctance, the whole Zhuangzi illuminated by the morning light is like a girl who has just woken up, blooming with a seductive demeanor, enchanting and charming, but she can't understand the sorrow and parting of Painted Niang.
Just when she turned around and got into the carriage, she saw the woodcutter walking towards Eniang with firewood, her face was a little happy, and she smiled: "Girl, is there something to go out?" ”
Eniang smiled faintly: "Yes, I'm going to live elsewhere for a few days, thank you for the big brother for the two days, I have figured out a lot of things." ”
Later, the housekeeper urged her to hurry into the carriage, this should be the last time she will see her, even if the relationship between Eniang and him is just a nodding acquaintance, but at that time, the mood of wanting to treat him as her lifesaver made her feel guilty and helpless.
The woodcutter watched the carriage leave his sight, and walked farther and farther, and suddenly laughed, in fact, he understood at that time that this woman would not belong to him after all, because he knew that she had someone else in her heart, otherwise she would not have such a sad and tactful expression, at that time he didn't know what was wrong with him or couldn't help but want to get closer. Some people are born with a charm that makes people can't take their eyes off it, making people want to love and want to get closer, but when they don't care about the reward, they find out how big the difference between the two is. Although he liked this girl, he also saw it thoroughly, and knew that the girl would only be wronged if he followed him, and people didn't want to follow him, so he quickly pulled out of it and watched them go away with a smile.
The housekeeper patted him on the shoulder and said in a deep voice: "Our girl is not in a good mood, thank you for being a descendant, but it is better to have less contact in the future, and don't bring her unnecessary trouble." She has someone she likes, and that person doesn't want you to stand in the way of you. ”
The woodcutter turned around and left, no matter what the future holds, at least the two of them talked together, and that was enough.
When Hui Niang arrived in the courtyard where Qian Yun was, she looked at the Zhuangzi who could be compared with the prince, and she was also a burst of admiration and envy in her heart, no wonder people are pursuing glory and wealth, and seeing that the people in this courtyard are respectful to this woman, this feeling should be so satisfying. She didn't dare to look at it more, this was the rule that her grandmother taught her after she arrived at Zhuangzi, saying that the masters don't like people who have too many eyes, she quickly lowered her head and followed Qingyu to the house locked by Qian Yun.
Qian Yun didn't treat her as a person, but was very polite, as if he was a guest in her house, and he entertained her thoughtfully and politely. It wasn't until there were only the two of them left in the room that Hui Niang said a little crampedly: "Madam is too polite to Hui Niang, Hui Niang is just a servant of people, you make me don't know what to do." ”
Qian Yun couldn't help but cover his mouth and smiled: "You don't have to be burdened, I just think that you follow my eyes, and I don't have anyone to talk about here, so I asked the sixth prince to ask you to accompany me for a while." Actually, I'm not afraid of your jokes, the situation of the two of us is still somewhat similar, although I am with the six princes, in the eyes of outsiders, I am just a concubine with no name. No matter how determined he was to ask for a place for me, he ended up in defeat. Seeing you and the prince like this, I also feel a little sad in my heart, there are lovers but they can't be together as they want, and they have to take care of those identities. I see that you don't look good, you haven't slept well in the past two days? ”
E-niang didn't know what was wrong with her, and suddenly felt that the person in front of her should be able to understand her situation and grievances, so she smiled self-deprecatingly and said, "Don't hide it from Madame, I had some quarrels with the prince, if he hadn't asked people to send me here, I'm afraid I would have to leave." ”
Qian Yun put down his hand holding the teacup and asked with some concern, "How come?" The prince will not allow you to leave, men are mostly selfish people, they can do anything, but for us women, they can only cling to them and offer them up. Don't be too upset, he also cares about you, so he did something to upset you. ”
Eniang rubbed the rim of the cup and shook her head and said, "He wanted me to leave at the beginning, but I figured it out and was ready to leave, but he regretted it." It's really funny to be a person who repeats things like this, and I don't know what to do now. I can't leave it, but I always feel uncomfortable in my heart, what good way can Madame? ”
Qian Yun suddenly remembered something, pursed his lips and shook his head with a smile: "Don't think about leaving, it's useless, no matter how ruthless you are, you can't convince yourself that you don't love him, and you don't care about anything related to him." I'm not afraid of your jokes, I also had my selfishness at the beginning, I didn't want to have a child too early, but I didn't want this to be discovered by him, you should know how much he hated at the time, and even found a woman to come and get angry with me, I plan to ignore him in the future, but God always plays tricks, what I didn't expect is that the child finally came, the more you go back, the more you will feel that some people can't let go once they fall in love. There are only two endings between each other, either live happily forever, or just forget this life and live the rest of your life by hate. You are different from me, you are very simple, you can let go of everything to love someone, unlike me who carries a lot of things, and sometimes I can't help myself at all. I think the prince will definitely give you an explanation, so don't be sad yet. ”
E-Niang smiled embarrassedly, put her hanging hair behind her ear, and said softly: "Look at me, I'll tell you these unpleasant things as soon as I come, don't annoy me, madam." It's just that after listening to your words, I finally feel better, I blamed him on the way just now, everything depends on how to go in the future, if there is really no way to separate, so long like this. I don't want to quarrel with him, every time I say a heavy word, my heart trembles, like opening a hole and hurting badly, but he doesn't know that he always forces me with those hurtful words, and blames me for being unproductive, and I can't help but be sad, maybe he has to be in this life. ”
Qian Yun reached out and patted the back of her hand, and said with a smile: "What is the matter between you?" As long as the two of them are good, what a good day to visit the mountains and rivers together. If I can really love that I am an ordinary person and live an ordinary life, and those things in the rich and noble family will never have anything to do with me, then it would be great. But God is always fair to others, and will not let you go as you wish, so you know that you are satisfied, not only to enjoy those that belong to you, but also to bear those pains, so I said that I envy you that you can ignore everything like this, and look at the people you love wholeheartedly, so you still have to see it clearly, if some things are not to the day when you can't forgive, for that person can take a step back appropriately, tolerate it appropriately, and be good to everyone, what do you say? ”
E-Niang's heart knot was all untied, and she nodded with a smile: "That's right, I understand, thanks to you, my mood is finally more comfortable today." I hated him so much that I gritted my teeth before, but now I am so unlucky. ”
The two kept talking and laughing, and the clouds above their heads disappeared since then, perhaps because of the similar situation, the hearts of the two people were so close.
And Zhu Zhao's injuries are not completely healed, and he will continue to fight face-to-face with the enemy army, and he will almost never wake up again, this time he will return all of them, no matter how difficult the other party is, he will never give them a chance to breathe again.
As for the person who hid in the shadows and made a shady move, this time he also had to find out and let him take a good look, it was just to save him a little face at the beginning, this time since he dared to treat him like this, and wanted to avenge the original revenge so urgently, then he would also make him unable to turn over in his life.
This war lasted for half a month, and no one risked their lives, but no one could retreat in the face of life and death and power, and everyone had each other's considerations, so they used all their strength when they were fighting each other.
The end result was nothing more than countless casualties and grief.