Not everyone is able to cry. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

Sometimes, for some reason, because of something, someone has to hold back tears. Sanae of Dongfenggu has a full and profound understanding of this. If her mother once said that if tears can't flow out of her eyes, they will flow out of the cracks in her heart, then Sanae Kazuya feels that there must be a big crack in her heart.

Sanae Tokoya, who was despised by the vampire with such disdain, even if he was abandoned, even if he was betrayed by that person, and in the end he was still eager to sacrifice his last worthless life for his dream like an addict.

She lay on the bed in her room, the quilt over her body, and her eyes looked out of the sliding door. It's almost noon now, and for a diligent child like Sanae in the East Wind Valley, let alone noon, it's usually before the sun rises that he will get up to finish the shrine maiden's morning class, clean up the main court god domain, and say hello to the two gods, and then he will start to think about how to get close to the person who is just smiling but always unable to get close today.

But now, she's just lying on the bunk with her head sideways. Today's weather was wonderful, the sun was too warm for winter, the blue sky washed by snow, the snow-covered ground in the courtyard, and the small lake that the two gods had moved along with the shrine beyond.

She just tilted her head sideways to look at the winter scene that was different from the past, but the focus of her eyes never condensed.

It had been days since then, but she had never been able to make herself cry.

Why?

Now Dongfeng Valley feels very strange, and he is too lazy to think about anything, and he is too lazy to look at it. She just lay under the covers, not bothering to move a finger.

If you can, you don't even want to breathe.

The girl's gaze remained at its angle, but after a while, the sound of approaching footsteps could be heard on the side of the sliding door. After two seconds, on the edge of the sliding door, the god wearing a big hat walked in, and was stunned when he saw Sanae Fudongya looking sideways with her eyes open, and then walked to the other party's side.

As he walked, the god noticed that the other's gaze was not following him, and he was still motionless towards the white world outside the door.

The god sat down, and sat beside the maiden. She followed the girl's gaze, looked at the white world outside the door with the other party, and went farther and farther, until she couldn't reach it.

"The snow has stopped."

So said the gods. Sanae Dongfang Gu didn't react, just kept her gaze, but she didn't know where it had fallen. The little god was not angry at the silence of the other party, but just looked far away at the calm lake. The snow in the sun warms people's hearts, shining with a slightly harsh white light.

“…… The snow stopped. ”

Sanae Toshiya repeated the other party's words like a repeater. The god withdrew his gaze and glanced at the girl, but the girl just continued to look at the slightly dazzling white snow, and let out a breath, and the light in her eyes seemed to be carried out by this breath.

"It's so cold in the snow this time......"

She said softly, shrinking slightly into the covers. The god heard her say this, and only looked at her with some sadness.

"Got up?"

"Hmmm......"

Sanae nodded her head, but her body kept shrinking into the quilt, almost shrinking her head into the quilt. She made a gurgling sound.

"Suwako-sama ......"

Her eyes were on the edge of the quilt, wandering aimlessly.

"Is he back?"

Suwako knew who she was talking about, and Kanako often asked Tengu about it, so now she was able to answer Sanae Higashiya.

"Not yet."

"That's right. You've gone to the Demon Realm, haven't you? ”

Sanae Fukoya's voice sounded much calmer than Suwako expected. It was almost like words that had been carefully thought out before coming out, Sanae's face, Sanae's gaze, and Sanae's tone all revealed the same feeling as returning to a calm lake.

It's like the lake she's looking forward to.

Sanae of Togashiya struggled to get up from under the covers. Her movements were stiff, as if she had slept for too long, but she insisted on sitting herself up, then straightening herself up and looking at the god she served.

"I'm sorry, Suwako-sama, Sanae was lazy today, and I caused trouble to Suwako-sama."

As she spoke, she bent down with her hands on the ground and made a seat under the earth. Suwako didn't say anything, just looked at her and apologized, then nodded.

"I've forgiven you."

"Thank you for your magnanimity."

Sanae lowered her head a little again before raising her head again.

"I'm going to change my clothes and catch up on my morning class right now. I forgive you for your retirement. ”

Then the girl stood up and went to change into her own outfit that Feng Zhu was wearing. Suwako looked at her back as she left, still silent.

She just lowered her head and looked at the quilt that the girl had lifted.

"Forgot to make the bed, this is your first time, Sanae."

