Shang Xuesleeve never retreated, there was a door behind her, but she couldn't take the door out. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

On the side of Liancheng Palace, she couldn't see his face clearly.

And now, the face that has been deeply engraved in her heart is approaching as he approaches step by step.

She raised her eyes slightly, the difference between her and him, after calculation, is only three years, he doesn't seem to have changed his appearance, still with sword eyebrows and sideburns, a pair of slightly raised eyes, just looking at herself at the moment - the circle around the eyes has been red, and there are so many emotions in his eyes.

She can see it, happy, sorry, self-reproachful, worried...... And the one who loves.

His voice was also a little hoarse at the moment.

He said again: "Ah Sleeve." ”

She turned her head, her heart suddenly became sore, and tears were about to flow, so she had to turn around and say for a long time.

"Ah Yu."

Lian Zeyu's heart suddenly seemed to be tightly grasped by a hand and twisted.

Oh, yes...... When he came back from the inquiry, he said that her throat was upside down, and he didn't understand what that meant...... Now, I really know it.

As if because of her voice, this "Ah Yu" added a little astringency.

But he remembered once again that in the few of her plays he had seen before, he could feel the gorgeous, tactful, bright and amorous timbre of the flowers blooming in front of him.

This...... It must have been lost in that fire.

There was a throbbing pain in his heart, but in this throbbing pain, there was another kind of distress - she had arrived in the Changchun Garden, and she had never stopped taking care of her throat for a day, and he had no way to imagine what it would be like when she was alive in the fire and spoke again......

He looked at the emaciated pair of shoulders in front of him and raised his arms.

But when he saw the snow-colored color of her hair that had been like black satin, his outstretched hand shook slightly, but he still took it back after a long time.

He put his right hand to his eyes, and he couldn't tell if it was because of remorse, or because of the irretrievable, irretrievable, and forever lost things that had been understood, but they invaded him in bursts, so that he could no longer speak, and could only shed tears.

Shang Xuesleeve turned around, and the past came flooding over like a mountain of water.

But she no longer had the feeling of being in the middle of the waves, and she was so sad that she was about to suffocate.

She said calmly.

The fire, the collapse of the houses everywhere.

She turned her head and chuckled, "I really shouted." ”

Ayu, save me.

She believed he knew what she was talking about.

Lian Zeyu cried sadly: "Ah sleeve." ”

What a fire, even the palace walls have burned down, she wants to thank God, in the cold palace where she can't open her eyes, can't see the way to escape when she opens her eyes, and only has thick smoke and fire, she actually went from the burned place to the outside of the palace by mistake.

She once went to see him to return to Luan, the Ding army, the palace guards, and the civil and military officials...... It's majestic.

Later, she also saw the huge funeral guard of "Concubine Xi".

She has been to the northwest, and the weather is cold, and the snow will fly in July and August.

Lian Zeyu stood in front of her, she went to the northwest, that was to find Xiao Qian.

But at this moment, he no longer had the slightest jealousy or suspicion.

The sharp blades that he had stabbed at Shang Xue's sleeve were all stabbed back into his body one by one.

Because of his distrust, he ...... She didn't believe in him anymore, she left the palace, didn't dare to go to him, and even left Shangjing like a run......

She was floating around, her voice was ruined, and she was even thinking about it for a penny.

From north to south and from south to north.

In such a bland narrative, she never mentioned the child just now.

An unrealistic idea suddenly popped up in Lian Zeyu's mind, and said, "That kid ...... Mu Yu ......"

Shang Xue's hand suddenly clenched in her sleeve, and she laughed, but that smile was more ugly than crying.

"He's so old......" she kept talking, as if only chattering could hold her tears to her back, and the feeling of despair to the point of madness, disgust to the point of vomiting.

"He is already seven or eight years old, his nickname is Muyuer, and because he has grown up, he has given him a chorus name......"

She talked about everything about the wooden fish along the way.

In the end, there was nothing to say, even if she bought a brush and a small sword for Mu Yu'er, she began to talk about it.

She didn't seem to realize that her hands were stretched out like withered claws, her lips were shaking, and her eyes were messy, and tears burst out of her pretty eyes.

She cried, "You know what...... You know what...... That kid ......"

