When I came back to my senses, I was a little angry, but I was very depressed, when did she become so bad, and she actually teased me......... That's not right, isn't she a goddess? Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

Looking at her smiling flowers and branches, my heart was crossed, and I pushed her down on the bed, grabbed her hands, and then looked at Xia Yuan who was pressed under me in a daze.

"You laugh, if you laugh again, I'll put you on the spot."

Xia Yuan was so frightened by my sudden move that she couldn't speak, and her expression sank at the same time, she calmed her face and said in a low voice: "Luo Bing, let go of me!" ”

The coldness of her tone made me a little confused, and I hurriedly climbed down from her and looked at her in a panic, trying to guess from her expression whether she was really angry or joking with me..............

Xia Yuan stood up and straightened her messy hair, and then looked at me with a disgusted expression.

Her eyes were exactly the same as the first time she looked at me, and the atmosphere changed in an instant, and my heart suddenly cooled by half.

I was afraid that she would look at me like this, and immediately explained: "Xia Yuan, I'm joking with you..........."

"Is that fun?"

I kept my head down, blaming myself for my excesses.

"Luo Bing, don't you want to be like this, we live together every day, I'm really afraid that one day, you will really .........."

"Why do you say that? We've known each other for almost half a year, do you think I'm such a person? ”

Xia Yuan's originally sluggish expression turned cold in an instant, and the atmosphere became more and more stiff in the silence of each other.

Finally, Xia Yuan still opened her mouth and said to me: "What about Liu Wei?" ”

Her words shook my heart suddenly, and I wanted to subconsciously reply to her: Liu Wei's incident was an accident..... But as soon as this sentence reached my mouth, I swallowed it alive, after all, it has become a fact that I hurt Liu Wei, and only three people in this world know it, and one of them is Xia Yuan............

She was scared...... Isn't it supposed to be? After all, I'm a beast and a scumbag...........

There was another long silence, and this time it wasn't anyone who broke the silence first, but I passed her in wordless embarrassment.

Xia Yuan was stunned in place, and it wasn't until I was about to walk to the door that she grabbed me and said, "Tell me about you and Liu Wei, okay?" ”

Her sudden question made me a little stunned.

Before I could sort out my thoughts, Xia Yuan walked up to me and said to me, "Didn't you say that you are not such a person, then I will give you a chance to explain."

My mind stagnated at this moment, and when I came back to my senses, I looked at Xia Yuan in a daze, but I couldn't say a word, because I had never mentioned this matter in front of anyone, and I myself was compulsorily forgetting about it..............

I used to be afraid that this incident would cause feelings between me and Jiang Yan, but now I want to mention the wrong thing that made me regret it in front of this woman who made my heart move.......

How do I explain it, and how do I explain it..............

Time was silent, minute by minute, Xia Yuan had been waiting for my answer, and finally, in the grief that I could not look back on, I spoke: "It was a night four years ago, that night I went to BJ to study in college because of Jiang Yan, and I felt a burst of loss in my heart, and I was unconscious in the loss, I wanted to lie on the pond with the memories of me and Jiang Yan after getting drunk, and spend this painful night." ”

Speaking of this, the guilt in my heart became stronger and stronger, I lit a cigarette, and then continued in the smoke: "Finally, I got my wish and lay on the grass, but otherwise, in the only little consciousness I had, I suddenly found a woman sitting next to me, and dimly I felt that the shadow next to me was more and more like Jiang Yan, I thought that Jiang Yan was reluctant to let me go, and came back, and then my brain was in chaos........... She didn't resist, she didn't struggle............. Even if we meet in the future, Liu Wei laughed it off and persuaded me not to care........ But how could I not care......... It was her most precious first time.......... I'm really ..........."

After saying that, I slammed the wall heavily with a deep sense of guilt, as if trying to let the pain cover up the guilt.

Xia Yuan held my hand distressedly, her expression was no longer cold, and she said slowly: "Liu Wei, she loves it very much............ Really, love you so much......"

Xia Yuan smiled and continued: "No girl will give her most precious thing to a person who knows that it does not belong to her for free, there is only one possibility, that is, she really likes you too much, and she is willing to give everything for you..........."

For a long time, I saw a trace of loss in Xia Yuan's sluggish eyes, but with a momentary shift, she returned to her normal color.

"But I don't like her, really....... Didn't like it at all. ”

"It's not that you don't like her, it's that you only have Jiang Yan in your eyes, and in your relationship, you have automatically blocked all women except Jiang Yan..........."

Her words made me feel inexplicably painful, and then I thought of the fact that I had lost Jiang Yan.

Without waiting for me to answer, Xia Yuan looked at me: "Maybe one day in the future, your broken heart will eventually be picked up by Liu Wei." ”

"No, it won't, it's impossible." I immediately blurted out a veto.

Xia Yuan wanted to say something, but turned to look out the window.

I don't know if I was wrong, but I actually saw the pain and loss in her eyes the moment she turned around..........

Is this my delusion? Yes, it must be my delusion, this is an unbearable memory between me and Liu Wei, how can she grieve............

I looked at Xia Yuan's figure, and there was a burst of complex emotions of remorse and inferiority complex in my heart, and at this moment I found that the distance between me and Xia Yuan was even farther away. Think about it, how can I, a person who has been abandoned, who has done bastard things, and has no products, have the right to fall in love with the angel in front of me..................

In the end, in silence, I left Xia Yuan's room, slammed myself on the bed in a soulless state, looked at the black ceiling, and once again experienced the pain that I wanted to hold but couldn't hold in the dark.............