"The person who drives the tram drives the tram. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoUnder the sun, the tram tracks are like two glittering curved cockroaches drilled out of the water, elongated and shortened; It lengthened, and it shortened, and it just moved forward like this—silky, old elder, unfinished, unfinished...... The tram driver's eyes were fixed on the two creeping tracks, but he didn't go crazy. ”

I fell asleep in the high math class, and was woken up helplessly by Qin Wan, after going to eat, Qin Wan went to listen to the Western art major class, and Su Rong accompanied me to listen to the Chinese language class, today is Zhang Ailing's short story, "Blockade", she read this first sentence.

I don't have a deep impression of Zhang Ailing's novel, but this sentence is quite distinctive, so that the first time I heard this sentence, I remembered the general story.

The female teacher standing on the podium, with long wavy hair and a brocade coat and ermine fur, looked very Zhang Ailing's style.

"The beginning of Zhang Ailing is always very interesting, seemingly boring, but it represents a special artistic conception, just like the countless bleak stories in this night of ten thousand lights, don't say it. At the beginning of each of Zhang Ailing's articles, she always has to summarize the entire intention in general. The whole dull, unchanging and irritating day-to-day life, a life that does not desire to change, is presented very clearly and clearly in front of everyone. I don't know how many times higher than those so-called chicken soups, and I can write such a essence with just a few strokes, which shows how well the literati at that time of Zhang Ailing observed Shanghai in this old era? ”

"Everyone should know more about this story, and I let you preview it last time, which student can summarize the synopsis of this story?"

The female teacher picked Su Rong casually, "Yes, it's this classmate, it's pleasing to the eye, come, tell me about it?" ”

"In fact, in this story, in the emergency lockdown environment, a man wishfully felt that he wanted to find a lover impulsively, and the girl was moved, but as soon as the man was over, he gave up completely, pretending to ask for a number, and even if he finally got home and had the opportunity to make that call, he still gave up the change, like a bad seed, and continued to live in his own comfortable rules." Su Rong said mercilessly.

"I can't say that this man is a bad breed, in addition, I basically agree with your generalization, this is a kind of sadness of a small person, it is powerless to change, he has no ability and courage to cheat, this is from another point of view, isn't it also responsible for the family? After all, they are all 30-year-old men, and after the age of establishment, they have their own children and a stable family, if they give up everything they have for the sake of such a woman, is it another degree of irresponsibility? ”

Zhang Ailing longs for change, and her restless soul jumps between her words, she herself and Hu Lancheng, a character similar to a traitor, have had a controversial love story, she herself is the existence of lover attributes, and she can't become a qualified wife, so we can see from this article that Zhang Ailing's inner depression is precisely because she is such an easily emotional person, and what she is facing, the so-called beloved man, is just a scumbag who hallucinates herself in the blockade, and her restlessness, her joy, is also built on the destruction of another hope, so she is a very tangled, a lot of sentimental women, that is, full of restlessness, but also full of uneasiness. ”

"So, can any of you tell us why this uneasiness arises?" The teacher's hand pointed at me next to Su Rong again, "It's you, sitting next to the pleasing female classmate, looking at a boy who is not too ordinary, you can talk about it." ”

Many classmates naturally don't know my face, and I am indeed a strange uninvited guy, but for this question, I am still easy to answer, "Because the society was in turmoil at that time, Zhang Ailing's heart was also in turmoil at that time, she was eager to change, but she was always afraid of paying that huge price, she herself was too, and she was entangled in the balance and imbalance for a lifetime, I personally believe that Zhang Ailing's uneasiness comes from the ambiguity of her inner appeal, and the life and death of her novels are all blurred, The hope that dissipated in the haze was all despair in waiting, because in the end, she found that under her gorgeous robe, she was nothing more than a poor person deceived by love. ”

"That's a good point, this classmate, you can directly add five points to the final grade."

"Well, teacher, I'm not a student of the Z University, I followed the pleasing female classmate you just said to audit, otherwise you can add the score directly to her name, her name is Su Rong."

After I said this, the eyes of the rest of the ordinary people in the entire ladder classroom looked at me, this is a big class after all, when Su Rong looked at me, there was a smile on his face that did not match usual, and my relationship with Su Rong was almost quite clear.

"Oh, followed Su Rong to audit? Is she your girlfriend? ”

Su Rong blushed and poked me, my cheeks were also a little hot, in front of so many people, I still nodded, "Teacher, there is no need to delve into this question, I'm not embarrassed." ”

"Now that you are in love freely, you are not as immutable as the middle-aged man in the blockade, and Su Rong is not the girl you pursued on impulse, it can be seen from your words that your understanding of Zhang Ailing is not superficial, since you deny the despair of waiting in the vague and hazy, why be embarrassed, isn't the flower of your love blooming warmly and luckily?" The female teacher said with a smile.

Looking at me, there was still envy and jealousy, but they were basically polite and restrained, but Su Rong's shy appearance at the moment with her head down must be a scenery that they had never seen before.

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At the end of the first class, it was 7:45, I gently kneaded Su Rong's hand, and then begged her to let me go, "I'm going to find Lao Wu at 8 o'clock, Rongrong, I'll go first!" Don't forget to take the gift box home! ”

"Okay, go ahead, big villain, I left me here alone after bullying me, huh!"

"Oh Rongrong, is this a special situation, be considerate, be considerate of the leader, look at me, I'm this..."

"Okay, okay, for the sake of you remembering my Christmas gift, I'll let you go this time, I'll go back with Wan'er, you go first, if there's any situation at night, call me!"

"Well, you must remember! My phone stays open! I waved my hand and walked outside, temporarily locking my love in the teacher's classroom, I was going to go with Lao Wu to squander this night that was already in the hustle and bustle!! (To be continued.) )