The next day, the reappearance of the big-eyed boy also confirmed the correctness of Xia Yejin's idea. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

He still looked like he was paralyzed, as if he was planning to go out, as soon as he saw Xia Yejin, his facial paralysis expression showed a slight smile, and before he could speak, Xia Yejin hurriedly grabbed him and asked, "Why did you run so fast last night, it was the 36th floor, big brother, what if-"

"It's okay, it's okay." The other party smiled lightly, he said that my company is downstairs, I originally wanted to wait for you, but suddenly I thought that something important fell in the office, so I hurried down to get it before the fire was completely helpless. The situation is urgent, so I forgot to tell you.

"Did you get the materials?"

"I got it, but fortunately, I moved quickly, and it almost burned out."

"That's good......" Xia Yejin lowered her head slightly, suddenly remembered one more thing, thought about it for a long time, and felt that it was a little abrupt to ask, but it was very abrupt not to ask, just when she was entangled for a long time and finally made up her mind to speak, she heard a smile in the other party's tone, and said, "My name is Fu Qingzhu." ”

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Xia Yejin silently read it and smiled, she said, this name sounds familiar, and it is very easy to remember.

In the slightly cold morning, the other party's smile was extraordinarily bright, and he looked at Xia Yejin, "You think it's familiar, maybe we've seen it before." ”

"It's true that you said that, I had a car accident two years ago, and I don't remember part of the previous events, since we work in the same building, maybe we have actually met."

Seeing her so serious, the other party laughed to himself, "I'll just casually say that you are still serious, don't forget that I haven't lost my memory." ”

After finishing speaking, seeing Xia Yejin with a thoughtful expression, he reached out and patted her shoulder, saying that if you forget, you will forget, since some things can be forgotten, it means that they are not too important to you. I'll go out grocery shopping right now and I'll be back later to cook you a big meal.

"See you later."

But Fu Qingzhu did not appear at noon, including the next few days, his whole person seemed to disappear, and there was no news at all.

"It wasn't until this time that I realized that I didn't know anything about him except that his name was Fu Qingzhu, and I didn't even have a phone number."

Xia Yejin sat on the brown sofa and looked at the young man opposite and said.

He is a psychiatrist, but unlike other doctors, he has no suits and leather shoes, no shirt and tie, the room is lightly heated, and he wears a light-colored dark striped shirt and a casual dark blue sweater on the outside, which makes people feel very relaxed at a glance.

But what is very strange is that Xia Yejin is still inexplicably nervous when she meets his good-looking eyes, so she simply doesn't look at it, just to see psychological problems, and it's not to make friends, there is no need to face his eyes.

After nearly half a year without news from Fu Qingzhu and no more seeing Fu Qingzhu, she finally believed that everything she had had was probably her own hallucination, so she was recommended to find this private clinic.

The other party listened quietly and motioned for her to continue.

"Then one day I met the landlord on the other side of the door, and I saw him posting an advertisement for rent and asked him, isn't this house already rented out, why do you still want to rent it? The landlord stared at me in shock for a few seconds, and then said that the house had been empty all along, and because the location was not good and it was backlit, it had not been able to be rented. I thought I had misheard, and asked several times in a row, although the other party did not say it explicitly, but from his eyes, I could almost tell that in the eyes of others, I was a psychopath. I went to Fu Qingzhu's so-called company again, a whole building of large and small companies to ask, and found that not only was there no one named Fu Qingzhu, but there were not even employees with the surname Fu. ”

"Actually, when I think about it later, the two of us seemed extremely unreal from the very beginning of our encounter. During that time, I was always suspected of hallucinating, but he was always able to show up when I was at my most depressed and dangerous. I guess this is probably my subconscious instinct to protect myself from harm. Because life is not satisfactory, and then I fantasize about an omnipotent hero who protects me and accompanies me all the time. When I think about it, I'm really sick to the point of being perverted. ”

"And you're here today to dispel this illusion?"

"It's not." Xia Yejin shook her head, "Actually, I haven't had hallucinations for a long time, and the so-called hallucinations in the past have already had other explanations. ”

Speaking of this, she stopped, and then as if she had mustered up enough courage, she looked up into the other party's eyes, "My memory of Fu Qingzhu is too deep and real, so real that I remember every tiny detail very clearly." I'm here today just to ask if human hallucinations can really be real to this extent? ”

Obviously, he didn't expect Xia Yejin to suddenly ask such a question, the other party was stunned for a moment, and then spoke in a gentle voice, "The degree of truth actually depends mainly on the individual." If you are particularly impressed by something, the touch of the human brain will be particularly obvious, then the hallucinations will be very realistic. ”

"So I actually know him, I knew Fu Qingzhu before, right?"

