In fact, the most tragic torture in the world is not death, but to survive and not to die, are people who have been immersed in a rich life for many years, from birth with a golden spoon in their mouths, everything is done with the help of someone, nothing needs to be done by hands, and when it comes to doing it yourself, they find that they can't do anything, and those who have been with them don't know where they have gone. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

People's inferior nature is fully revealed at this time, no matter how deep the love is based on glory and wealth, and when there is a conflict of interest, nothing counts, the original ones are like a joke at this time, no one knows whether the emperor will be kind enough to let them go after this difficult life, but it is certain that their lives will never return to the harmony they once had. Once people's whispers are revealed, they may really turn their faces and deny people, but in fact, it is better to die than to live like this.

Qian Yun looked at the person in front of him, and the corners of his mouth hooked up a smile: "I was like this at the beginning, I didn't know anything, but in the days of Qinzhou City, I learned everything I thought I would never be contaminated in this life, sometimes life is really ironic, even if you have more things, if God decides to take it back, then you don't want anything." I used to think that our relationship could be repaired, but no matter how hard I tried, they didn't see me in their eyes, which was sad. Every time I think of the person who wanted to compromise at the beginning, I can't help but laugh at myself, you see that everything you have done will not be taken seriously by others, so why do this? It wasn't until I found out the true cause of my mother's death that I gave up, and I was suddenly glad that I hadn't been a wretched person to please someone else, otherwise I don't know how I would have hated myself. Maybe this is God's arrangement, not to let the hatred in people's hearts become swaying, because of them, and I have to live in regret and pain that I can never escape, this is really an unfair thing in the world. Why can you people sit back and enjoy the glory and wealth of others? This is your retribution, and eat the bitter fruit of your own brewing. ”

Zhu Zhao looked at her, although there was a very happy expression on her face, but what came out of her eyes was a piece of water, she was really a stubborn girl, she didn't know how much pain she cared about, but she still forced herself to laugh like this, and he felt pain in his heart. Sometimes he feels very powerless, no matter when, missing Qian Yun has become a scar in his heart that can't be erased no matter what, he remembers this woman, seeing that her heartache is a thousand times more uncomfortable than her, but when she needs help the most, why can't he lower his status, but he wants to fight with her with this ridiculous temper?

"They have received their due retribution, nothing here belongs to them, I will have people take them where they should go, now they feel more comfortable? I will let people sell the house here, and no one will have trouble with the silver, so I think this house should be easy to sell. After being greedy so much, it's time to pay it back. ”

What is the use of people who were excited to fight for their breath before suddenly collapsed on the ground after hearing such words? All the disputes and indignation are nothing under the power, looking at them actually giving them a way to live, in fact, it is like giving them a dead end that will not end, there are too many hardships and hardships on this road, and it is full of the most vicious and real ugliness of life. I've heard it before that when people are hungry, they can't see anything in their eyes, and the only thing that flashes in their minds is to find a way to fill their stomachs, to live, and to survive in nothing is important.

Old Lady Qian closed her eyes in despair, opened them for a long time, pointed at Qian Yun and sneered: "Your mentality is vicious, no matter what, the people here are all close relatives who are related to you by blood, how can you watch us fall into such a situation and ignore it?" If you are so vicious, no matter when you should be thundered by the sky, if you look at it, you will definitely not end well. ”

Qian Yun didn't speak, just looked at everything in front of her indifferently, she didn't know what to say, the people here had a faint sense of familiarity and more of a stranger, she looked coldly at Zhu Zhao calling people in and then taking people away, and after a long time, she looked at the night sky and laughed lowly.

What a rich and magnificent place it was, and the people who lived in it had been driven away by herself, but why didn't she feel the slightest joy and joy? What is it for? Why did she feel a faint sense of melancholy in her heart?

