Chapter 51: Knowing the Secret
Daddy usually speaks intermittently, without consistent coherence, which sounds very laborious, and some words are ambiguous. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info Gu Lixuan only hopes that he can seriously tell himself the cause and effect of the whole thing.
"Daddy, tell me all you know about my mother's disappearance! You know, all! Gu Lixuan guided, it was not easy to let Dad loosen his mouth, and he must understand it thoroughly when he took the opportunity.
Dad walked into the bedroom alone, and when he came out, he had an extra cigarette in his hand, unconsciously lit it, took a deep breath, swallowed it into his throat, and slowly spit out a smoke ring.
In Gu Lixuan's impression, his father rarely smokes, unless he encounters something that upsets him.
Dad smoked the kind of dry tobacco in the early days, he bought the raw materials himself, took the paper wrappers neatly, and then treasured them in his old moon cake box, which was renewed once a year, and he would take them out to relieve his worries when he was upset.
Gu Lixuan and Lin Sha couldn't sit still for a long time, their eyes had been staring closely at their father's every move, but they only watched timidly, for fear that a move would anger their father, but the gains would outweigh the losses.
Daddy indifferently spat out a smoke ring, and the smell of smoke was blown around by the ceiling fan overhead, and finally drifted out of the open window.
Silence surrounded the three of them, and the air seemed to freeze, and for a long time, Daddy's lips moved.
"Lixuan, in fact, the reason why a secret is called a secret is that the less people know, the safer it is, just as some things people don't know but can be happy and wanton, once they know, it is often accompanied by a lot of responsibility and a lot of costs!" Daddy murmured, "So you're ready?" ”
Gu Lixuan looked at his nose and his nose, then raised his head and nodded steadily.
He has been tormented by this secret for so many years, and his father may know but pretend to be stupid, or he may not know at all.
"The first time your mother disappeared was when you two were three years old, she was picking vegetables in the backyard, I was talking to her in the house, and suddenly your mother was silent, and I didn't care, after a while, I thought she should cook, so I reminded her, but no one responded, so I rushed to the backyard, where is your mother's figure, and the vegetables on the ground have not been picked, I was very anxious, and the neighbors asked around, and they all said that they had not seen your mother, and when they went to the police station to report the crime, it had been 24 hours!"
Daddy seemed to recall the past, his eyes were wet, and he seemed to remember it vividly.
Gu Lixuan's backyard was surrounded by a wall, the vegetable garden was in the backyard, and the exit could only go to the hall.
"As a result, your mother suddenly appeared at the entrance of the village after two days, and Agui, who came back from the market, found her when she passed through the entrance of the village, she was sitting under a gardenia tree, her face was at a loss, and her eyes were not bright, after Agui reported to me, I rushed over, your mother was still sitting there, I asked her why she didn't go home, where did she go? She didn't say a word. I saw that her mental state was not very good, thinking that she was kidnapped by someone, so I took her home first, thinking that the days were still long, she was in better spirits, and she would tell me! ”
Dad said it very carefully, he told everything in detail, and he cherished every time with his mother.
"However, your mother still lied to me, she said that she went to a relative's house, I didn't care at the time, I didn't expect that she disappeared for no reason not long after, this time I came back, her mood was obviously much better, there was no such confusion, but since then, she has become a little sentimental, occasionally staying at home alone, closing the door, I don't know what I'm doing? I once went to see it secretly and found that she was writing, so I didn't take it seriously, but the frequency of your mother's disappearances has become very frequent, and every time I ask her, she will still say that she went to a relative's house, I just think it's strange, and I don't have associations. But your mother's temperament has changed a lot, and she is a little silent, and sometimes she looks at the sky for no reason, as if she is worried that the sky will fall! ”
"I try my best to keep your mother secret, but the paper never keeps the fire, and your mother will suddenly disappear from the neighbor's house occasionally, and they will come to ask me, so I have to give your mother a sloppy look, fortunately, the neighbors don't care so much, but I am interested!"
Daddy took a puff of old cigarette and sighed again: "Your mother has no relatives, and it was your aunt who found her next to a shop that sold broken copper and scrap metal, and she was wearing an ancient costume of fine workmanship. The hairstyle is also antique, it looks like those horns who sing on stage, at that time, when opera was just emerging, your aunt wanted to ask her which troupe she belonged to, and wanted to send her back, but your mother looked stupid and stupid, and she spoke very little, and your aunt saw that she was homeless, so she took her home and asked her to help do some female work and earn some money. Your mother is a clever learner and a very good learner. I saw her pitiful but likable, so I often visited her, and it was good to come and go! ”
Daddy's eyes became misty, and memories were a terrible thing, and he was sweet and painful.
"Daddy, you just said that when your aunt found out about her mother, what kind of costume was her wearing? Still at home? Gu Lixuan hurriedly asked.
In his impression, there doesn't seem to be such a beautiful costume.
Dad looked out the window, came back to his senses, and shook his head: "This is all what your aunt told me, the clothes should be at your aunt's, and I have only seen it once." I don't remember it for a long time! ”
Gu Lixuan said in his heart: Regret. This is an important piece of evidence, and if you have clothes, you can examine it.
"Did Mother tell you her secret at the end?" Gu Lixuan felt that he shouldn't have interrupted his father, and his father didn't seem to want to say too much about conclusive language now.
Dad glanced at Gu Lixuan, very dissatisfied: "When I was also packing up your mother's relics a long time later, I found a note attached to the mezzanine of the old camera's box.
Daddy suddenly got up and walked to the bedroom, Gu Lixuan watched Daddy's figure go in, after a while, Daddy walked out slowly and handed a yellowed photo to Gu Lixuan, obviously, Daddy often reminisced about the past, the plastic film on the photo was wrapped recently, and the photos inside already had raw edges. He still remembers the photo that it was Aunt Xu next door who took a family photo of their family of four, and his mother's smile was very light.
Gu Lixuan turned the photo around and read the words on it. A cold sweat broke out behind him instantly. The mystery that has been unsolved is because of the lack of this piece, no wonder he can't think of something else.
He seems to already know where Yan Hanzhi went?