Verse 123: I don't understand
From going to the hospital, to having an accident, to being discharged from the hospital, although it was only a few days, it always felt like the next year. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info
I always feel that many things seem to have changed subtly.
Special patients in the hospital.
A different kind of SWAT.
The Living Dead
A lawsuit that ended inexplicably
Frightened boss
Huge debts that have fallen suddenly
Not a human debt collector
……
Pile by pile, piece by piece......
These things are as ridiculous as dreams.
But I know that no matter how incredible I feel, these things are happening, and they are happening right next to me.
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At night, I had trouble sleeping.
I don't even know how my spirit is so good now?
The family members all fell asleep, and they walked out alone.
I don't know why I want to go out, it seems that my depressed mood needs to be released.
Out of the courtyard gate, all the way to the east.
The silver moon is like a hook, illuminating the cold night.
For some reason, such a night gives people a feeling of depression.
It's late at night, and it's supposed to be quiet.
But there is no sound all around, giving people a sense of dead silence, even if it is a dog barking, there should be a few sounds, right? Why is it so quiet?
All the way to the east, there will be a field there.
Yes, I just want to go to that field!
Even if it is difficult to sleep, I go out for a walk alone, the important thing is that I suddenly think of those strange experiences in the array, and strange skills, I want to make the illusion I once thought become a reality, only when I am really strong, can I protect my family and the people I love, isn't it?
The night breeze is slightly chilly.
Silver frost pavement.
Standing on the edge of the field, I looked far away, the nearby field seedlings swayed gently with the wind, this wheat seedling has not yet grown, in the moonlight has long lost its normal color, in the dark shining silver light, dotted with stars, in the distance is a patch of trees and grass, black and dark some seeping.
"Who is it?! Sneaky" A soft cry came from inside, and then a figure split up and pounced backwards. After a while, he came back in high spirits.
I looked at this person like me, and saw her come back with a displeased face, and without saying much, she sat down gently.
"Aren't you nervous? Aren't you worried about the person who just wanted to kill you? She asked in surprise.
"I'm not even afraid of you anymore, what am I afraid of?" I sat on the grass with my chin on my knees, letting the night dew wet my clothes.
"Don't you ask who it was just now?!"
"You caught it?" I asked rhetorically.
"Oh, no."
I said no more, so I didn't ask.
"You're very good today!" I looked at it, not used to having the same face as myself appearing across from me, but it was her female grimace that made me feel more comfortable looking at it than this one. "Don't change into my appearance, you should be yourself, be who you are."
She was a little aggrieved, and her face was even more unsightly.
"You're not happy? Didn't show up for a day today. I asked.
"It's that you're not happy, and I'm not happy if you're not happy."
"So you didn't show up all day?"
"I don't know the point of my presence, you don't seem to need me at all!" She's a little choked.
"Are you unhappy because you don't have power, you don't have money, you don't have power? I can help you have all of these, let's really take the contract to the extreme, and all people will surrender to us! She swore by it.
"So confident?" I couldn't help but laugh.
"Really!" It thought I believed and was in a hurry.
"Do you really think that this brings happiness to people?" I asked rhetorically.
"Can't you? Why are you different from others? The female ghost was a little sad.
"Oh? How is it different? "I'm a little absent-minded.
"Before, when my host had me, they would be ecstatic, they needed me, there was no contract between us, they had to listen to me. But now, I feel like you don't need me at all! I feel like I can't see through you, I can't understand you. Their happiness is very simple, they will be happy if they have money and power, but your heart seems to be so complicated, so complicated! ”
"I need you, or what am I going to do in this wilderness? My heart is not complicated, but you don't understand it yet. I said with a faint smile.
"yes, why are you here?"
"Give me the tricks you applied to me in the formation." I said to the female ghost.
"Do you need to learn? All you have to do is give me your whole heart and I'll do it all for you! "The female ghost said.
"Are you Nuan'er?" I'm not sure about asking the female ghost.
"Sort of, I have memories of the day, but I don't like the childish me during the day."
I frowned, unable to understand the ghost with such a strong split personality, but had to accept it.
"You'd better call me Bloodflower." She said.
"I don't know where you come from, maybe fate really can't separate us, but we are ultimately independent, we have a contract, we can share the energy we get, but we all have to be strong so that in the end, we can survive independently. Don't you wish you could be in the world without being attached to others? I asked.
"I don't know, I don't know, I just know, I don't understand, I don't understand, I don't understand. You refuse me to explore your heart, why, why?! "The female ghost is a little lonely.
"There is no why, because you are not my puppet, and I am not your puppet, I hope you can be really strong, we can be friends, we can cultivate together, complement each other, we will be strong together!"
"What's a friend?!" The female ghost looked at me and asked in confusion.
"Friends?" I thought about it for a while, maybe I really can't say this word in a sentence or two, "It is the heart and the heart, and the weal and woe are shared." ”
"That's it!" I tried to hold her hand, but found that I was holding a piece of nothingness, "When you have a real entity, when you can hug me, shake my hand, maybe you'll understand." I smiled at her.
"So teach me some skills so that I don't pull you and the stone back!" I laughed.
"Stones?" She looked dazed.
"It's Chiyu!" I laugh.
"Oh." She looked at me and nodded slightly.
"Also, money and power are never the rarest and most precious things in the world." I nodded to the female ghost.
She nodded a little dazedly, and shook her head again: "Then what is the most precious thing in the world?" ”
"Love!"
"Love?!"
I smiled, "Okay, don't ask, you will understand when you really understand the world, now, as my contractor, help me become stronger, okay?!" ”
"Okay!"
I only feel now that this female ghost, under the terrifying surface, has an incomparably simple and simple heart.
It's just that it used to look at money, power, and killing so casually, I wonder what will happen in the future? (To be continued.) )