Verse 36: My body is my way
"Hold on! Make a pact with me, or you'll be overwhelmed by these yin qi! You will be seduced by their remaining resentment, and you will die a terrible death! Fast! "The female ghost began to tempt me again at this time. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info
I was too painful to answer her, but in my heart I gritted my teeth and refused.
"Quickly conclude a contract with me, so that I can fully absorb them and make you an extraordinary being, hurry, believe me!"
"Die! Also, it can't be! "I tried to speak, but I found that these few words were all the sound of bubbling and smelly blood.
"You can't! You can't be so stubborn! Do you know? This is all thousands of years old souls, the power of the Yin Spirit is extraordinary, I'm sorry, I don't know, with my current ability, I can't absorb that much at all, you have to make a covenant with me to become invincible, you can't give up yourself like this, I'm done when you're done, you know? She was almost already yelling, and I felt her immense anxiety, but my heart was filled with joy! You almighty gods, if I don't want to, how can you endure me?!
"I really haven't seen anyone like you, I'm convinced, I'm wrong? How many people have paid a huge price for my strength, and you are so disgusted, you are a fool, an idiot, you really damn it, oh my God! How could I fold it in your hands......" She was incoherent, one moment to coax, one moment to apologize, and another time to scold, the more she spoke, the more urgent she became, the more and more she did not listen, but I tried to suppress my pain, laughed happily in my heart, felt her helplessness, and a kind of self-satisfaction and incomparable pleasure of Ah Q spirit surged in my heart. What if I'm weak?! The weak also have the inviolable dignity and principles of the weak!
And at this time, my red jade began to flash again, and as soon as I felt it flash, I couldn't help but have a palpitation, and every time it flashed frequently, it was a bad idea.
Sure enough, after it flashed, I suddenly felt a burning pain all over my body, and then I heard the female ghost shout and my body jumped.
"Ouch, can't I stop threatening her? But she doesn't listen to me, oops, you are something else! I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I apologize to her...... Oh, my goddess, I really shouldn't be fierce with you, as long as you are willing to make a contract and not let you be my puppet and slave, let's sign an equal contract, okay?! "The first half of her sentence seems to be saying to Chiyu, and the second half of the sentence is to me, her words are always crazy, and I am used to listening to it, and I can understand it.
The female ghost softened, it seems that Chiyu gave her power, but this stupid Chiyu, I don't know if giving this female ghost a lot of power now is tossing me?! Just know that it won't have any good ideas, and who can guarantee that it wasn't intentional?!
"Can't you do that? What kind of existence did I think of as a blood sunflower? Want me to obey you and be your puppet or slave? That's impossible, huh! Seeing that I didn't answer her words, the female ghost named Blood Aoi continued to talk to herself.
I heard her noise as if I hadn't heard it, because I didn't want to answer now, and even more because I really didn't have the strength to answer now, anyway, my life was almost at the end of it, and she was able to pull a cushion before she died, and she was not lonely on the Huangquan Road, besides, she was an old ghost, and the road must be familiar......
"How can you think like that, no, no, no......"
The female ghost existed in my mind, and she knew my resolute state of mind best at this time, so she couldn't help but cry out in a panic.
In the midst of excruciating pain, I made a sinister smile.
Hmph, even if it's death, my body is my decision!!
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I felt that the strength of my body was getting smaller and smaller, I even felt a sense of relief, and the pain seemed to be getting lighter and lighter, and in the hazy consciousness, the overlapping mirrors in front of me were shattered layer by layer, like a dream world shattered into sparkling fragments, but I reflected the ugly body, looking at myself in the mirror, for some reason, the silver and cold figure slipped through my mind.
"Remember! Don't run around! Wait for me! "The cold sound made me feel warm and safe.
Is it because he is an emotionless god who has never shown a trace of disgust in me, who saved me and communicated with me so plainly? So there will be no disgust and disgust either?!
I really didn't expect that when I was dying, this life-saving benefactor with only one side would flash in my mind, maybe because the grace of saving my life is greater than the sky? Maybe it's because he's a light that appears when he's most desperate?! But in the end, I still took his life-saving grace and let him work in vain.
There was even a helpless smile on my lips.
The flickering of the red jade and the painful and panicked cries of the female ghost have all been repelled and floated outside of my consciousness.
The disillusionment of the world in countless mirrors is like the thousands of thoughts in my heart being shattered little by little, and finally all of them are helpless.
The whole world became ethereal.
There was no boundless darkness around me, and even those shiny floating soul fragments had become my meal, and I felt a huge feeling of nausea and nausea at the thought of them, but unfortunately now I didn't even have the strength to vomit.
Suddenly, a soft light came from afar, so bright, it seemed that there was a peace and quiet, there was no more pain and struggle, there was no more pain and struggle, a sound of heaven came slowly, intoxicating, my heart was tempted, so longing for the quiet beauty, but for some reason, my heart was a little sad, unconsciously, tears slipped down, that was tears......
In the hazy eyes of tears, I saw two soft figures beckoning to me in the light, I tried to see clearly, I felt the infinite tolerance and love emanating from them, that feeling made me so longing, as if I could not ask for a luxury in my life, and my tears flowed more......
I saw it clearly, and finally I saw it clearly, they had a doting smile and kept waving to me, and that smile was so warm that it seemed to be able to contain all my embarrassment and guilt.
I am a person with a guilty soul, and I can't forgive myself for treating my relatives so badly, making this home shattered like a broken candle in the wind. And I had to bear the debt of conscience and have the cheekiness to survive......
Sometimes, I really want to skin myself and put it in the sun in a bloody place to punish myself for my vicious and bloodless murder!
And now I'm finally free! How I wish my father and my brother had spoken in person, they forgave me for my willfulness and anxiety, and now I seem to have gotten ......
They were smiling and waving to me, they had already heard my apology, and they laughed and said that they had forgiven me for not being careful......
It was the deliverance that my heart longed for, the only salvation that could cleanse my soul, no longer allow me to carry on my sins, and to unburden me from my deep guilt and pain......
I crawled with difficulty, squirming in that direction step by step, using all the strength of my body, constantly approaching there, even the restless flickering of the red jade and the frightened screams of the female ghost could not be seen or heard, and there was only a glimmer of light in my eyes......