What is yourself? Right now? Past? Future?

The current self is what I like, and I control my own life and destiny, even if I die, I will die in the pursuit. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

The past self is another person I hate, like a fool, at the mercy of others. Who can say for sure what the future holds?

The willful doesn't want to recall the past, and the past is also a part of his life, Lin Li should face it.

When Lin Li found Suleimanno and said that he asked to enter the dream, even Sulaimanno was startled, after all, it was not a good dream under the power of his fear.

Some people can't grow in their whole life, and some people experience one thing and become enlightened.

Lin Li knew this clearly, and wanted to see if he was a dragon or a worm, whether he would sink like that maid, or whether he would bravely break through his fear and welcome himself.

The nightmare began.

It was an autumn, the season of falling leaves, the cold wind was gentle, I stepped on the fallen leaves and returned home, I didn't come back for half a month, and there was a musty smell in the house.

After graduating from school, I couldn't live in the orphanage, and when I grew up, I needed to earn a living independently, and for as long as I can remember, I was stronger than anyone else.

When I was very young, as far as I can remember, I grew up in an orphanage, without parents and without family.

My friends always come and go in a hurry, but I never leave.

The dean said that he would send me to school when school started, but I didn't even go to kindergarten, I didn't recognize pinyin characters, I was stupid, teachers, didn't like me.

I was stronger than anyone else, and after a year, I was the first in my grade every time, but no one came to praise me, and my classmates hated me even more, I didn't have my own room, and I didn't have a place to put my awards.

When I was in middle school, I saw a comic book at the same table, I was very enthusiastic, I had a group of peers I could trust, chasing my dreams, I believed that one day, I would be able to succeed, and I would too, have one, home.

At the end of the nine-year compulsory education, my grades could go to high school, but the orphanage could not afford my schooling, and they drove me away because I was an adult, and I could be stronger than anyone else.

The 21st century is the age of the Internet, and I have gone from a workshop worker to a clerical job, and although the salary is not as good as that of the workshop, it is finally not so hard.

The manager said that she had a niece who was in college studying art, and the parents of the rural children wanted her to get married early, and strive to fall in love during college and get married after graduation.

Like me, my family is poor, my parents want to find an honest person, and the manager said that she thought of me first, because I am very honest, I have no parents, and I will not be angry when I marry.

That winter, she stood in the snow, she was waiting for me, as if she were my future.

We fell in love, and according to her parents, I wanted to get married after she graduated, and we held hands and walked through the ups and downs of the year.

Later, she told me that she had graduated and did not want to stay in the poor soil of her hometown, and she longed for prosperity.

She's gone, spending all my money and all my attachments.

My job was gone, the manager fired me, and they called me stupid because I was supporting a girl to go to school for two years.

I know I'm doing it wrong, but I'm going to be stronger than anyone else.

With all the savings I had from my resignation, I came to Shenzhen and wanted to create my own sky, but the sky was still out of reach, no matter how hard I worked, no matter how hard I worked, I could not always be recognized by others.

They bullied me, laughed at me, mocked me.

Why don't I have parents?

Why don't I have a house?

Why don't girls like me?

They, everything.

Why? They all have it!

I started to stop liking the world, it was always bullying me, but I had to work hard and earn a small salary.

The walls in the south are thinner than in the north, because there is no snow and ice in the south, but there are things that are colder than snow and ice.

The old boy in the next room brought back a woman, this is the first girlfriend he has had? I forgot.

The voices next door were nasty, but they made me yearn for it, and although I hadn't done it, I knew what they were doing, and I began to let myself hate them.

Why? I didn't!

Why should I be so strong?

He's a bad guy and he's getting all the time, and I've tried so hard and I'm getting nothing.

Recently, I have become more and more reluctant to go home, I got sick and went to the hospital, they said I am mentally ill, you are mentally ill, I just don't like the world.

I didn't come back for half a month, and there was a musty smell in the house. Tidy up the room, turn on the mobile phone to watch anime, and I've been chasing it for more than ten years, and the only comfort in my heart is it.

When I started working again, a beautiful new colleague came to the office, looking at me with blinking eyes, a hole in the corner of her dress, and I was the only one in the whole office who had needle and thread, and I helped her sew it.

She was so happy that she handed me her own glass of water and drank the water from the cup as if my lips were touching hers, and the water was so sweet that I was so sweet that I could relish.

This is the first time I want to fight for myself and for someone else, I like her.

She is a little girl, she can't do anything well, she always likes me to help her, every time I can't bear to refuse, and I stay up late to finish her work.

I seemed stupid and always subconsciously tried to help her, but she didn't like me and refused to go on a date with me, leaving me alone to work overtime until dawn.

She's using me, I know, but I don't want to believe it.

They seemed to be right, I seemed to be really mentally ill, and I could feel that I couldn't hold back my emotions and wanted to ruin it all.

I confessed to her, but I was laughed at badly, I will not be ashamed again, starting today.

The National Day holiday began, but I had to work overtime for the manager, and he took her and left. Seven days off, they went for seven days, and I had to work seven days overtime.

The anime is refreshed, it's very good, it would be nice if you were born in the world of One Piece, do whatever you want, everything is decided by power, you don't have to sulk, and you have no regrets even if you die.

Perhaps, people's dreams can only be realized in the unreal.

The eyes suddenly became psychedelic and distorted in space and time, and through the fog, it was impossible to see ahead.

Dreams come and go, over and over again, the same reincarnation, and I'm tired of watching it.

I don't want to live for anyone else, even if no one approves of me, I want to break everything, I believe in my power.

As soon as he thought of this, Lin Li's eyes flashed with fierce light, his eyes were like torches, full of wisdom and madness, and then, he returned to calm, and the ferocity was buried in the bottom of his heart, just like the demon king staring at this world.

I didn't know that I was a guest in my dream, and the cold wind and autumn dreams gathered and dispersed.

In the past, I accepted you, and I didn't hate you anymore, it was you who made me grow, and my dreams should be awakened.

Tears rolled down my cheeks, and I woke up from my dream.

"Oh my God! You finally woke up, do you know that you have been sleeping for three days and three nights, no matter what I call you, the doctor can't help it, and the power of fear can't be recovered. As soon as Lin Li woke up, he heard Suleymano's chatter in his ears.

The body is very weak, but the consciousness is very clear, I don't know if it is an illusion, Lin Li seems to be able to feel the flow of blood in his body, and his whole body is ethereal.

By looking at the ceiling, Lin Li could feel the outside world, it was very big, and the perception range of seeing and hearing domineering was expanded to fifty meters, and the feeling was clearer. Unexpectedly, the armed color domineering has not yet achieved results, but the color domineering has advanced by leaps and bounds and entered the second stage.

Rather than sitting on a lotus flower and realizing the Dharma life, I would rather be enlightened in a pool of blood.