Chapter 42: Steadfastness
Because she slept too much during the day, in the middle of the night, Qian Yuning naturally woke up, and when she opened her eyes, it was pitch black on the left and right, which made her think that she was still in the broken house in Jiangning. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoBut after the eyes have adjusted to the darkness, I look again, and it turns out that it is still in Hansong Temple. Qian Yuning got up and got out of bed, a chill hit, making people shiver a few times involuntarily, she quickly took a thick coat from the bed to put it on, came to the round table, poured the cold jujube tea in the pot into the cup and drank it in one gulp, although it was a little cold, but I felt that the whole person was sober, and her body was not as soft as a few days ago. Qian Yuning came to the window with the moonlight spilling in front of the window, looked out from the broken window curtain paper, and saw the thick snow in the yard at a glance, a piece of white. The cold wind kept pouring wind from the small hole in the window paper, Qian Yuning tightened the clothes on her body, remembering that this time last year, it was the first winter of her dead husband, when she lived alone in a rented small broken house, it was very cold at night, there was no trace of warmth, she was sometimes so cold that she couldn't stand it, and she was curled up in a thin and old quilt and cried until dawn.
Qian Yuning stroked her belly, which was already slightly bulging, feeling the warmth of the child in her belly, she silently asked herself in her heart, what should I do now? She lowered her head and muttered to her stomach, "Child, what should my mother do?" You say, "Will your father come and save us?" No one answered her, but at this moment, the child in her belly seemed to move. Although it was only a slight one, Qian Yuning did feel it, she thought it was the encouragement given to her by the child, inexplicably, Qian Yuning seemed to feel that she had figured it out all at once, and all the problems were not problems. She thought of her eldest daughter Niuniu again, yes, for the sake of the child, I must live, and I have to live well, why do I have to live so miserable and pitiful? Am I just going to be bullied all the time? No, I have to be better and stronger to protect my two children and myself. Since Mrs. Hou Fu has sent herself to raise the baby, she must still value the child in my belly, and it seems that she will not treat me well before giving birth, so I want to eat and drink well, raise me to be white and fat, and give birth to the child safely. As for the little marquis, he must be sincere to me, I believe that Qian Yuning looked up at the starry sky at the moment, thinking of Cui Shuyan's kindness to her, and his heart was full of confidence, besides, the little marquis said that he loved me, and he didn't come to pick me up now, maybe just because he hadn't found me yet.
Sure enough, as long as this person turns the tip of the bull's horns, he feels that everything is bad and wrong, but once he wants to pass, he is not afraid of anything, and difficulties and hardships can also be laughed over.
Touching a piece of jade on her neck, warm and delicate, soft to the touch, this was on the night of Jiang Ning's marriage to the little marquis, the little marquis personally put it on her, she knew that before, this fast jade pendant was his personal thing, now that I think about it, it is especially sweet, Qian Yuning's heart began to calm down, no longer flustered, as if a person who had sunk in the water suddenly found a small boat on the boundless water, that is the hope of life.
This night, Qian Yuning lay in bed and couldn't sleep, thinking a lot, thinking about why she followed the little marquis, thinking about what she wanted to do in the future, thinking about the past, the meanness of the Wei family's mother-in-law, Wei Mingyuan's negativity, Niuniu was snatched away, her father died, her mother's sadness, her brother's helplessness, she remembered the shamelessness of Cui County's order and the power of the Gao family. All of this is because I am too weak and helpless. Qian Yuning began to seriously recall what Mama Liu had said to her, grasp the heart of the little marquis, give birth to a little son, the little son will be angry, and she will naturally be much better off as a mother.
Qian Yuning gently pressed her lower abdomen, which was already slightly bulging, she wanted to know if it was her son in her belly, but she had no way of knowing. She wanted to convince herself that boys and girls were the same, their own children. However, remembering that from the moment she gave birth to her eldest daughter Niuniu, the Wei family's mother-in-law knew that it was just a girl, and when she looked at her cold eyes and obvious disappointment on her face, as well as the ensuing anger and all kinds of torture and abuse against her, it was all because she failed to give birth to a son. Qian Yuning felt the cold wind blowing in the crack of the window, closed her eyes, and told herself in her heart that this time she must fight for her strength and give birth to a son. She wants to live well, live happily and happily, and don't go to live the kind of life where she eats the last meal and doesn't have the next, clenching the jade in her hand, Qian Yuning secretly swore that she would never be abandoned for the second time, she must follow the little Hou Ye, and go to live in the Hou Mansion, since they want her to die, she wants to live well and happily in front of them, and see what other poisonous tricks they have to harm themselves and their children.