In the end, Lian Zeyu finally reached out and grabbed her hands.

"Ah Sleeve, Ah Sleeve...... Sleeve ......"

He cried and said, "Ahhh ”

What she lost, he lost.

The little finger bone, the little skeleton of a baby, the child who didn't even have a name, the child whose birth and death were unknown, the child who was quietly buried beside the unknown bone......

He couldn't even face the prince for a long time, and when he saw the prince, he would think of this child......

"He's so small...... He didn't even have the strength to drink milk...... "Shang Xuesleeve fell into his own memories, as if he had returned to the day of the cold palace, the sun was extremely gorgeous, and the golden sun made people feel warm all around, but her arms were getting colder and colder......

"He's getting colder," she murmured, "and he's getting colder," she laughed again, and with a finger outstretched, "only one day...... He's only been with me for a day...... I don't have a heart yet...... In front of his small bones, he ate a bowl of Lantern Festival...... I ate them all......"

She vomited.

"That's my sin, I'm guilty! I hate myself," Shang Xuesleeve just looked at the person in front of him with tears in her eyes, and her hoarse voice was a little sharp: "My fault...... Why wasn't I the one who died? If I'm not so afraid of death...... I should have called someone earlier...... Even if it's the queen mother, even if I am born and a bowl of medicine pours me......"

Lian Zeyu's face was full of tears.

He just thought, perhaps...... The boy fell into the well because of the fire...... I really don't know that's the case...... She was alone in the cold palace, how did she give birth to the child, how did she see the child dying, and how she felt the child become cold with her body......

He gritted his teeth, blood soaked from his mouth, and held Shang Xue's shoulder, forcing her to look at him.

He swallowed, and the fishy breath entered his throat, but it was like swallowing the most bitter medicine.

He forced himself to take back his tears, and said word for word: "Ah Sleeve, listen to me, that kid ......"

How hard it must have been for him to spit out every word, and he said, "I won't allow you to give birth." ”

He even smiled: "Ah Sleeve, I will doubt it...... I've always been suspicious, and that's the kind of person I am...... I know, I'm going to ......."

He gritted his teeth and said, "Beat him...... I won't keep him...... Born with a child with doubtful blood...... That's not your sin...... Don't want it, don't ask for it...... ...... so blamed for himself"

But it was his child, he knew.

Even if he didn't have steamed bones, he knew it!

He was just holding on to a fluke at the time, thinking that if the child was not his, the woman's bones would definitely not be Shang Xuesleeve......

It was their second child, and he killed him.

Lian Zeyu couldn't hold back any longer, turned his head, and cried in a low, suppressed manner like a beast.

What was it about him that he was still here and standing in front of her?

What is he thinking about it, and he thinks that he and her can be reunited after such a painful reunion......

He stood up in despair.

Shang Xuesleeve raised his eyes to look at him.

She had calmed down, and the words that came out of the thin lips that had bitten several times—she had thought they were thin lips, but they weren't.

Her tears flowed down her eyes, and she said, "Ah Yu," she choked up, took a deep breath and said, "Ah Yu, do you know that you and me in Huodu, you and me in Xidu...... You and I in that palace are like fish that foam at each other as the book says. ”

Tears ran down her cheeks as she said, "We all wanted love so badly. ”

That's why he can do so many shocking things, so she can also make moths to the flames.

So when she should have retreated from this identity, she took a step towards him, so when he should have forgotten this wandering woman on the rivers and lakes, but he was looking for each other at the end of the world.

"Don't say it."

Lian Zeyu remembered in a trance that once she invited herself to the cold palace, and he was afraid that she would say these two words.

"Don't say it."

The next sentence is to forget each other in the rivers and lakes.

Shang Xuesleeve really didn't say anything more.

She just looked at Lian Zeyu inquiringly.

Lian Zeyu couldn't look directly into her clear eyes, nor did he have a way to look at the wrinkles on her eyebrows that only formed after a long period of worry, he walked to the opposite side of her again, and leaned down, but there was no way to suppress the heat in his eyes.

He took the contents out of his sleeve pocket and handed it over.

I wanted to say "no need to worry", and I also wanted to say "no need to be afraid", but I could only be silent.

