With such a heavy family matter, I really can't compare with him, and his pain is about 100 times that of mine. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

I look down on him so much, I am so guilty, if others live strongly, what reason do I have to think that others are inferior?

What is the difference between me and those who gossip about me behind my back?

I'm not that kind of person, at least I don't want to admit it, I want to be a good person, be a good sister, and be a good example for my younger siblings.

I can't look down on him, I can't feel pity for him, even a poor person like me can pity him, what a desperate thing.

"Brother Ling's father's departure is not the kind of departure that goes home once a year, but the departure of going out for more than ten years without going home once, and maybe he will not come back in the future.

As a father, the only responsibility he fulfills is to pay a few hundred yuan a month for living expenses to Brother Ling, and when he sees Uncle Jue in the future, he must scold him severely. Summer said with a pout.

It's no different from an orphan, and I began to think that his father was a bit too much, and whispered, "Without parents and friends, it will be very lonely......"

"It's okay, there's still me", Xia patted his chest and said, "I will always play with Brother Ling, so that he is not alone." ”

Hearing this, I couldn't help but ask, "Are you his own brother?" ”

Summer shook his head and said, "I'm not Brother Ling's own brother, but it's almost the same." By the way, big sister, what are you looking for Brother Ling? ”

I grasped the sentence and said, "Well, he hasn't been to school for a few days, and the teacher asked me to come over and pay him a visit, and by the way, I will return this umbrella to him." ”

"Ah......", Summer saw the umbrella and exclaimed: "Isn't this the umbrella I gave to Brother Ling." I asked him about the umbrella the other day, and he said it was at school.

I was already in poor health, and I went home in such a heavy rain, but I caught a cold for two days.

Anyway, why is this umbrella here with you, big sister? ”

Sure enough, I felt a little guilty in my heart, and said, "Actually, he gave the umbrella to ...... that day."

"Why are you here?"

Before I could finish my sentence, I was interrupted by a voice at the door, and I turned my head to see him standing in the doorway with a numb face.

Summer calmly waved his hand and greeted: "Oh, Brother Ling, you're back." ”

Jue Ling changed into slippers and walked in, sat down next to Summer, and asked, "Xiaotian, didn't you say that you lost the key last time, tell me, how did you enter the door now?" ”

Xia Yaya said, "I found it again." ”

"Take it out", Jue Ling stretched out his hand and asked for the key.

"It's gone again just now, probably it fell in Brother Ling's house, you look carefully at night, and when you find it, tell me." Summer never speaks logically.

Jue Ling patted Summer's head, but a doting emotion could be experienced on his flat face: "Then you can find the key and go home!" ”

"Ah, Brother Ling, the big sister opposite is your tablemate, and he came to see you specifically", Xia diverted the topic.

I was looking at these two people across from me for a long time, and they finally reminded me. This is the first time I've heard his voice, though, and it's a very gentle male voice.

I didn't come to see him specifically, but when I opened my mouth to defend myself, the symptoms of communication disorder suddenly came.

I don't know why, it's always hard for me to talk to my peers, and I feel like I'm thinking about whether I should say that sentence or not, which makes me feel distressed, but I can't restrain myself.

"That ......" I only uttered two words for a long time, and then forgot what to say next.

Jue Ling waited for a moment and said, "You can put the umbrella here, I will go back to school tomorrow, if it's okay, you can go back first." ”

What does that mean? Is there an eviction order? Anyway, I'm here to visit you, so don't you need to say thank you?

If you don't say it, at least you have to wait for me to say [thank you], so hastily drive me away, no wonder you have no friends.

I was very displeased, but I didn't show it, put the umbrella on the table, got up and asked, "That's ...... Why are you helping me? ”

Hearing this, Jue Ling lowered his head and thought for a long time, and said in a sad voice: "Because that's the meaning of my existence." ”

I don't understand what it means, is it the meaning of your life to help others?

Obviously a person who likes to be alone, but you say such words that sublimate your personality, how can others believe you?

If you don't help others, will you die?

Only a fool would believe this statement. And I'm like a fool.

Maybe I'm also sublimating myself, I can actually understand the heart contained in his words, which is an extremely sincere feeling.

His answer, I didn't know what to say, so I simply didn't respond, turned around and left his house.

The day after the visit.

Jue Ling did not miss the appointment and returned to school. But nothing seems to have changed, and no one is happy, sad, or sad about his return.

He also lived a solitary daily life by himself, and he didn't say a word to me.

Naturally, I wouldn't have taken the initiative to talk to him. It's like a cold war between us, but the real meaning never exists.

Time flies, and the daily routine flows like flowing water.

Today is the week before the graduation exam of the first half of my first semester of junior high school, and the physical education exam, music exam, and art exam will all be completed within today's day.

In the morning, I successfully completed the physical education exam, throwing shot put, high jump, long jump, sprint, and long-distance running, and I barely passed.

Then there was the music test in the afternoon, where I did some test paper questions first, and then sang a song on stage one by one.

Before I went on stage, I was always in a bad mood, how could it be possible to sing in front of people.

I even wanted to just follow Jue Ling's example, keep silent and choose to abstain.

If I can abstain, it will affect my student status and thus my perfect future.

For the sake of the future, I chose to go out and pluck up the courage to sing two lines on stage, only two lines, and only two sentences, and if I continue to sing, I will be so nervous that I will explode.

After the music exam, it's the art exam.

Students have an hour to visit the school and draw a sketch that the teacher will grade based on whether the student has drawn a portrait.

If I want to draw it, I really want to paint the forest in the back mountain.

No accident, I went to the back mountain and completed the work quickly.

I didn't go back to the art room right away, for fear that I would be hated for performing too well, so I was going to wait until the exam was almost over.

In this way, I played in the back mountain for dozens of minutes, and when I came to the art room, there was no one inside, everyone went to the classroom to gather, and I had to hurry back to the classroom to gather.

I felt uneasy about putting my painting on top, so I inserted my own painting in the middle.

But with such an action, he accidentally knocked over the ink next to the painting......