The personal eunuch beside Zhu Zhao asked respectfully: "It's so late, but the emperor wants to go back to the palace?" It's time for you to go back and rest after you've been tired for so long, Ming'er still has military and political affairs waiting for you to deal with, and the emperor has to take care of the dragon's body. ”

Qian Yun pursed his lips and smiled, looked at Zhu Zhao and said, "What he said is that you should have a good rest, I see that your face is not good-looking, how can you stand it for a long time?" Listen to me, don't stay up late, it's not good for anyone, if you get sick, it will only make people worry, and I can only watch from the side, nothing can help. ”

The corners of Zhu Zhao's lips rose, and a wave of joy rose in his chest, and he nodded with a smile: "Then let's go back to the palace, you go and arrange it first, and I will come right away." ”

After the confidant eunuch left, Zhu Zhaocai smiled and said, "There is nothing worth lingering here, if you say that the scenery is comparable to the scenery of the Imperial Garden?" If you go back to the palace with me, I can accompany you well. It's all like a dream, but my heart is extremely happy, for so many years, even if I won the world, I have never been so happy, Ah Yun, I am really grateful that you can be by my side, no longer blind to me like before. After so much time, I now feel how stupid I was at that time, in fact, the most greedy thing is just the days that can be with you for a long time. If I had seen through this earlier, I wouldn't have sulked childishly because you didn't like me, and I could only torture myself with these things in my heart, how funny it would be to think about it. ”

Qian Yun recalled that he was angry at that time, although he was a person who rarely exposed his expression to the outside, but once or twice his face was very ugly, she didn't pay attention to it at that time, thinking that it was her own fault at that time, which made him so tormented and sad. People sometimes do a lot of wrong things, and one day they will return it to each other, it's just a matter of time.

The night was deep, and at this time there was no one on the streets of the bustling capital, only the sound of these two carriages was particularly loud in the night. The horse's hooves struck her heart loudly, more like a time bell in her life, and it passed away. She saw satisfaction and joy on this man's face, just like a regained baby, which made her heart soften, it turned out that the feeling of being loved by someone in the depths of her heart turned out to be like this, very satisfied and happy, the regrets of the previous life will always remain in her heart, no matter what.

Maybe God really treats her well, let her use this method to make up for a person who is deeply in love with her, how sad it would be if such a person was immersed in loneliness for a long time. When she was about to reach the gate of the palace, the light emitted by the bright torches entered the carriage, and she asked softly: "If you don't see me like this in your life, do you plan to live like this for a long time?" You only make me feel like a big sinner, I can't stand you, and I don't even know how to repay you. ”

Zhu Zhao looked ahead, his eyes were like the sky outside the sky, the inside was vast, and it was easy to absorb all the people inside, so that people had no way to struggle to get out, it turned out that she didn't appreciate this man in her heart, maybe at that time it was just because she was too stubborn and unwilling so she would always be haunted, and she couldn't forget all the pain that Deng Yuancai inflicted on her, so she ignored her most real feelings for this man.

Zhu Zhao smiled and said: "I never thought of asking you to repay me, even now I feel that I owe you too much, if you are not by your side, maybe I can live just by missing you, until I am so old that I can no longer remember your appearance." ”

Qian Yun stretched out his hand and wanted to hold him, but the horizontal distance between the two made her unable to hold his hand no matter what she thought, this is really the most regrettable place in life, she can only see but can't touch it, but they still have to be grateful to God for giving them this opportunity in such a situation.

With Zhu Zhao, it is already very content to be able to talk to her like this, even he never thought that his life would be lost or happy for such a woman, I don't know how many women in the world are better than her, but in his eyes, he can only tolerate her alone, as if there is no reason that can be said, probably he is a natural infatuated person, he only cares about what he sees at a glance, the woman who can enter his heart, no matter what happens in the future, she may not be a good person he hopes for, But once it entered his heart, he never thought of letting her out in his life. All his obsessions and emotions were placed on her, because she was happy and happy, because of her sad and sad, and at one time he was so confused that he didn't know what kind of person he was, except for numbly dealing with political affairs, only in this way could he feel that he was a living person, and no one could intrude on his thoughts.

The carriage entered the palace gate, stopped in front of his dormitory, the night was really late and even a little cold, he stood aside and watched her get off the carriage with a smile, the two had already said that they would not say anything superfluous in front of outsiders, so as not to expose her traces and cause unnecessary trouble.