It was an excerpt from the Ministry of Rites and Rites, he used the residual ink of the past on the desk in Changchun Garden, took the pen that Ah Sleeve had once struck, and wrote a word so seriously.

"Exactly."

Shang Xuesleeve stared at this fold, next to the word "quasi" was the vermilion seal covered by the seal, boxy, and never deviated in the slightest.

She breathed a sigh of relief.

Lian Zeyu looked at her body sourly, and finally relaxed, how afraid she was to return to Liancheng Palace, almost using all the power she could use to guard against it.

He saw a hint of loss and apprehension that she inadvertently revealed.

It was every time he left Changchun Garden in the early morning, the look on her face was like this, with infatuation and attachment, as if she had always been the one who had been left behind.

It made his heart cramp more than her precautions.

He couldn't help but speak, a plea in his voice.

"Ah Sleeve."

Lian Zeyu saw Shang Xuesleeve looking at him, and knew in his heart that in her speechlessness, everything had been said.

She was still in love with him, he thought.

However, she will not return to Liancheng Palace, will not put herself in a desperate situation again, and will not leave behind the things she once loved and has always loved.

She...... Never forgive.

He stretched out his hand and said, "Ah Sleeve, come to me." ”

Shang Xuesleeve finally knew why "love and parting" is the eight sufferings of Buddhism, and it is the ultimate talk.

She didn't refuse again, but moved her body and leaned towards Lian Zeyu.

A pair of arms gently wrapped around her, and he lowered his head for a long time before he whispered, "Ah Sleeve." ”

"I'll send two guards with you," the voice said urgently, "I'm just afraid something will happen to you." ”

"I'll ask the Imperial Doctor to help you take a look at your body, you are so thin, let him prescribe a prescription, and let your Master Gu remember the ......"

"Although you are the head of the music department, don't be too tired, you are in charge of the guild and the class, you have to learn to use people like me."

"Don't ...... I believe in the people around me too much, and the hardships that Nanjun has endured must be taken to heart. ”

He put a small seal in her hand, and Shang Xue looked down at the word "Xiao" on it, half of the yin and yang.

"This is...... What was given to you, I think it was the income from your singing in those years, he saved it for you, and each ticket number can withdraw the silver with this seal, don't be too bitter about yourself......"

"The manuscript you left in the Changchun Garden, I will have someone bring it to you."

Shang Xuesleeve seemed to have a very distant dream, and someone in the dream also whispered a lot of things, and even some people felt verbose.

But drops of hot things, along with the words, dripped on her neck.

"The world is so big, you can get it."

"If you come to Beijing and want me to know, let someone pass the word...... If you don't want to, it's okay......"

"I thought you weren't in this world anymore—there was a woman's corpse in that well," his voice was a little desolate: "In this deep palace, which dry well doesn't bury people?" So...... Don't be disappointed in me. ”

"It's not like I don't want you."

"What if...... Ah Sleeve, don't want me, let me know ......" The words fell, he sobbed violently again, and the dripping tears became more and more hot: "Don't let me know ......"

"I want you to live well and freely in this world."

"Ah Sleeve, it's good that you're still in this world."

At the end of the night, Lian Zeyu left.

Before leaving, he turned around and saw Shang Xuesleeve standing in front of the window.

The window is open, and the moon is bright outside, and her eyes are still bright, but they contain more moving emotions.

Just like what he saw in Xiao Yuan many years ago, there was a slight ignorance in her eyes at that time that the proud monk who had just become famous in the world did not know what love was.

Later, it was he who made her eyes gradually contain only the meaning of love for him.

Now there is pride in her eyes to be famous again, and there are also vicissitudes of life, and there is still a love for him in her veins - but this love is not all in her heart.

Just like him.

The leak outside the door is even closer, and there is his home country.

The worm does not grow old

Finale. I have a lot of feelings.,I'll sort out a finished testimonial later.,Well,It's the same as the testimonial at the end of the previous volume six.,You can rest assured that it's not for money.。 Here's a friendly reminder: for me, this is the end of the whole story. However, in order to make up for the regrets and unfinished intentions of the pros.,It will be released one after another later.,When you choose an extra.,Please look at the title name (because it corresponds to the three ending branches) and then enter the pit.。 ^_^ Thank you all and love for all of you.