The other party shook his head, "...... In fact, from another aspect, the loss of memory means that the human brain subconsciously resists certain things and certain people, and the reason why this rejection or even resistance occurs is because people love those things too much or are too painful, and people produce antibodies based on their own protective instincts. And since you have lost some of your memories, whatever the reason, it means that your subconscious mind is unwilling to remember. So in general, a person is unlikely to hallucinate a person in his lost memory—"

"So that's not my hallucination at all?"

The other party paused, and his tone was helpless, "If you really want to think so, it's no problem." ”

"Or-" Xia Yejin suddenly got up from the sofa, she slowly walked in front of him, and then stood still, "The memory of this time and space is not forgotten because of the car accident, but I don't have it at all." I don't remember Fu Ziming, I don't remember that I had a decent job, and I don't remember that I was excellent from childhood to adulthood...... All of this, even though everyone around me is constantly telling me, still can't empathize with me as if I were listening to a story. ”

Suddenly there were a few birdsongs outside the window, and she turned her head to look, just in time to see the tall camphor in the corner of the yard, which had just rained, and the leaves were full of moisture.

"So I had a bold guess that in fact, what I lost was not the memory of everything I have now, but something else...... Some other memories? ”

"You want me to help you get your memories back?" The other party smiled, but the smile did not have any warmth, and even a little chill, which made Xia Yejin inexplicably a little uncomfortable, so she also smiled and said that you are a psychiatrist, I'm afraid you can't help people get back their memories, right?

Speaking of this, she took her eyes off his body and froze in a certain void, and then seemed to have made up her mind, "In the past few months, I have checked a lot of information, consulted many people, and found a way to treat hallucinations or symptoms like mine...... I think I should give it a try. ”

With that, she raised her hand.

"You? You calm down?! - "The other party was startled when he saw Xia Yejin take out a dagger, and wanted to step forward, but stopped when he met her expression, so he had to stretch out his hand and carefully stop it.

Xia Yejin hung the corners of his mouth, and pressed the knife in his hand to his heart for a few minutes, "Generally speaking, people who are trapped in the illusion can't get out by themselves, but what if I die...... I'm dead, and this illusion made for me no longer exists, right? ”

"Why are you doing this?" The psychiatrist was a little helpless, he tried to slowly approach Xia Yejin, but he was forced back into place without the dagger in her hand, so he had to persuade patiently, "Now you have an enviable career, a house and a car, a subordinate who loves you, your own social circle, and a boyfriend and husband who loves you in the near future, this is already satisfactory enough, why do you have to disrupt the original trajectory of your life because of a person who broke in inexplicably?" Completely unnecessary. ”

Xia Yejin didn't speak, pursed her lips, not knowing what she was thinking.

"I don't know if you have considered it from another angle, according to what you said, that Fu Qingzhu, let's just think that he is called this name, maybe it is not your illusion at all, he is a real person, and it is inconvenient to come out to meet you for various reasons, maybe he is still a wanted criminal, because of this, he is afraid that every time he contacts the police, he will only dare to meet with you alone...... There are all these possibilities, and you don't have to think outside the box and drive yourself into a dead end. ”

"You have a point." Xia Yejin was stunned for a long time and finally spoke, she said, I have indeed walked into a dead end, even if I want to cut myself off, I shouldn't be here, and it will affect you, the doctor.

The other party seemed to be a little impatient and frowned, "Why are you always so stubborn?" ”

Xia Yejin raised the corners of her mouth, and her faint smile was like a circle of light in the sun, blurring on her pale and almost bloodless face.

Gong Chenshi once said that the nature of her work determines that she should not integrate herself too much into those historical figures who have disappeared, because the encounter is always short-lived, and she must leave at a fixed time, which is something that cannot be chosen, and she will only suffer too much in the end.

But the moment the dagger glowing with silver-white light pierced into her heart, Xia Yejin thought that she had to make a choice, even if there was only a one percent chance, even if it was broken, she would find that person.

The dissipated memories slowly became clearer.

That day in purgatory, when her body slowly became transparent and disappeared, Fu Qingzhu stood opposite her. And at this moment, she finally remembered the expression on Fu Qingzhu's face and the last words he said to her that day, just like in this time and space, he smiled and said to her that I went to buy vegetables and met later, which was in the long years, after thousands of years of rolling red dust, the historical rings have not changed, reaching the deepest tenderness and affection in Xia Yejin's heart.