Even if you forget such a thing, how can it be so calm on the surface.

The young god stretched out his hand and placed it in the quilt. There was a hole in the air after the girl's residual body temperature dissipated into the air little by little, but no one would notice all this, unless she reached out and pressed it on it like Suwako, feeling the temperature that could not be retained.

Time drifted away in the snow with the sound of Sanae Dongfang, who had dressed in winter clothes to celebrate the wind, shaking the rope and making the bell ring.

Kanako Yasaka is also back. She sat on the roof of the shrine with Suwako, watching Sanae Toshikaya sweep the snow out little by little on the Shinto.

"Now, Kanako."

Suwako looked at Sanae Dongya who looked like she was normal, but in the details of the movements, there was a little less of the girl's usual energetic movements, and spoke.

"I want to see cherry blossoms."

“…… I want to, too. ”

Kanako Yasaka let out a long sigh.

"This year's snow is cold again."

The two of them didn't speak again, just looked down at Sanae and her broom.

This is the second day of the east wind valley Sanae. It seems that last night's frustration is all in the past, it seems that she doesn't care about being betrayed at all, and it seems that she has let go of all the tears she has paid for it.

If that's the case, that's all it would be nice -- it's not unprecedented.

Wake up early, go to class, sweep, pray, receive visitors, and offer the blessings of the gods to them with a smile. Sanae Kazuya is still the same Sanae Kazuya Valley, she has removed her personal emotions, and is so single-minded that she almost wants to integrate herself into her work as if she were doing the work of Feng Zhu.

Failure has become an unshakable fact, and what she had thought before has also come true, Sanae Dongdongya knows, and she also had a premonition, after all, the dream she fell asleep on the young man's shoulder was too beautiful.

Dreams are reversed.

Sanae of Dongfang Valley truly realized the true meaning of this sentence. Maybe if there was no dream, if Yutong Shiai was not so gentle in that dream, she must have soothed her unwilling emotions a little now.

The girl is still trying to live each day well. In this way, the days passed with the snowflakes little by little, and it was almost the end of the year, and the number of visitors increased. Sanae Kazuya sometimes asks herself, maybe just by stuffing herself with such a job, she can not think about the facts that make it difficult for her to make a choice and feel powerless.

Suwako chose to be silent, and Kanako also stood beside her without speaking. No matter what the future is, for Sanae in the East Wind Valley, it is also the future that only belongs to the East Wind Valley Sanae, and it can only be chosen by the East Wind Valley Sanae alone.

Yakumo Purple has been here. She wanted to talk to Sanae Toshiya. Sanae didn't say anything to this sage who had taken care of herself, but just smiled and watched Yakumo Murasaki engage in a barrage battle with her own family's Kanako-sama.

It's weird.

Sanae felt strange about herself. ,I can face the person closest to that person so plainly.,I can smile and say something like "it's okay" to the concern of the monster sage.。

Do you still want to share that person's worries? Or does it really matter if you do it yourself?

Sanae Dongfangya didn't know, she was like a different soul, she felt that the things she had always seen, the past she had experienced were someone else's, and her current self was just a bystander, obviously she had so much to say in her heart before, and everything that was soaked in her with such thick emotions, but now she was as calm as a passerby, so that she felt strange.

She was still able to laugh, and she was able to gently say to Yakumo and Kanako, who had returned to the temple, "Are the two adults having fun?" I can just stop thinking about the past and live such a life without a sense of reality.

Sanae felt that it was all like a dream, she had been living in dreams all along, and she was now. I can't touch anything, I can't feel the slightest bit of sadness or depression that I should have. If there must be something that still exists, maybe the only thing left is unwillingness.

For Sanae in the East Wind Valley, that person is indeed very important, but the two adults in her own family, the two adults who watched her grow up, are also very important people to her. If she can't get together with that person, she wants to at least live up to her identity as a wind blessing.

After all, love is not all there is to life...... Right?

Dongfeng Valley asked himself. But no one gave an answer in her heart, and she wouldn't ask anyone. She was like a vampire who didn't want to think about anything, didn't want to go back to Gensokyo, didn't want to disappear Yakumo Murasaki and Hakurei Reimu, and didn't want to be the one who also disappeared.

The days go by, maybe it will go on like this?

After saying goodbye to Yakumo Purple, he took a snowflake and felt its coldness, Sanae of Dongfeng Valley thought so.

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