I still didn't make it after all. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoBefore I could get close to him, I was sedated and passed out.

This was originally prepared by my uncle to prevent me from being too sad and too excited today, but I didn't expect it to come in handy under such circumstances.

After waking up, everything was over, and the man was gone. Everyone looked at me as if they were watching a farce that was over. With deep compassion, it was a mockery of my embarrassment and a little bit of fear because of my madness.

I didn't speak again.

The departure of my parents made me feel like I had grown into an adult in an instant. I understand more what my parents said at the beginning, my father said a long time ago, in this world, the only people who can trust me are him and my mother. Because of love.

And now, there is no one who can trust me anymore.

I don't speak, I don't resist, I don't care, I just let them go crazy for me.

When the dust settled, my aunt took me home, only this time, instead of being a relative who came to visit occasionally, I was adopted. One, an orphan living with a relative.

For three months, I've only said one word. "Is that man dead?"

In the past three months, the attitude of my aunt and uncle has changed from doubt and pity at the beginning, to faint alienation and fear in the end.

I thought, in their opinion, I must be a neurotic lunatic. Maybe they also saw my vulnerability, and the death of my parents had driven me crazy.

This situation lasted until three months later, and I asked again.

"Dead, he's dead, you're satisfied." My uncle's voice was overtly fearful, probably because of my persistent and malicious inquiries and the facts that were now established, giving him the illusion that the man was cursed to death.

God knows, I think it's true. And yet I know, that's not. God didn't give me more than the ability to see the misfortunes of youkai.

Since then, I have clearly felt a change in my aunt's attitude towards me. Materially I'm still very good, but emotionally I'm starting to drift away.

It's not that they are obvious, but after my parents left, my perception and feelings of emotions have already become extremely sensitive.

I don't think I'll ever tell them what I've seen. Not only because there is no one in this world who loves me as much as my parents, but also because I am afraid that the same thing will happen to them. I can't afford to lose anything, especially before I've learned to protect, or rather, after I've ruled out danger.

They thought the man was dead. But I felt that he was still alive. Perhaps, with another identity. With the deliberateness of the youkai I know now, since he can disguise himself among humans, it is not impossible to change his identity. He didn't have to pay anything other than losing a filthy human skin.

I'm just wondering why I was left behind, wouldn't it be nice to let me die together, why did I be left alone, the one who could see him. Since you have done such a thing that annihilates human nature, you should take me away quietly and neatly. Wouldn't it be more pleasant to leave behind an enemy who could see him?

Later, I realized that many tortures can only be endured by living, and sometimes, being alive is more terrible than dying. What's more, this man has long been convinced, and I can't kill him.

The day after I learned of the man's alleged death, I told my aunt that I wanted to go back to school.

Until then, I don't want to take a step out of the room. Because my life, since my parents left, has been completely turned upside down. I'd rather feel sorry for myself in my room than look at anyone again. Now, I've changed my mind.

Although they were a little apprehensive about my recent performance, they were quite happy when I asked to go to school.

Perhaps in their opinion, most of the reason for my abnormality some time ago was the mental instability caused by the sudden death of my parents. If I had gone to school, perhaps I would have fulfilled the old adage that time would be the cure for everything. They always feel sorry for me, so they try to think in the best direction of everything.

But I know for myself that I'm not the same as I used to be. I can really treat both humans and youkai as normal, because I can't trust anyone anymore.

The relationship with my aunt's family has always been so close and not close, not only because of the closed mentality that I have changed, but also in order not to make it difficult for my uncle, although they didn't say it, but I know that everyone is laughing at them for having a crazy niece. That day's banquet, that day's funeral, since then, whether I'm really crazy or not, in their eyes, I'm already a madman.

I already have to bear a lot, my parents' life debt is still on my back, I can't, I owe more.

After I was 16 years old, I bought a small apartment with my parents' inheritance and moved out. Occasionally, I would go back to see my aunt and uncle, but I would never talk about the past, and I rarely talked about my current situation. However, I am not worried that my aunt will be too worried or sad because of this, after all, my cousin will be responsible for calming my aunt's emotions and attracting her limited energy. My aunt's life, even without me, would be very happy. So, I don't want her to be upset about me anymore. The gradual emotional estrangement was a voluntary undertaking for me. I'm special, destined to stay away from everything, people and monsters. Until everything settles, but how long that was, I don't know.

I always had a hunch that I would see that snake demon again. At that point, I'll do everything I can to kill him. But I don't think about how it will end. I have hatred in my heart, but I still have reason, and I know that even if he is a demon, he has the identity of a human being in disguise, and killing him is no different from killing someone, it is a crime. Not even mentioning this, in terms of force alone, I probably can't beat him. But even so, I absolutely, must, kill him. Regardless of the method, no matter the cost. Until I die, I will never let him go.

Holding his breath, he studied to death and studied medicine. I chose to major in forensics in college, and the reason I probably didn't want something like that to happen to my parents again. I have seen the murdered parents defined as accidental deaths, I have watched the murderer disappear into the world with impunity, I have seen with my own eyes the traces that clearly should exist have been denied by human beings, I don't want to see these again, I don't want to think of the helpless and cowardly self when I was nine years old.

I used to hate my eyes, and every time I looked in the mirror, I expected to see a monster in the mirror, even if it was a monster, so that I would no longer be an outlier among human beings.

I always have insomnia night after night, thinking about my parents, thinking about the past, thinking about a lot. What am I? Why, I see these unconventional beings, and what is the point of my own existence, to be despised, to be suspected, to be hurt, or to bring harm to others, is that all?

But no matter how many thoughts I have every night, during the day I always return to that expressionless, calm and calm appearance. I am me, a human, a human who can see youkai, just a human.

Now, I seem to be able to understand what these eyes can give me. Since I can see what others can't, those scars that will be covered up, and the truths that will be covered up, I have an obligation to unravel it and expose it. I want those unscrupulous monsters, and they will never recover. I can't allow them to go unpunished like this, I ask the world to sanction them, and if the law can't punish them if humanity can't punish them, maybe, I need to do my best to sanction them with my own hands.

It's not for other people, or for justice, it's just for myself, the only reason I have to find for myself that can sustain me in life.

I no longer have timidity, no fear, no sympathy, no compassion, nothing. Since my parents left, there was only one meaning left in my life, revenge, and uncovering the truth.

I'll find it someday, that youkai.