So until now, no one knew that there might be a ghost standing next to him, Zhu Zhao waved his hand and they went down, there were only two of them outside this huge dormitory, but it was rare and comfortable, and even the cold wind on the body didn't feel anything bad.

Qian Yun had a faint smile on her face, she walked beside Zhu Zhao and walked inside together, but when they walked up the steps, they saw a thin figure by the guardrail, that person had lost a lot of weight, and he was obviously very tired, but when he saw Zhu Zhao again, he still pulled out a touching smile, stepped up, and said softly: "I heard that the emperor left the palace at night, and the concubines came to take a look if they didn't worry, I didn't expect the emperor to stay outside for so long, it's really worrying." ”

Zhu Zhao subconsciously looked at Qian Yun, Yao Linlang glanced at Zhu Zhao's side in confusion, found nothing, and said with some curiosity: "What is the emperor looking at?" ”

Qian Yun looked at the haggard and emaciated Yao Linlang in front of him, and sighed in his heart, although this woman was arrogant, but her heart for Zhu Zhao had never changed, but it was a pity that God did not give her a number, so she suffered like this. What is the difference between her and her widowhood now? Although a woman stands by the side of her beloved man and shares these thousands of miles of rivers and mountains with him, what can she do? In the eyes of everyone, what people care about is not her identity, but whether she is really favored by the emperor, because this man who has the supreme power in the world, he can support you or deprive you of everything you have, nothing can compare to the emperor's true favor. But for Yao Linlang, she once thought that even if she couldn't get this man's love, it would be good as long as she could stand by his side, but she was wrong, although she was able to meet him in many things, but his coldness to herself made her feel tired and sad, this is really the most ironic thing in the world, she pounced on it hotly, and for this man, she is just a dispensable existence.

Zhu Zhao sighed, and said to her with a rare smile: "It's not too early, the queen should go back to the palace to rest early, on such a cold day, you are wearing thin clothes and be careful of getting into the cold." ”

Yao Linlang didn't expect him to say such intimate words to himself, the joy in his heart suddenly rose like a churning tide, no one could understand how happy and excited she was at this time, but such a person is easy to be dissatisfied, she wants to get away from him one step further, he has never touched himself since he got married, she has not had an heir for so many years, even the important ministers of the court have a statement, but the emperor is unmoved, but her heart is longing, even if one day he will not remember himself as the queen, But she can have a child that belongs to him, and it is enough for her to live this life strongly.

Zhu Zhao wanted to walk in the dormitory with his feet up, but when he saw that she was still standing beside him, he asked with a smile, "Do you have anything else?" I have commanded that you should be sent back. ”

Yao Linlang shook his head again and again, and refused: "Your Majesty, the concubine wants to serve the emperor today, and beg the emperor to give the concubine a grace, don't let the concubine be alone anymore, okay?" Living alone in a huge dormitory, it was really tormenting, so I begged the emperor. The concubine doesn't know what she did wrong, so she wants the emperor to ignore the existence of the concubine like this, if the concubine does something wrong, ask the emperor for guidance, and the concubine will work hard to correct it. People outside say that the concubine has fallen out of favor, and I am afraid that I will not be able to sit for a long time if I find a position, but the concubine does not want to believe it in her heart, the emperor is not such a ruthless person, we grew up together, and you have always taken care of me. The concubine doesn't want this face today, just thinking that the emperor can allow the concubine. ”

And Zhu Zhao felt extremely embarrassed at this time, he just wanted to sit with Qian Yun and talk well, and Yao Linlang's appearance made him feel unhappy somewhat, even if he cried no matter how much he cried, he couldn't accept it, so he didn't comfort it, but said in a deep voice: "No, I have other things to do today, I'm also very tired and need a good rest, you go back now, I'll visit you another day." ”

Yao Linlang didn't expect that all he gave to him was a moment of care, and when it came to serious things, there was only boundless seriousness and coldness, what could she do? She herself is desperate, and her father sighs angrily every time he sees her like this, and always says, if I had known that you had lived such a hard life in the palace, I would have made you hate me to death for the rest of your life, and I couldn't promise you to marry him. Who is this who has done the evil that has made you what you are today?