Thinking about it like this, Qian Yuning suddenly felt that nothing was no longer scary, was it? No matter how hard it is, I didn't have to huddle alone in Jiangning City in the cold night, freezing and hungry, at that time, I really thought that my whole life would be like this, maybe I would be frozen to death one day. Although it is difficult now, after all, there is still the child in the belly, as well as the little marquis, Niuniu, and Liu Sun's two grandmothers. The time in the Green Willow Courtyard, the young lady did not harm herself and the child, even though it was dangerous this time, at least it was safe to occupy the time, for today's plan, first slowly contact Liu Sun and the two grandmothers, and then think of asking them to go down the mountain to find the little marquis to rescue themselves and the child, it is the best policy.
When a person's heart is hurt again and again, it will be depressed and lost, but in the end, the pain will make it strong, and from then on, there will be no more fear.
Since then, Qian Yuning has become quieter and more obedient, eating on time every day, sleeping on time, walking around the yard when he has nothing to do, or sitting in the yard to bask in the sun and embroider flowers when the weather is good. Dingyuan Shi Taixian still stared closely at Chuyan and Chujing every day, so after two months, everything was normal, the two little nuns were young after all, and they loved to talk about it, chatting about the day and being similar to the daughters-in-law and girls of ordinary people, it can be seen that nuns are also women, no matter how much they eat fasting and chanting Buddha, they can't get rid of the nature of women who love to chat. Qian Yuning started to come up and chat with them from time to time, but later, they took the initiative to find Qian Yuning to chat. The three of them slowly got acquainted, and often sat in the Hansong courtyard drinking tea, basking in the sun, and chatting. Qian Yuning occasionally gave them some silk flowers and some delicate trinkets, they were always very happy, and slowly called Qian Yuning her sister.
As the host, Mrs. Dingyuan is busy, she doesn't come once a month, and occasionally asks Chu Yan Chu Jing, and both of them also say that Aunt Qian is very obedient every day, nothing unusual, and gradually, Mrs. Dingyuan will be thrown away. Thinking in her heart, it would not be easy for a weak woman to escape down the mountain in the mountains, and besides, she was a few months pregnant, and the mountain road was rugged, so she must have been afraid. Moreover, I also sent Chu Yan Chu Jing to watch, and forgive her and didn't dare to do anything wrong.
Dingyuan thought well, but she didn't know that many impossible things in this world sometimes became possible.
Mrs. Qingyuan often came to Hansong Courtyard to diagnose Qian Yuning's pulse, the two of them had originally fallen in love, and for a long time, they had a lot of feelings, Qian Yuning was grateful to Master Qingyuan for coming to save her life in the snow, and now she cherishes herself so much, takes care of herself meticulously, and has always been very kind to Master Qingyuan in her heart.
Qian Yuning's belly got bigger, looking at it for five months, Mrs. Qingyuan said that she needed to move slowly and more every day to help her future production, so she began to take Qian Yuning out of the gate of Hansong Courtyard. Mrs. Dingyuan originally didn't allow it, but Mrs. Qingyuan said that with her by her side, if you take her out every day, you will definitely bring her back, and Mrs. Dingyuan agreed, but she still ordered Chuyan and Chujing to follow.
Qian Yuning had nothing to do, so she embroidered a handkerchief for Mrs. Qingyuan, because Mrs. Qingyuan was a nun, she was not good at embroidery, so she embroidered one according to the appearance of Guanyin, but she didn't expect Mrs. Qingyuan to be very happy after receiving it. Qian Yuning saw that the clothes worn by Mrs. Qingyuan and her apprentice Mengxing were ill-fitting and tattered, so she made two new clothes for her, so that Mrs. Qingyuan and Master Mengxing liked her even more.