In fact, she knows that all the faults are caused by herself, and it has nothing to do with anyone, if she doesn't want to marry her wholeheartedly, her father won't be uncomfortable with her, she is actually a sinner, she hurts her most important person to suffer with herself, she is really a big unfilial daughter.

Yao Linlang looked shy and embarrassed and said: "Your Majesty, the concubine really doesn't want much, please fulfill the concubine's careful wish." ”

But she didn't know that it was his words that made Zhu Zhao lose face in front of Qian Yun, and he said love in his mouth, but he said some messy things to other women in front of her, which was unacceptable to Zhu Zhao. His face became even more cold, and he said in a deep voice: "Don't talk nonsense here anymore, go where you should go, otherwise don't blame me for being unkind to you, I promised you at the beginning, give you the dignity that a queen deserves, and you also promised me that I won't ask for more, and now it's really more and more excessive." Go, or I'll have someone send you away. ”

Zhu Zhao's face became more and more gloomy, and he strode towards the dormitory, without looking at the person behind him, and ignored her no matter how miserable she cried, in fact, he really had no intention of hurting anyone, but some things were not under his control, so he was forced to accept a person, but he forgot everything he had to bear, and at this time he felt cruel and helpless, but things have developed like this, and even he himself doesn't know what to do.

Yao Linlang stood outside for a long time, until the cold was numb, and the housekeeper next to her came over, so she could only give up and go back.

Walking into the house, a burst of heat rushed to his face, Qian Yun smiled and said: "I can actually feel the warmth here, it's really magical, in fact, the emperor is too strict with the queen, it can be seen that she is really good for you, otherwise she wouldn't be waiting for you here so late and so cold." ”

The light in the dormitory was a little dazzling, casting his shadow on the window, he looked at his shadow fixedly, it turned out that he thought it was too good, the world said that ghosts have no shadow and cannot see the light, why can she? He wished that she could have the same shadow as himself, so that she could hope to stay by his side all the time, but unfortunately none of this could come to fruition.

People are too greedy people, from the beginning of just wanting to see each other to the end of the day to want her to stay by his side forever, now he feels a little sleepy, but he is reluctant to sleep, for fear that when he wakes up, she is no longer by his side.

Qian Yun suddenly understood his intentions, and said with a sad and amused smile: "Actually, you don't have to be like this, I will always be by your side, and I may leave but only for a moment." You have to rest, what do you look like when you're haggard? It's worrying to watch. ”

Zhu Zhao thought about it and said: "There was no way to marry her at the beginning, at that time I needed her father's military power, but I can't tolerate anyone in my heart anymore, and I don't know why it became like this, but I always knew that I put you in my heart from the first time I saw you." I don't know why I can't pay more attention so that I don't have to feel sorry for others, but my heart doesn't allow me to do that, so this huge harem is like a cage, locking up the women I have never taken care of, and I can't get out of it myself, it's just a decoration, and I don't know when I'll get rid of it. ”

Qian Yun sighed: "This kind of thing is supposed to not allow me to talk more, but I think this is a little unfair to them, although I don't want other women in your eyes, but seeing that their lives are actually the same as the emperor, they are all alone in loneliness, I am an illusory existence after all, even if the emperor likes other women and has children with her, I will not do anything, because you can do this to me, I am already very grateful in my heart, you don't owe me anything, so you don't need to plan everything for me." In fact, I'm sorry that the person who is sorry for you is me, I have failed your heart, I have become like this now, in the final analysis, I actually made it myself, if I could have been smarter at that time, I could see through their methods, and I had the backbone to abandon them to live their own lives, and I would not have harmed myself like this. It's all my fault. ”

Zhu Zhao looked at her cheeks, which were still beautiful and seemed to have not been eroded by the years, and felt sad in his heart: "In the end, they provoked it first, otherwise you wouldn't be like this, in fact, I just thought that the two of us were in a similar situation, I watched you resist, and I felt very admiring you." And between me and my mother, in the end, it changed from the beginning of the incompatibility to a plain existence, and at this age, it seems that I can look down on many things, and everything is not worth caring about. ”